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Chapter 3: Am I not strong enough?

Rosalie point of view

I was driving listening to the radio an old song of Toni Braxton 'all night' and pictures of my Emmett just flew in my head. I missed him so much. I wondered if he had noticed that I hadn't spent the night with him for the first time since we did get engaged. I remembered that we didn't have the courage to spend even more than 2 hours without each other. Now, many wedding and years after he was simply avoiding my presence. How could have thing changed so much? Was it me who had changed and lost his ability to love me? Did he fancy another girl?

I refused to even consider this possibility. I have driven hours and when I thought that I have been far enough, I stopped and run before breaking down and sob uncontrollably for one hour. I couldn't understand my feeling. There were like on a rollercoaster. Upside down. Completely overwhelmed by my pain, I hadn't even heard it approach. I definitely smell it. I didn't even have to raise my head to know that the disgusting smell was announcing a Quileute werewolf. As soon as this realization came to my mind I asked myself why was one of them so far from home. I didn't have time to interrogate myself more about it. I heard the sound of their retransformation and another wolf appeared! That was just my luck!

"Rosalie? Are you ok? Are you hurt?" the sweet and nice voice of Seth, the only one that I truly care about, asked. I was too much out of control to stop my cries. He took me with hesitation in his arm like he was afraid that I will harm him. Strangely for two enemies, he appeased me.

"What's going on?"Leah voice asked. "Why are you so far from Fork?"

"That does not concern you" I replied

"Bitchy are we?"Leah mocked, "PSMing much? Oh sorry, I've almost forgotten that you don't have this since a long time"

"Not that you know more about it!"I replied, happy to shut her up. I hear a growl.

"At least when I will find my imprint, I will be normal again" she added.

"Stop! Both of you!"Seth ordered. The girl had hit the nail on his head but I will not let her see my pain! She will have no evidence of her winning, nothing to gloat on…

"Whatever has happened Rosalie, you must go back to Emmett! He might be in pain and this is not good for you guys! Please" Seth pleaded.

"I know Seth! I know! Just give me one or two days and I will be back!"I confessed.

"Promise?" he asked, with his pinky fingers waiting for mine. That was just so wheezy but so Seth too. "Promise" I genuinely stated.

"Let's go Seth! I want to arrive before sunset!" Leah finished.

Seth excused his sister and after a long glance, he followed her. I decided to continue my trip. I always think clearer when I'm driving. When I arrived near my car, I was already replaying my exchange with Leah. The girl had not enough gut for the moment to become an honorable bitch like me but she sure knew how to bless someone. I missed my humanity so much. I wasn't blaming Carlisle anymore but the fact that I couldn't even have the annoying girl's bleeding every month was difficult to me.

While Renesmee was growing, I was becoming more and more ashamed of my inaptitude to offer the same gift that Bella have given Edward. This last month, however, had been far worse. My monkey man spent more and more time with her and if I wasn't really jealous of that, I had felt the difference in his attitude. So, I tried to spend more time with him and strengthen our bond, but everything was going nuts. Me first.

Nevertheless, I couldn't interrogate Emmett about it. I was too afraid of him leaving me. Thus, I used my reason. Every couple if you read magazine has some difficulty time to time. I've read about the seven years cap etc… Being a vampire I thought, our unstable period might be now. Everything would have gone smoothly better in a few, I have thought. One month later unfortunately, nothing had changed. It was time to take some distance and to analyze the problem.

"Talking openly with your husband and put card on table must have been your first priority" my conscience told me. So yes, I was a coward and? It wasn't really as if I was running away from home. Right? I examine myself in the mirror and realize what a mess I was. I combed my hair, put some lipstick and thought that I will have to hunt soon because I had big dark circle and my eyes were darker than usual. My mother voice came from my memories reminding me that a lady always have to be perfect no matter the situation and without even thinking about it, I was making a trip down the memories lane some decade ago…