Chapter 4: Confession.

I don't know what I'll say when I will confront Jacob…I don't know how I will say it but…I have to do this.

If I didn't do it today I can't do it any other day and I am aware of it.

I picked up my car keys and strode out of the house. My phone rang many times but I ignored it. I sat I n my Mercedes and headed to La Push. It was raining heavily, the rood was very slippery o maybe I was driving too fast and loosing the grip…I reached the on the outside of La Push. The werewolves must have smelled a vampire, and they did as they were standing on the road towards the beach in a line facing towards me in the garrulous heavy rain. I stopped the car. I rolled down the window as Sam came near to talk.

"What are you doing here?" He asked rudely. Water dripping from his hair and completely drenched. I have given them, so much trouble in the past that they were buried that I was here with a new chronicle. As a fact I was, but it did not include them.

"I am here to meet someone." I said serenely. Jacob was not among the pack of wolves on the road.

"Who you wanna meet?" Paul asked from the row.

I kept quite.

Leah and the others were glaring at me with no reason, only Seth showed some cordial expression.

It's none of your business. I wanted to say but, then they will send me out. But today I needed to enter La Push.

"Jacob." I whispered.

Sam widened his eyes and Leah barked from behind.

"How much will you trouble him, huh?"

"I was looking forward to a peaceful talk to him, that's all!" I answered.

She snarled.

"Can I go?" I asked Sam. Though I knew he would let me.

He looked back at the others and then said "Yeah, go."

I roared the engine to life and the werewolves walked out of the way. Then I drove quickly. The rain was making it difficult to see, but I reached at the Black's.

I turned down the engine and came out of the car. It took no second for rain to damp me. I walked toward the door, nervous that how will I do it. I hope Billy was not at home. And to my surprised I could only smell one werewolf. I waited outside as I knew Jacob would come out smelling me and he…did.

He opened the door.

"Bella-?" he said, looking surprised and happy both to see me, but his expression harden and as he called out my name I became so nervous and my body gave me chills as I looked at him. He was so handsome, his jet black hair…his eyes…his lips…

"J-Jake-?" I murmured.

"Bella look I don't think we should talk…I… told you that I was sorry that I got my feelings overcome my endurance and I am sorr hurt you, so go away…" he blurred out.

I could the pain while he said the last two words.

"Jacob…!" I said quickly as he turned around to go inside.

"Jacob why are you feeling sorry? You didn't do anything wrong, Jake." I said and made my water dripping hair out of my face, I was so nervous that I didn't look into his eyes.

He stopped and faced me. I looked at the ground; the rain was so heavy that it was difficult to keep my eyes open but managed.

"Jacob, listen to me, I am here for confession…it is making me suffocate, making me hard to breathe and think…that night…" I said but he cut me off.

"…that night I acted as a fool, I know you are married, I know you are a mother, I know this is the think that suffocating you…so let's leave ourselves alone!" he said meaninglessly.

"No!-No! You are getting it all wrong! Jacob you are getting it wrong!" I said pleadingly.

"So give the right." He spitted out.

"Jacob, it is hard for me to make you understand…" I mumbled as the rain drops kept on coming and wet me, make me feel heavier…

"But I will try." I said and took a step further. He stood with his hands crossed around his hands listening to me.

"That night when you were…near me…I felt…felt right, like I have felt in the past years." I said looking at the ground.

"Look in my eyes Bella." He said firmly.

"I looked in his eyes full of love and passion for me. I removed the hair from my face looked at him and spoke.

"That night…I felt…what I should have felt three years ago…I am not happy to be a vampire Jacob, I am not happy. I know I have given you the biggest troubles in your life and the reason for the pain that you feel is me…I know." I said nervously.

"I know after what I will say you will be sarcastic, telling me that you were right, but you were right Jacob, you were. I don't love Edward… and today I f you don't accept me…it will be fine because it was my fault…mine." I said and felt a choke in my neck and my eyes wet and warm.

"Accept you for what, Bella?" Jacob asked innocently.

"… With you being around is warm and secure, Jake which I don't feel around Edward…I was wrong- yes- I was wrong…" I said and Jacob's expressions soften.

"…to choose Edward and leave you behind but the truth is…the truth is…I miss you…miss your laugh, your jokes, your security, your warmth…and you should know that I…I…" I whispered.

"What is it, Bella?" he asked loudly.

"I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU JACOB!" I shouted. And I realized that I had done it, confessed to Jacob that I loved him, and Love him more than anyone.

Anyone.

And the next thing I know was that Jacob came towards me, in the rain. Slipped his hand in my waist and stare into my eyes.

"I knew it, Bella. I knew." He said and placed his lips on mine.

I didn't stop him. I held him tight on his neck and he moved his lips swiftly on mine, and I enjoyed the feeling. The feeling that I had never felt with Edward.

Jacob lips were warm and he moved his lips in a pleasurable motion on mine. He strongly gripped my waist and I could feel the heat between my legs…he moved his hands into my hairs and continued kissing me… I was so happy, he accepted me, and he loved me…I loved him…I had confessed to him…I did it.

Suddenly Jacob stopped kissing. And stared at me, he was wet like me and smiling, I smiled back. He put his hands on my face and grinned.

"Let's go inside." He said pleasantly, and I followed him toward the door with his hands in my hand and I felt so affectionate to him, and ignored all the missed calls from someone called Edward Cullen.