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CHAPTER FOUR:

Ste clung to the shower wall in hopeless effort as the water continued to fall down on him, what once felt relaxing it now felt like it was pelting down on him giving him halucinations. With his back against the wall he sunk to his knee's and felt the air draining out of him.

"Steven.. I.. Your key card.." whispered Brendan. Ste found the courage to gaze upwards at the man he had blocked from his thoughts with his best efforts for a whole two years. That man was here, infront of Ste in the flesh. Now the tears had started they wouldnt stop, and he was shivering despite being under the full force of the water, Brendan could see the goose pimples rising on his skin.

Without taking his eyes off of Ste, Brendan slipped his shoes off and gave his socks a quick tug throwing them to the side where they landed with a clatter. He removed the silver watch and placed it onto the edge of the shelf and withdrew his blazer with it landing on the floor, a pool of black material. Ste thought to himself he must be dreaming as he never risked damage to his expensive suits. A crisp white shirt was now having the sleeves rolled promptly up, the leather belt from around his waist being removed. Landing atop of the jacket. A flurry of butterflies forming in his stomach brendan gasped as he saw ste smacking his head against the glass wall, knowing with searing guilt that this was all his fault so with that, Brendan climbed into the shower closing the glass door behind him, and drowning out the radio.

Shaking his head as the water fell from his hair into his eyes, Brendan fell to the tiles in front of Ste. He gripped his head and pulled it into his shoulder, taking in the smell of this boy, his steven. The smell was even better than he remembered. He avoided looking down, trying to show respect for this man, steven covered his modesty with his hands and frankly suprised Brendan with his next move.

"NO, Get your hands off of me!" Ste yelled and bit into his shoulder, scratched Brendan for all he was worth. Blood started to seep out of a cut onto his forearm and he swore.
"Fuck, Steven.." Gasped Brendan.
"No I'm not steven anymore.." Snarled Ste, "Its Ste, although to you its nothing, you left me. I rang everyday for seven months, visiting orders rejected, letters returned unread, I lost everything.." Ste broke down in sobs and looked Brendan straight into the darkest corners of his seemingly blue eyes.. "You were my everything." Wrapping his arms around his knees he slammed his head against the glass.

Brendan knelt down, tears pooling in his own eyes as he reached for Ste's cheek.
"I thought about you everyday, every single rosary bead that passed through my hand was in thought of you, when I went to councilling every single conversation was about you, my emergency contact was you.." He paused for breath as the sobs from Ste continued. Smoothing his fingers over the brusing on Ste's shoulder where he fell earlier he picked up again. "When I was released I came straight home to chester, I watched you for a day before deciding to tell you I was out of prison, you had moved on with that doug guy.. You didn't need me anymore, so I left once again to give you the happy ever after that you deserved..." He took a shaky breath and whispered "The happy ever after we were supposed to have." With that he fell back against the tiles and let his heart over come him, The two men slumped under the collision of water and tears.

After a few minutes, and the shock starting to subside Ste glanced over at Brendan and noticed the blood spreading onto the white shirt, The water tight material only encouraging the bleeding. He knelt up and crawled towards Brendan meerly touching a hand onto his knee, as light as a feather.
"Brendan, we need to stop this injury.. I.." Ste sighed at him.
Brendan reached out to cup Ste's face and breathed between sobs "I just poured my heart out to you, and your worried about some blood on a shirt? Leave it.."

Ste clambered up unsteadlly offering out his hand and Brendan followed suit, Getting a shock when his hand was in Ste's, pulling them down to the end of the shower where there was hardly any water. A small electric current that made him jump. Ste was overcome by the man standing in front of him, he had been willing to do anything to see this sight again, now he was standing within reach. Slowly taking him in from head to toe, after a two year absence he found that his brown hair was turnt black from the sheer volume of water in it, His eyes a frosty shade of the blue they used to be, tear stains down his cheeks that could of been water if his eyes werent so puffy. A broader frame than he remembered followed, Shoulders and biceps straining at the tight now see through shirt, crinkles at the elbow highlighting impresive triceps, but more importantly the seeping blood. Brendan was quiet, not making a sound apart from the odd sob after calming his crying, watching Steven warily. Ste slowly pulled the shirts buttons apart with trembling fingers not helped by the soaking material and the slippery ridges.

Seven buttons later and the shirt fell apart exposing brendans chest, and the shiny silver crucifix rosary settled amongst the scattering of chest hair. Stepping closer he heard Brendan breathe in, this only defining his toned chest even more, It was breath taking. Reaching forward he stroked his hand down Brendan's chest and saw Brendan tilt his head back slightly at the touch. Running his hands over his abdominals Brendan leaned into the touch, and a small groan escaped his lips. Ste knew he had to stop this ever spreading bleed though so he ignored the groan, pretending it hadnt shot straight to his groin and started to peel off his shirt, left arm first. Once the clear arm was free of the saturated shirt, he peeled back the right arm, bracing himself for the blood but he didnt expect what was coming. His eyes set on the small wound, Brendan was right, nothing worth panicking over but then his eyes met the second mark on the arm.

A new tattoo. An ace of hearts. Ste ran his fingers over it.
"Whats this?" Ste murmered, point blank starting up at brendan.
"Its an ace of hearts steven, I, Yeah.." He stopped promptly.
"Why did you get this done?" Ste started to sob again, tears rolling down his face.
"Judging by your reaction, I'd say you already know.."
"I need this, I need to know, Even after all this time.." It became too much for Ste, and he chocked out a loud gasp for oxygen. Turning around he clung to the inside shelf.
"Steven, Steven breathe.." Rasped Brendan, Athough he wasnt sure what to do, Ste looked like he would collapse any minute from the coldness deep inside him.

Brendan stepped forwards, any decency gone to pot and pulled Ste into his arms, his shaking back covered in goose pimples resting against Brendan's own hairy chest, his arms engulfing him and supporting his frame. Leaning forwards into the body pressing against him he reached stevens ear and whispered "Shh..."

Ste cut him off, clinging on to the bare arms wrapped tightly around him. "Tell me why you have that tattoo.." He stammered and breathed "I NEED to know."
Brendan leaned forward and layed his mouth behind Ste's ear planting a kiss there, resisting working down his neck though pure instinct was screaming at him too when Steven's shivering naked body was pressed into the front of him.
"Remember when we were first together, we used to sit in on our own, I taught you how to play poker because you didn't know. It become our code name.." Brendan paused as Ste lifted his head up.
"Ace. Our code name was ace.." Murmered Ste, coming to a sense of recognition.
Holding him even tighter around his naked middle Brendan ran his hand down Ste's side, Ste's body betrayed him and rewarded brendan with a series of shivers pressing into brendan's hard exterior. With a failing amount of self control Brendan continuted.
"You became my ace steven.." Feeling the drops of water on his arms that could now only be tears seeing as he was sheilding him from the water, Brendan took a deap breath and turned Ste to face him. Holding his gaze, he bent his head until they were barely inches apart. Wiping the tears falling from Ste's face away with his thumb, He breathed "And you will always have my heart. You became The ace of Hearts."