Ok so I'm having a few problems with how I want to work the next few chapters. I know what the end result is, but I'm not sure how I want to get there yet. I'm going to just go with it but let me know if it's not sounding right! This is the part where it hits really close to home so I'm sorry if the next 2 or 3 chapters get a little edgy.

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Chapter 4: Rapid Hope Loss

I was on cloud nine! I was practically in heaven! I could not believe that I just spent the night dancing with Spencer. It was absolutely amazing. I usually hate dancing, but with her I couldn't stop. The way she just held me close to her made me feel alive. Sleeping was agony. Dreams kept filling my head about Spencer and what our little friendship could become. I never grew close to someone that quickly before. I know that I have to slow myself down because this could be absolutely nothing, but I don't want to. My heart may break, but what if I don't try?

In the morning I was eating breakfast when Kyla emerged from her room.

"So when did you get back in?" I loved bugging Kyla after a long night. She looks so hung over right now. I can't believe she continually does this to herself.

"Huh? Oh I don't know, like 3 or 4. It wasn't too late. That guy was lame."

"Well that's good. I don't want you hooking up with lame guys. But speaking of lame guys, I'm going over to Aiden's today. What do you think I should do about him?" I know that at noon on a Sunday is not the best time to ask your hung over roommate for advice, but it was all I had.

"Well you know I'm not the biggest fan of little Aiden, but I don't want to tell you what to do. I don't think that you've been really close with him lately though. I mean, when was the last time he took you out on an actual date?"

"You know what Ky? I don't even know when that was. I feel like he doesn't even appreciate me and what's worse is I don't even think I love him. I don't even think I like him anymore."

"That sounds kinda bad Ash. I think it might be best for you to dump his ass. He's had it coming for months now and he's done nothing about it. I say dump that chump." I love her weird little phrases. And she looks really funny when she first wakes up in the morning. Her hair is all over the place!

"Thanks Kyla. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I think you're right. So here I go! I'll see you later. Hopefully this won't take too long. Will you be around later?"

"Yeah I have a final paper to write. I'll be grounded here all day." She was pouting with her coffee cup in hand. I'm so glad I have her as a roommate. I don't know what I'd do without her.

With that I grabbed my bag and headed out the door. As I walked to Aiden's apartment I ran through what I was going to say in my head. It sounded absolutely perfect when I approached his door. You can do this, I kept repeating in my head.

"Aiden? You here?" I let myself in and searched his place.

"Over here." His voice came from the bedroom and I rolled my eyes. Could he seriously still be in bed? This guy really just doesn't get it.

I walked into his room and took a seat on the corner of the bed. I didn't look at him for what seemed like an hour when he finally broke the silence.

"So what's up Ash? You wanna talk or something?"

"Yeah Aiden, I do want to talk. Listen, I guess I don't really know how to say this, but I think its time to end this relationship. I just don't feel it anymore. You have been so distant for months and I can't take it anymore."

"Whoa, Ash, you can't be serious? What do you mean you don't feel it anymore? We are perfect for each other!" Now he decides to be emotional… that's just great.

"Aiden you haven't even called me since I last saw you. You weren't even worried after I left yesterday. If you cared, wouldn't you have at least left me a message? I mean come on Aiden! You don't take me out anymore and you don't even tell me that you love me. Why would I want to stay in a relationship like that?"

"Ok so I didn't call you that one time, but you were mad at me. I didn't want to get yelled at again. And I take you out all the time. We went to the deli last week once."

"Aiden it's not just this one time that you didn't call. You never call me anymore! I'm always the one that calls or visits. You could care less if you see me. It seems like once a week is just fine for you. And the deli so does not count as taking me out! You wanted a fucking sandwich!"

"Ashley really you need to stop this. This isn't you talking. Were you drinking last night? Cause I think whatever you had messed you up bad."

"Really Aiden? Really? You think I'm messed up? Because this is the first time I've seen things clearly in months! I'm done. I'm sorry, but I'm done." I stood up and almost sprinted out of the apartment.

"Ashley, wait! I do love you!"

"It's too late Aiden." I yelled as I slammed the door behind me making the guy down the hall jump. Ok, so maybe that was a little harsh, but damn did it feel good. So much weight is lifted off of my shoulders. I can finally breathe.

I think I'll call Spencer later today. No maybe I should wait until tomorrow. I don't want to sound desperate. So I decide to stop into the coffee shop to talk to Alex.

You called to say you wanted out
Well, I can't say I blame you now