He Was There For Me
Thoughts
"Speech"
Chapter 4:
Robin's POV
Before anyone could say anything else the door to my room flew open again. A girl with big brown eyes and long red hair practically ran in and threw her arms around my neck. Barbra. I would know her anywhere, we have been friends for as long as I can remember. "Thank god you're ok, my dad made it sound like you were dying." She kissed my cheek, not letting me go. I hugged her back, with slightly flushed cheeks. I could feel something was wrong in the room. "It's good to see you too Barb." I said sounding enthusiastic. I looked around the room, for something, anything that wasn't as it should be. "Where did Raven go?" I asked Bruce. My guess was she left using her powers since Bruce was in front of the door but I didn't know why. "I'll go find her" Bruce offered. I nodded my thanks. "So what happened?" asked Barbra as Bruce walked out. "I was trying to help someone get free from a villain in an ally" Barbra nodded thinking. "You always have to be the big hero, don't you?" she laughed lightly and I grinned back at her. "You mentioned Raven, who is she?" I gulped. Barbra was my last girlfriend…and with Raven being Raven…I was pretty sure this wouldn't be pretty if I didn't do this carefully. "How about we go back to that one" I asked slowly. She nodded and filled my in on what's been happening with the night life of Gotham.
Raven's POV
Seeing that other girl wrap her arms around Robin like that killed me. I backed into a dark corner and melted into the floor reappearing outside Robins hospital room. Walking a little ways down the hall I leaned against the wall trying to calm myself down. "I don't know how you snuck out" I looked up to see Bruce. "I was standing right in front of the door." Bruce commented as he closed the door behind him and walked over to me. "I have my ways" I said in my monotone. I just wanted to be left alone at the moment "Come back in with me, he wants you in there" Bruce told me. I considered for a millisecond before firmly stating "No" and looking at the floor. There was no way I was going to willingly go back in especially if that other girl's there still. "Ok let's put it this way, you can walk back in there, or we can do it my way and I'll carry you in there" he smirked at me. I sighed furious with the billionaire. "Only Robin can hold me" I muttered pushing off the wall and walking back inside. I walked back in and over to the window. "Bruce, can I have a minute alone with the girls?" Robin asked. "Sure, I need to call the office anyway" Bruce said leaving the room.
Robin's POV
"Ok have a seat you two, there's some things we need to talk about" I motioned for them to have a seat on my bed. Barbra sat at the foot of the bed while Raven continued to look out the window. "Raven" silence. "Rae, if you don't come over here and talk to us I'm going to get up and drag you over." I knew I would get a reaction out of her with that. She looked over her shoulder, and I saw pain in her eyes but I didn't know why. "Come here Angel" I said softly holding out a hand. I wanted to comfort her, to know what was wrong. Slowly she walked over and took my hand. I gently pulled her closer to the bed until she was sitting next to me with my arms wrapped lovingly around her. Barbra raised an eyebrow before saying "Now will you tell me who Raven is?" I looked over at my beautiful Raven before saying "She's my girlfriend." Barbra crossed her arms. "I figured that much since she's practically in your lap" she teased. Raven tensed against me. I watched as Barbra looked Raven up and down. "Nice choice." Raven put a hand over mine. I looked down at her. "Who is she?" I smiled and kissed the top of her head. "This is Barbra she's an old and close friend of mine. The one I told you about" Raven nodded not taking her eyes off me. "And an old girlfriend" Barbra piped up. Ravens eyes narrowed a bit at the other girl. "Oh I see…" She trailed off and slid off the bed making her way to the door. "Raven, don't go" she stopped but didn't look back. "I'll see you at the house" she was looking at the floor. I moved to get up and the bed squeaked. She spun around to face me. "Robin, don't you dare get up" she covered her mouth as soon as the words left her mouth she must have realized what she said. "I don't think he's that stupid" Barbra commented sarcastically. I felt something in Raven snap. Her eyes turned red, she had four now. Tentacles of black energy started coming from her hands. Barbra backed up in fear. Raven looked at me and blinked and her eyes were back to normal, and the creeping tentacles vanished. Raven looked at Barbra and then ran out of the room.
"WHAT was that?" asked a horrified Barbra. I ran a hand through my messy hair. "Raven has some" I searched for the right word "problems when it comes to her feelings." I told her. I spent the rest of the time Barbra was with me explaining what had just happened.
Raven's POV
Bruce had been easy enough for to find. He was standing right in front of the hospital. "Can we go" Bruce just nodded without questioning my reasoning. We took a taxi to where we had left the car after lunch. Once again in Bruce's car I looked out the window, silent the whole way back to the manor.
It was late when the two of us finally got back to the mansion. Most of the day had been spent at the hospital. I went right up to Robin's room without saying a word. I changed and crawled under the blankets. Sleep refused to come to me though. After lying in bed for hours I decided to take a little trip. I threw on my cloak before flying out the window. I was back before sunrise promptly lying on the bed and falling asleep.
Sunlight pouring into the room woke me up a few hours later. Groaning I turned over to look at the digital clock on his night stand. 9:03. I sat up sighing thinking about Robin and how he should be here with me and not in the hospital. He wouldn't even be in the hospital if it wasn't for me. I should be the one hurt, not him…I got up throwing a bunch of pillows on the bed, throwing the blankets over them. After getting dressed I stuck my head out the door to make sure the coast was clear, seeing it was I quietly started down the hallway in the direction of the kitchen. I made it as far as the living room without bumping into Alfred or Bruce. I rounded a corner and almost ran into Alfred. He was on the phone with someone. I quickly backtracked and waited for the old butler to move along. I trailed silently after the old butler. He walked past the kitchen and I ducked inside. I walked up to the counter and opened the drawers looking for the one with knives in it. I grabbed a dark blue handle; the blade had a cover on it for safety and looked brand new. I closed the drawer and left the kitchen through a door that led outside with the knife in hand. I wandered around the grounds staying out of view of the windows. There weren't many secluded places here. If I was at the tower, where the only one who would be able to stop me was Robin, I would just do this in my room. But unfortunately this isn't the tower, and Robin wasn't here to save me. Spotting a huge clump of roses I ducked under a window and hid behind the bush. I slid the cover off the blade, holding it mere centimeters over the old cuts.
Robin's POV
Bruce and I made it back to the house in 20 minutes. "That was quick" Alfred greeted. My wound had healed overnight, and now it was as if it had never happened. I knew she had something to do with that. "Where's Raven, I need to talk to her about something important" I asked as a wave of depression hit me. "She's upstairs sleeping" Alfred told me. I shook my head slowly. I knew for sure she wasn't sleeping. "What" Bruce asked as my gaze clouded over. "Something's wrong" I muttered to myself running up the stairs to my room. Before I had even reached the door, I knew she wasn't in there. Spinning around I ran as fast as possible back down the hall, sliding down the banister. I went right past Alfred and out the front door, Bruce at my side, matching me step for step. Looking around the empty side yard Bruce asked "Why would she be out here?" I closed my eyes trying to use our bond to find her. I started running for the big clump of rose bushes when a red-hot pain hit me. Going behind the bushes I saw something I had hoped to never see again. Raven was covered in blood from cutting herself, just like all those months ago. Behind me Bruce gasped a little when he saw her. Ravens hands were covered in blood, with jagged lines going across her left wrist. She had reopened her old cuts and judging the amount of blood, made new ones farther up her arm and a lot deeper than before. The bloodied knife was shaking in her hand, as tears streamed down her face. "Go get some wet towels and bandages" I ordered Bruce as I knelt next to Raven. "Dick, she needs" I didn't let him finish. "Bruce! Trust me, just this once. Now GO" I hissed. Bruce turned doubtfully and went to get the requested items. Raven wouldn't look at me, nor did she fight him when I took the knife from her shaking grip. Raven covered her face with her hands. I took off my shirt before gently taking her hands away from her face. Some of the blood from her hands was on her cheek. I wiped the bit of smudged blood off and cleaned her hands and cuts the best I could without a wet towel. "I'm sorry I almost hurt you again yesterday. I lost control, I could have killed you." She sobbed after a small silence only broken by her crying. "Here, I'm going to go call an ambulance" Bruce told them putting down the towels and bandages. "No!" Raven shrieked crying harder. "It's ok; he's not going to call an ambulance. I won't let him" I stroked her arm. "Go away" I mouthed to Bruce pulling Raven into my lap. After a small staring contest between the two of us, Bruce gave in muttering and about stubborn teenagers and left us alone.
Raven's POV
"Robin" I didn't want to go to the hospital. They would lock me up and experiment on me because my blood was different than everyone else's. "Shh, let me help you first" he took my hands and cleaned all the blood off them then bandaging the jagged cuts. "Why Angel, I won't be mad, I just want to know" Robin cradled me lovingly in his lap against his chest. "You got hurt because of me" I traced little circles over his muscles on his bare chest. "I was protecting you" he kissed my temple. "How did you find me?" I looked into his crystal clear blue eyes. I didn't find the expected anger or annoyance, I found affection and concern. "I will always find you. I have always made a point of knowing where you were and protecting you, even if you never knew it." Robin wrapped his arms tighter around my small frame. "No more hurting yourself" Robin said quietly. Nodding I asked "Can we go in, I'm cold" and crawled out of his arms. "Ok, Bruce has probably driven Alfred crazy with his worry by now" Robin took my hand and we went inside the house.
Robin led me to the gym where he thought we would find Bruce. We walked in just as a punching bag flew across the room and exploded when it hit a wall. I was starting to see why Robin always took out his anger in the gym. "Now I know where you learned to take out your anger" I commented looking at the remains of the punching bag with dark eyes.