Reid

She looked up to see Hotch looking at her when Beth grabbed his hand and he looked back at her making Emily's heart sink. She would have to live the rest of her life without the man she loved. Even if miraculously he did love her it was too late. He was engaged now and expecting a baby with his fiancée.

She noticed Beth was wearing the exact same shawl. They moved to watch the wedding and while Hotch put both his hands on Jack's shoulder. Beth grabbed one placing it on her bump smiling at Emily. Emily looked down and placed her hand on her own stomach trying to bite back tears. She would never have Hotch do that with their baby. It hurt but it was for the best he should never know about their child.

She watched her best friend marry her long-term partner delighted for her but a little jealous that it would never happen for her. She'd never get to walk up the aisle to the man she loved. In a few months he would be at the altar waiting for Beth to walk down the aisle to him. He smiled sadly at the bride and groom wishing things had turned out differently for him and Emily.

At the table she sat next to Rossi while Hotch and Beth sat the other side of him. Beth placed a hand over Hotch's smiling at Emily. He was hers and they were having this child. She'd never let Emily have him even if her life depended on it. No way would she ever let Emily have him. She'd taken her first boyfriend from her. Truth be told Beth and Louis hadn't been dating. She'd just fantasised about him then he asked Emily out in French and she accepted back in French. Pompous cow showing her up for not being able to speak any other languages! Well now she'd taken the one man that meant everything to her thanks to Gina telling her what she'd witnessed.

She smiled over at Gina and she raised her glass to her. Emily happened to look over at that moment and she glared at Gina. So that was how Beth found out her feelings for Hotch. That damn forensics technician! She'd had it in for her ever since Daniel had kissed her under the mistletoe at the Christmas party.

After dinner Spencer offered to dance with her and she accepted. Maybe it was time to say goodbye to Spencer. She'd leave JJ, Garcia and Hotch for tomorrow. Hotch would obviously have to be last so he couldn't stop her catch that flight. He belonged here with his son and fiancée not in London with her. She didn't even know if she could handle saying goodbye to Garcia's face as she was so sensitive. She couldn't handle the tears as she really didn't want to cry leaving. This was the hardest thing she'd ever had to do in her life and she really didn't want to cry doing it. It would be the most painful thing to leave Hotch behind knowing she would never hear from him again.

She danced closer to the man she loved as a baby brother. "Spencer, I'm leaving tomorrow," she said gently.

"What? For where?" he answered alarmed but carried on dancing with her to protect her from Beth. He knew there was bad blood between her and Beth but no-one knew why.

"London."

"But that's so far away! How long will you be gone?" he asked letting his voice go up a pitch.

"I've taken a job over there."

"This is because of Hotch and Beth, isn't it?"

"I can't stay here, Spencer, I love you all so much but it hurts too much to stay and see him make a life with her. Staying here will only kill me inside if I do."

He nodded and replied, "I'll miss you."

"I'll miss you all and I hope you'll keep in touch."

"Of course. Even Hotch?"

"No, not Hotch. I don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. It will hurt too much."

"Take care of yourself."

"I will."