Hey guys. I know it's been awhile for those of you who are following this story. I haven't had any draw to writing lately. Especially when it comes to lemons. I just can't write them lately. But, in the midst of watching Advent Children for like the millionth time and reading a fanfiction, I had the strong urge to work on this. So I'm back with another chapter. Enjoy!

Rufus was up to something. He had to be. He hadn't called me into his office, or had anything to do with me for days. In fact he would find reasons for me to leave his office whenever I went in there. But seeing as I was filling in for Turk at the moment, it was hard for me to get rid of me. But he kept trying anyways. And sometimes I let him. I figured maybe he was really trying to withhold his side of out agreement. It was a possibility at least. I doubted it. I could hear him in his sleep when I'd watch him. I'd hear my name coming from him in his sleep. It was a normal thing. So maybe he was just bidding his time. I was just waiting for him to call me into his office and have him jump me again like he had the first time it was just a matter of time.

That time didn't come for nearly 2 weeks. Reno wasn't back yet and I was getting worried. Very worried. I hadn't expected this to be a long mission for him. From what I got out of Rufus it was a fairly simple mission. He should have been back by now I was sure. But whenever I asked Rufus he wouldn't say anything about it. Till now.

"Yazoo sit. I have bad news."

I sat, my mind instantly spiraling to the worst possible thing. Reno was dead. That's why he hadn't returned. He was never going to return. It was over. I was stuck with Rufus whether I liked it or not. "It's Reno isn't it. He's dead isn't he."

"Not dead, just missing. He was lost in the mission. I didn't want to tell you because I wanted to give them a chance to possibly find him. But we've had no such luck I'm afraid. He may never return, or he may find a way back to us. I don't know honestly Yazoo. I'm sorry to have to tell you this. I really am."

My head fell into my hands as my mind began to race. Maybe I could get permission to go out and look for him. I could find him. I knew I could. If I just had a chance. But Rufus would never let me go. He wants me to himself. He'd never let me go for someone who might take me away from him. But, I was sure now more than ever that Reno was my choice, not Rufus. Or maybe that was just the news talking for me. We always want what we can't have. Isn't that the saying? Well maybe I just thought he was my choice because he was missing, and I may never see him again. Maybe this was a chance for me to really see Rufus as a choice.

Then it hit my head. Had I been avoiding thinking of Rufus as a choice? I really hadn't thought about him much that way, and yet, each time he'd kick me out, each time I'd hear my name from him, it would shock me. Maybe I did want Rufus, I just was going for the safe route, Reno. But Reno wasn't here, and may never be here again. That meant it was time for me to open my eyes to Rufus. Give him a chance.

"Yazoo?"

I looked up at him. "I'm fine Rufus. I just….have a lot going through my head at the moment. Sorry. Were you saying something?"

"I was saying that perhaps, since I have a feeling that Reno may not return, that we transfer his room to yours. What do you think?"

I nodded slowly. "But why are you so sure he may not return? Until his body is found there's always a chance for his return."

He sighed and stood, walking over to me. "Look, Yazoo. I understand where things stand. You made your choice already, and it was Reno. So I can understand how it may be hard for you to believe this. But Turks go missing all the time, and they don't come back. I hold very little belief that Reno is any different. I know that may sound harsh to you, but it's sadly true. Do you understand?"

I nodded. "But Rufus, you are wrong on one point. I never made my choice. Yes, Reno and I were very close, and yes, had he not gone missing, he may very well have become my choice. But, you're right. This is a dangerous job. I need to get that in my head. Reno may not come back, so I need to remember my options. Which is you. But it can't work if you keep kicking me out of your office Rufus."

"I know I know. I just didn't want to give you the news to soon, so I tried to keep away from you. Granted that was wrong, but still, it was the only thing I could think to do." he sat down on the desk in front of me.

His position reminded me severely of our earlier encounter, but this time, I was sure he had more restraint. Or at least I hoped he did.

He just sighed. "I can see this has upset you. Feel free to return to your room. I'll be fine without a guard the rest of the day. You can relax and take your time taking in the news."

I shook my head slowly. "No no. I'm fine. A good fighter always keeps focused, no matter what is happening around him. And that's what I'm going to do. Stay focused. It will be better for me. Trust me. A good distraction is all I need."

He smiled more, and it sent shivers down my spine. "Well if you want a distraction, I can give you one. Easily." He hopped off the desk, moving in front of me quickly, tipping my head up to look at him.

I was in too much shock to move. I hoped this wouldn't be like last time. I stared into his eyes, looking for any kind of warning to what he was thinking. And all I could see was myself. Which wasn't exactly reassuring. My eyes quickly shut though as he pressed his lips to mine. I even leaned forward. It felt…good…..to be this close to him again. Mentally, I was comparing this to the times when I had kissed Reno. With Reno, it almost felt mechanical. I mean, it felt good, but it almost felt fake. This…..it felt real. Full. True. Great. Now I was sounding like a lovesick school girl. But it was true. With Rufus, it just felt right. So I leaned up more, my arms moving around his neck to pull him down closer to me.

I felt him smile into the kiss as he began to pull away. I opened my eyes and blinked in confusion. He wasn't going to just jump me right then and there? No, he just smiled, kissed me again lightly and went back behind his desk. I just stared at him in confusion. He just smiled and laughed lightly. "What, did you think I was going to jump you? I still remember your reaction last time. I won't try that again until you are fully consenting. Or at least im trying not to. But you are severely tempting Yazoo. I suppose that was my other reason for kind of avoiding you lately. But, it seems I've found my self control much easier this time, so I think you're fully safe to remain in here, unless you want to return to your room."

I just nodded and stood as he began working on things again. Turning quickly, I walked out and headed towards my room, even more distracted than I had been before.

I hope you guys enjoy this chapter. It's two in the morning right now, but this had to be done. Hope you enjoyed and PLEASE REVIEW! I LOVE HEARING FROM YOU GUYS!