Guest: Any similarities between that or any other story or the show is completely unintentional.

I will be using storylines from the show but I will not be following cannon strictly.

Song is Get Back Up by tobyMac

"I hid it all. Deep down. I buried the worries and all the fears. I choked back the what ifs and I concentrated on the positives. I trained myself to smile without prompt and I forced my happiness upon the world. I could never figure out how to place that smile in my eyes…but that's ok. That's where everything is buried-and few people looked for me there."

-Alfa

You turned away when I looked you in the eye,

And hesitated when I asked if you were alright,

Seems like you're fighting for your life,

But why? oh why?

Wide awake in the middle of your nightmare,

You saw it comin' but it hit you outta no where,

And theres always scars

When you fall back far

Ever since Savannah had confided in Owen it was as if a weight had been lifted off her shoulders. Though the nightmares continued; they consumed of Logan finding her in Seattle she found herself for the first time since she could remember feeling as though things were looking up.

She continued to bury herself in her work. The hospital became her safe haven. Her work as a doctor and a surgeon meant the world to her. She often felt that was all she had in the world.

Savannah was absorbed in her thoughts but that didn't stop her from noticing her surroundings. Mainly Mark Sloan. Mark Sloan flirting with a couple of nurses, who all batted their eyes at the handsome plastic surgeon. She rolled her eyes at the scene; which caught the man's eye as he left the woman he was speaking with and walked over to the brunette.

"Don't you have some shameless flirting to do?"

"Jealous sunshine," he smirked.

"In your dreams Sloan," she smiled.

"How'd you know," he winked.

She was lost. Lost in his eyes, his smile, his words. It was as if for a split second they were the only two people to exist. But then reality came crashing down.

"No."

Mark furrowed his brow confused.

"No he can't be here," her face full of fear.

"Who can't be here? What's going on?"

"Logan," she whispered before she ran.

Savannah sat in Owen's office; the one place she felt safe at the moment. Owen had spoken to security to be on the lookout for the man. They reviewed the security tapes and found nothing.

"How did he know I was here?" she questioned out loud.

"Savannah," Owen started.

"You told me I was safe here."

"You are," he told her, "We found nothing on the footage. I don't think he was here."

"I saw him Owen. I saw him."

"What if you didn't?"

"You think I'm crazy. That I hallucinated him?"

"I think you've been through a lot lately and with what happened with Elizabeth you've been thinking about him lately."

"I…what if he finds me?" her eyes filled with tears.

We lose our way,

We get back up again

It's never too late to get back up again,

One day you will shine again,

You may be knocked down,

But not out forever,

Lose our way,

We get back up again,

So get up, get up,

You gonna shine again,

Never too late to get back up again,

You may be knocked down,

But not out forever

(May be knocked down but not out forever)

"Hey what did I tell you Savannah," Owen spoke, "Your one of us. Nothing is going to happen to you."

There was a knock on the door. Savannah jumped.

"Its just Sloan," he informed her, walking to the door and letting the other man in.

"I'll leave you two alone," he said as he walked out, closing the door behind him.

"What's going on?" a confused Mark questioned. Shortly after Savannah had run away without word he had been paged by Owen to come to his office.

"Nothing. What are you doing here?"

"Hunt paged me."

She shook her head; not understanding why he brought Mark into this.

"I gotta go. I have patients to check on," Savannah turned to leave.

"Don't," he grabbed her wrist to stop her and immediately she flinched.

"Savannah," Mark muttered walking toward her.

She walked backward, fear written all over her face.

"Hey hey what's going on?" his voice was so soft and full of concern.

Time stood still. Do I tell him? Do I put it all out there?

Her heart began pounding, her eyes watering, with labored breath she began to speak, "The reason I'm here…the reason I am in Seattle is that I'm afraid to be in Boston. I'm afraid if I stayed there I was going to die."

Mark was stunned. He tried to speak but Savannah cut him off, "I came to Seattle to get away fro my boyfriend…my ex boyfriend," tears now freely poured down her face, "He hits me. He beats me. Badly. It had gotten to the point that I couldn't hide the bruises anymore," she paused, "He found out I was looking for a new job and he threatened to kill me. I knew he'd make good on it. Somehow he hadn't found out about me talking to Hunt. But today," she wiped the tears, "I saw him here Mark. Logan was here and now I have to leave."

He stood silent for a moment, taking in her confession, "You're not going anywhere."

She shook her head, ignoring his words, "Owen says they didn't find him on camera. He thinks I hallucinated him. I'm not crazy."

"I know you're not crazy," he assured her. They both made eye contact, and neither could turn away.

"I have to finish my shift," Savannah broke the tension.

"Savannah."

"I'm fine," she lied, "Please don't tell anyone we had this conversation."

You rolled out at the dawning of the day

Heart racin' as you make your little get-away

It feels like you've been runnin' all your life

But why, oh, why?

"You didn't have to drive me home Mark, I'm fine," Savannah told him.

After her confession, Mark spoke with Owen about Savannah and what he knew about her ex boyfriend.

"Owen would kill me if I didn't make sure you got home safe," he joked.

She smiled the first real smile in a while.

"There's that beautiful smile Sunshine."

Her cheeks flushed, she could feel face turning red. "Goodbye Mark."

Later that evening there was a knock on the door. She opened it to reveal Mark Sloan with a black eye and a busted lip.

"What happened?" a concerned Savannah asked.

"Can I come in?"

"Of course," she ushered him inside.

Quietly she walked over to her freezer and grabbed something from the inside. Walking back over to Mark she handed it to him, "All I have is frozen peas," she gave a small smile.

He accepted it, gently placing it in his eye.

"You gonna tell me what happened?"

"You should see the other guy," he joked.

Savannah folded her arms, clearly not amused.

"I found Logan hanging around outside the hospital so he an I had a little talk," he informed her.

The blood drained from her face, "What? What the hell is the matter with you," her voice rising in anger, "He's going to come after both of us now. What if he knows where I live? How did he even know I was here?" she began pacing, "I have to leave Seattle. He's going to find me."

So you pulled away from the love that would've been there

And start believin' that your situation's unfair

But there's always scars

Mark tossed the bag on her counter, "Hey. Hey," she was still pacing, he stood in front of her, gently he placed his hands on her face, "Listen to me. He's on a flight back to Boston, I promise you he's not coming back."

"You don't know that."

We lose our way, we get back up again

It's never too late to get back up again

And one day you gonna shine again

"He is not coming anywhere near you. I promise you. As long as I'm here he's not going to hurt you."

"You drained me of my identity and injected self doubt into my veins. Left me questioning my own sanity. Walking around aimlessly at war with my own body everyday. Trying to scrub your heavy words off my skin. My mental state has been shaken to its core. I don't know who I am anymore.

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