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All I know is I'm lost without you I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye don't know what I'd do ...I'm lost without you

Lost Without You by Delta Goodrem

Chapter 3

Lost

Summer 2006

"Are you insane?" Jacob snapped at a very pregnant Bella. "I break things off with you and go away to college but when I come back, you're pregnant? And with Jasper's baby? Seriously, Bella? What is going through that mind of yours?"

"I wanted to give Alice and Jasper a baby. Alice and Jazz… they've been trying, Jake. Nothing has been happening."

"They're young, for Christ's sake! Alice and Jazz obviously haven't been trying for –"

"Alice can't have children. The doctors have confirmed it."

"So the she devil came to you, her best friend, to ask you to be a surrogate mother for a baby that you don't want to give up?"

Bella sighed, putting a lock of brown hair behind her hears. Placing her hands on her aching back, she glared at Jacob. "You have no idea what you're talking about."

"You're madly in love with this baby. It's absurd to even agree to this."

"I love Alice and Jasper too, damn it. If I want to give them a baby, I will."

"It's not that simple. You have experienced every kick and heard every heart beat. How do you plan on letting your child go after birth? Can you live with seeing this child every day knowing that he or she is calling Alice 'mommy'?"

"It is their baby, Jacob."

"Wrong. It is your baby. Yours and Jaspers. Technically, it isn't Alice's because knowing her she approached you, asking you to sleep with Jasper and get pregnant. You two are so much alike you didn't even stop to think that it is completely possible for you to carry a baby using Jasper's sperm and Alice's egg."

"She can't –"

"She can't get pregnant. I know but that doesn't mean her eggs are completely useless. Will you listen to yourself?" Jacob laughed, running a hand through his short black hair. "I go away for a couple years and look at the mess you got yourself into."

"Well maybe I would have been fine if you wouldn't have broken my heart!"

Present Day

No matter how hard I had tried to argue with Jacob, he always seemed to win in the end. He knew that I was a stubborn Swan woman and that none of us had ever backed down from a fight, even if we were completely wrong.

With a choked back sob, I reached into my pocket and pulled out my cell phone. Deep down inside of me, I knew it would be pointless but I quickly dialed Jacob's number. Putting the cell phone to my ear, I listened to his all-too-familiar voice as his voicemail came on.

"Jake? It's Bella. Please… when you get this message, please call me back." I inhaled deeply, trying not to cry any further. "I love you."

It was when I hung up that I lost it all over again. What was I going to tell our boys? It didn't seem fair that the world had to lose such a great man but it happened. The Heavens had earned the great man that we had lost.

I sat up straight and squared my shoulders. I was a Swan woman. Nothing had ever brought us down before. Rosalie was capable of beating her eating disorder when we were teenagers. My father had beaten cancer. My mother made it through all of her five divorces. I would be okay. I would never stop loving my Jacob but I would get on with my life. I would have to. If not for me, then for my boys.

"Bella?"

I glanced up at Rosalie as she rounded the corner, giving her a slight smile to show that I was holding up as best as I could.

"Bella, Mom just called."

I looked up, hopeful for some good news. Sure I was pissed at Alice but there was no way I wanted her to go to jail. It was her SOB of a husbands fault if anything. He was really to blame for everyone's troubles. He always was.

Rosalie shook her head. "Life in prison."

I put my hand over my mouth to hide the sobs that threatened to escape. Jake was gone and now Alice would be too. What was I going to do without my bitch of a best friend? Rosalie and Emmett would be leaving for Europe with the girls soon. That left me with my parents, Jasper and the boys.

What the hell was I going to do?

APOV

As the judge gave me my sentence, I felt a warm hand grasp a hold of my wrist. I knew immediately that it was Jasper.

Life in prison.

How could this be happening? I was so stupid for thinking that James would never hurt me. We had been through so much together. I was too comfortable with him. Stupid me. Of course I was too comfortable with him. Before I met Jasper, I had been head over heels in love with his half-brother. James would have been my brother-in-law if his brother was still alive.

I looked over at Eric, my wonderful and faithful attorney. He had tried his best to get the judge to change her mind but she held her grown. Eric had even gone so far as to state that the foreman had a former intimate relationship with my former husband.

Cold handcuffs replaced Jasper's warmth and two officers grabbed hold of my upper arm, practically dragging me towards the doors of the courtroom.

Bella needed me right now more than ever. What was she going to do now that I was going to be locked up? How could I abandon her at a time like this? I was her best friend next to Rosalie. I hoped that Rose, Emmett and Jasper would do whatever it took to take care of Bella and the boys.

Of course I knew deserved this.

I deserved anything that came at me. Bella's husband was gone because of me. Pretty girl Alice Brandon had to go and show the people of the good town of Forks that I refused to be so easily forgotten after my accident. If I would have just listened to the people around me, I could be starting my future with Jasper instead of going to prison but I ignored them. Instead I married Dr. James Keiner, became a widow and an inmate. Might as well add murder to that list.

As the officers led me to the door, I heard Jasper calling my name as he followed us. I stopped and turned to look at him. My poor soldier looked so lost and so helpless. This wasn't his fault but I knew he was blaming himself.

"I love you," he blurted out. "No matter what I love you. We will get you out of this. We'll do whatever we can. I promise you."

I didn't respond. I couldn't respond. If I would have told Jasper that I loved him too I would have lost it. Instead, I gave him a nod and turned around. The officers and I didn't make it very far before a body blocked our path.

Tearing my gaze from the floor, I looked up and nearly died of a heart attack at who I saw.

That son of a bitch.