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Chapter 4

Clary POV

"Clary, I want you to know that neither of us is going to scream at each other, and neither one of us is going to storm out. Agreed?" Jace asked.

"Agreed." I nodded.

"Okay, I'll start. I'm sorry that I screamed at you last night," he said.

"Why did you scream at me, by the way?" I asked calmly. He sighed.

"I know that you don't like me anymore. I know that what I did was dumb, and I have no explanation for it. I'm sorry, though. But you need to understand that the reason we're getting married is extremely important. And they specifically told me that I'm not supposed to tell you until you agreed to marry me. But we're doing this because of you, Clary. They told me that if you agree to it, they'll tell you."

"Who's 'they'?" I asked.

"Your mom and stepfather," he said. My shoulders slumped.

"Of course," I muttered under my breath.

"So where did you go yesterday?" Jace asked.

"I got hungry after I finished unpacking and we had no food, so I went to the supermarket for an hour to get food," I said.

"What did you pay with?" Jace asked.

"My debit card. Why?" I asked. I didn't think that would be that big a deal.

"You should've used my debit card. I'm rich, Clare; I can support us," he said.

"Jace, I have money. Just because it's not as much as what you have doesn't mean that I don't have money," I said calmly.

"I know, I know. It's just…I'm going to have to be the man of the house, and I actually want to be able to buy things for you," he said. I sighed. "You're not going to be a housewife; you're not going to be a stay-at-home mom unless you want to. You can have freedom, and you can spend your money, and but I want to be a good person and husband to you," he continued.

"I know. It will be nice to be able to go out sometimes, get away, but you made it clear yesterday that I couldn't leave without you," I said coldly.

"I know, and I'm sorry about that, but I just…" He sighed. "My job is to protect you, and when I didn't know where you were, and when I realized that I don't have your phone number yet, I freaked out. I tried not to, but when you came in, and you were okay, I just lost it, I guess. I'd been panicking for hours, and all my emotions just were thrown at me," he said.

"I know. I understand even what you said, but I don't understand why a) you said those things to me in high school, and b) why you said those things yesterday. It wasn't your job to protect me in high school, and if it was, you did a god-awful job at it. You didn't care about protecting me in high school, so why do you care now?" I asked harshly. He looked heartbroken, but I didn't care. He broke my heart in high school, just not in the way you'd think.

"Clare, I'm sorry about high school. I don't know what I was thinking, but it's ruined me. Can't you see that? I never should've let you go," he started, but I cut him off.

"You know what, Jace? I don't care. I don't want your apologies, and I don't want your regret. If I could go back in time, I would fix that, and I would try to work through that, but that made me want to kill myself. You left me heartbroken! Why don't you understand that?" I said, my eyes started to tear up.

"Clary, I'm sorry. I know that's not what you want to hear, but I really am. What I did was wrong, and I'd take it back in a heartbeat. That is by far the biggest mistake I've ever made. But, Clare, I really did love you, you were the reason I came to school, and you are the reason that I didn't leave.

"Did you hear about when I went to the hospital?" I asked. He looked taken aback.

"You went to the hospital?" he asked quietly.

"Yeah, during my junior year, in the middle of February, Luke came home for lunch and found me passed out in the bathroom with a bottle of pills in my hand. He took me to the hospital and they had to pump my stomach. I had to stay in the hospital for two weeks before they let me out, and I had to go into therapy for it," I said.

"Middle of February. That's when I said…" He trailed off.

"Yeah," I said.

"You tried to kill yourself because of what I said?" he asked with a small voice.

"Yeah, I did. Words hurt, Jace," I said. He stayed quiet. "I'm going to go to Izzy's. Stay here, okay? I'll call you when I get there, and I'll call you when I'm on my way back." I stood up and started walking to my room to get dressed. Jace grabbed my wrist and stood up. He lifted his hand and stroked my cheek.

"I'm sorry," he said, and he walked away to his room, closing the door. I stood there for a few seconds, replaying what just happened. After I got over the shock of it, I went to my room and got dressed. I figured dark wash skinny jeans, a plain t-shirt, and my sneakers. Hey, don't judge—you can't go wrong with sneakers.

I grabbed my ear buds off of my vanity and plugged them into my phone. I yelled bye to Jace and got into the elevator.

As I was walking to Izzy's house, I played "Dear Future Husband" by Meghan Trainor.

Dear future husband,

Here's a few things you'll need to know if you wanna be

My one and only all my life

Dear future husband,

If you wanna get that special lovin'

Tell me I'm beautiful each and every night

It was an amazing song. I liked it, at least.

When I got to Izzy's, I just opened the door and walked in. She was used to it. She lived alone now, and she had an amazing job as a clothing designer. Made my life a lot harder, because she also loved shopping.

"Izzy! I yelled.

"What?!" she yelled back.

"I need to talk to you about what happened yesterday!" I called.

"Upstairs now Girlie!" she replied.

I laughed and made my way to her room upstairs.

Okay, guys. That's it for this chapter. Hope you like it tell me what you think.

I want to answer some questions,

Clary and Jace never dated, nor did they want to. The flashbacks and memories, will be in italics the next time I do one, which will probably be in the next chapter or so.

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