As I played dress up for Alice I read the rest of my families minds they were all wondering one: how I could just stand there and be so happy while Alice dressed me in a million different outfits and two: why I was so different why I didn't want to hunt… well didn't want to hunt wasn't quite right I desperately needed to hunt but somehow I could ignore the pain a little more than I probably should be able to.

This confused and annoyed some people in this household. It just confused me I mean why was I different. I was sure it had something to do with my mind reading ability even as a human but I was just happy to be a live and happy that I got to spend the rest of my life with Edward and the Cullens.

"Alice you do realise that I'm probably going to get… something on these clothes." I said referring to that certain liquid I was trying not to think about. It's not that I couldn't feel the burning sensation in the back of my throat like someone was making me eat hot coals but other emotions and feelings were just kind of blocking it out I don't know how to explain it.

The will to look nice for Edward and not disappoint him in my immortal life was something I was feeling quite strongly hence why I was letting Alice dress me. I also wanted to make everyone happy to pay them back for being so wonderful to me. I was just starting with Alice I could see some of the other Cullen's being a little harder to please.

"I know but we can buy more clothes if we need to… which by the way we will. Know that you can pull any item of clothing off we are going shopping. Somewhere fancy and glamorous you hear me." She said determined heading back into her huge walk in wardrobe.

"I'd like that" I smiled. As much as that wouldn't have appealed to me much as a human I was determined to try new things and keep a very open mind. Which should be easy seeing as though I can think of a lot different things all at the same time now days. I thought to myself happily.

"Well I wasn't expecting that." Alice laughed walking out with what I hoped was the last outfit. I mean I was trying to make her happy but WOW! Have I tried on a lot of outfits, she hadn't even let me peek at my reflection yet and I just wanted to see what I looked like.

After I tried on the last outfit Alice assessed me. "Twirl." She commanded.

"Twirl?" I laughed. Mesmerized by my own laugh it was the first time I have heard myself laugh, I could tell I was going to have to get used to this life.

"Yes twirl." She giggled musically. I twirl for her as just like she wanted, although I would have called it a spin but that's Alice and her gracefulness.

"Ok that's perfect you can look now." She said. Suddenly I was excited but scared. I wanted to so badly look in the huge mirror in Alice's room but I didn't. What if I looked to different is that would I would look like the Edward? Would he mind? Would I be happy? I was no looking forwarding to the eyes though.

Suddenly I felt the air in the room change pressure and realized Edward was in the room and had taken my hand.

"You ready?" He smiled excitedly.

"No." I said truthfully. Edward chuckled at my response.

"Close your eyes" He smiled. I did as he told me. At least this way I could look when I was ready. I heard Alice take the cloth that had been hiding the mirror. I felt Edward arms around my waist as he stood behind me. That was nice I would see a friendly face in the mirror with me. His arms didn't feel the same. This made me sad, they weren't cold but I thanked God they still made me feel as though nothing could hurt me which I didn't need Edward for anymore but it really made me feel… well… immortal.

"Bella open your eyes." He whispered in my ear. I couldn't do it. I couldn't open my eyes. I was just too worried about what I would look like. "Bella… Open your eyes." He said louder. This was it I was opening my eyes to my new life to what I was going to look like for eternity. I might as well get it over with.

Slowly I opened my eyes. I focused on Edward's giant grin before looking at myself. I gasped, I didn't look like myself at all but yet I did. How could I keep being two things that were completely opposite I was just a walking oxymoron.

I was staring at a beautiful women she had perfect dark chocolate hair that had slight flecks of caramel just slightly. I wouldn't have been able to notice them if I was still human and this reflection was definitely not human. Her skin was as white as snow with a iridescent glow to it that made it look unearthly but I knew the reflection was me because of my face structure it was all there I looked like my mum still which made me happy. The eyes scared me even though they were my eyes. They were the perfect ruby red colour the colour of well… blood. I ignored the burning pain in my throat.

"What do you think?" Edward asked.

"Um…it's a bit different." I muttered. I stared at the way my mouth moved.

"I'll give you to sometime" Alice smiled considerately.

"Thanks Alice" Edward smiled at Alice thankfully; I think they could both tell I was having a bit of problem taking it all in. "Bella?" He said gently turning me around to face him. "What's wrong?"

As I Iooked up Edward I nearly lost my breath… if that was possible. He was even more stunning when I was looking at him through my immortal eyes, which was one thing I really didn't mind about my new life but I was still shocked and worried. I could get over how I looked I was just a bit shocked but I still looked like me which was a relief.

I was just very worried that Edward didn't like me in my immortal life. I didn't smell the same. I didn't look like I used to. I probably act differently as well. I started to imagine being immortal without Edward and realized that would be the most horrible life I could ever imagine because without Edward I would probably be without the Cullens and I couldn't live without them.

"Bella what's wrong?" Edward asked tentatively.

Do you like me as an immortal? I thought as I took down my shield.

"What do you mean?" Edward asked with a confused expression on his face. "I love you."

I don't look the same, I don't smell the same… I tried to explain.

"Bella" Edward looked shocked. "You can't possibly think that just because you don't smell human that you don't smell wonderful." He chuckled he was right. Edward smelled the same to me now that I was immortal so I must smell similar just not painful. Edward continued. "I have to say I certainly do not miss the endless struggle to stand just next to you. Nor do I see much difference between human Bella and immortal Bella. You are beautiful now and you were beautiful then." He smiled sweetly.

"I just know how you felt about me becoming like you. How you think the soul thing works I didn't know what you would think of me in my immortal life that's all." I explained.

"You are so silly sometimes Bella." Edward laughed.

"Oh and you're not?" I laughed with him. I stopped laughing and said. "So you like me as a vampire then?"

"Bella I love you as a vampire." He smiled. He stepped closer to me and put his hands either side of my face and that's when it happened!

Ermm... it's been a while *waits for everyone to throw ciber objects at her* I'M SORRRY!

I've just been a little caught up. My last exam was last week (it went awful if you were wondering XD )

So I break up this thursday so there will be lots of chapters I promise ! ^_^

Hope you like'd this one, I might re-do it. I don't really know please lemme know what you think : )