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Alice practically ran out of Bethany's car and slammed her front door shut making it clear to her siblings that she wanted to be alone.

"Should we go in?" Luke asked.

"No." Elizabeth sighed. "She needs to be alone right now and we need to get home before mum has an aneurysm."

"I don't like the thought of her all alone." Matthew sighed as Bethany pulled away from the curb.

"Trust me she won't be alone for long." Bethany smiled.

Alice kicked her shoes off and ran upstairs. She stripped out of her clothes and stepped under the hot spray of her shower where she crumbled to the floor in a sobbing mess. She had no idea how long she cried on the shower floor but she stayed there until she nothing left in her to cry. She stood up and quickly washed her hair and herself before climbing out and wrapping herself in a fluffy towel. Once dry, she slipped into some fluffy pyjamas and headed downstairs where she pulled a bottle of red wine out of the fridge and poured herself a glass. Once done she lay back on the couch letting the silence of the house swallow her up. Her thoughts drifted to Jon and she felt tears again. She hadn't meant a word of what she'd said to him. She was angry and had lashed out him as he was the first person to find her. She knew he'd only told everyone about them to take the heat off her and she also knew it was for the best. People would have found out eventually. But all it did was turn Ricky's family against her even more so then before. She wiped her tears and took a big gulp of her wine.

Jon walked around in a daze. He knew admitting the truth about them would be hard but he had no idea that she would get so upset. He had done what he did and said what he said for her. He was confused. He didn't know what to do or where to go. He looked at all the shop window displays as he walked through the town centre. He was not far away from Alice and Ricky 's house which just so happened to be around the corner. He wanted to go and talk to her. To hold her in his arms and assure her that everything was going to be OK again. He didn't want to make things any worse though, so instead he headed off to the park. He looked at everything around him. The swings, the slide. He remembered the times they shared in that park. He screwed his face up, grabbed the nearest stick he saw and hurled it hard to the slide. That felt good. He was releasing his anger. He grabbed a stone and tossed it randomly, hitting the swing. He grabbed a handful more, doing the same thing, screaming at the top of his voice. Letting out everything he had been wanting to release since the day Ricky had died. This was why he never used to come home. All Bradford held for him was painful memories. When he finally calmed down, he walked on a bit further and sat down on a bench, thinking about what had happened in the past 2 weeks. About the last time, he had heard her telling him that she never wanted to see him again.

***Flashback***

After a 3 week European and middle east tour Jon couldn't wait to be back home. As soon as he had landed back at Vegas, he had called Ricky who had booked him and Alice on the next flight out of Orlando. They were all having a laugh and a chat in the living room, when Ricky and Jon ran out of beer.

"Gonna get myself another beer. Want one Jon?" Ricky asked getting up.

"I'm good thanks. But I don't think we actually have any left." Zayn shrugged.

"Really? Dammit. I'll go and check." When he had left the living room, Jon nudged Alice flashing her a lazy grin.

"You okay? You seem quiet tonight." He asked leaning his head back on the headrest of the sofa. Alice looked at him and smiled holding her drink in her hand pushing the inappropriate thoughts that had been filling her head all night away.

"I am fine thanks."

"I missed you." Alice smirked and looked around to make sure Ricky was still in the kitchen.

"I missed you too." She whispered. Jon let out a little quiet laugh and looked up at Ricky, who had just walked into the living room cursing to himself. Jon and Alice looked at him amused.

"I told you should have got another crate." He huffed glaring at Alice and grabbing his keys.

"Where are you going?" She asked.

"To the shops to get some beer." Ricky snapped as he turned around to look at Jon. "Word of advice man never EVER get a woman to get your drinks for you. They are useless." Alice lowered her head and bit her lip to avoid answering back and causing an argument. Jon watched the incident and managed to control the glare he was about to send in Ricky's direction.

"Ricky just have something else man. You don't have to go and get some more." Jon reasoned.

"Nah. I'm in a beer mood. I won't be long." Ricky shrugged.

"Ricky please don't drive." Alice said quietly making Ricky turn around and glare at her.

"What do you suggest I do? Walk all the way into town in this boiling weather?" Alice sighed and rolled her eyes as Ricky left the house. She was in no mood for one of his little tantrums. Jon stood up and made sure to lock the front door behind Ricky before walking over to Alice and taking a seat on the couch next to her.

"You shouldn't let him talk to you like that." He said as he placed his hand on her knee.

"It's either take it or have a full-blown argument in front of you. Trust me Jon you don't want that." Alice sighed as she allowed her hand to be encased in Jon's.

"You deserve better babe." Alice looked up into his eyes and saw the twinkle she loved so much. She grinned at his naughty smirk noticing his full lips turning into a pout.

"That's why I have you." And in a frenzy, he pulled her into his lap to straddle him as she wrapped her arms around his neck before she felt his lips on hers. He put his hands on her butt and pulled her body into his smirking against her lips when he heard her moan slightly. Jon stood them both up as she wrapped her legs around his waist before he pressed her against the wall and moved his lips down to her neck.

"All I have wanted to do for the last 3 weeks is this." He mumbled against her neck.

"These past few weeks without you have been hell." She moaned as Jon moved from her neck and down to her chest.

"Tell me about it." He mumbled as he ripped her shirt off her. "Don't know how I survived with just our sexy Facetime dates."

"I used my vibrator." Jon stopped kissing her chest and looked at her smirking face. "What?" She asked innocently knowing exactly what she was doing.

"You used your vibrator?"

"I had to." She grinned. "Watching you on TV all sweaty and topless. You know what the Dean Ambrose thing does to me."

"Are you trying to kill me?" He growled. "Do you have any idea what just the thought of you using vibrator does to me?" Alice squealed as he bit her neck. He then got her away from the wall and started heading upstairs.

"Where are we going?" She asked as she kissed his neck.

"Up to my room." He moaned as her lips found his weak spot under his ear. "I can't take it anymore."

"What about Ricky?" She asked closing her eyes and capturing his mouth with hers. Jon pulled away and went for her chest again raising her slightly as she was slipping down. "We'll hear him knock." Alice finally surrendered on the negative thoughts and decided to enjoy the moment she had fantasised about for the last few weeks. He carried her into the bedroom and let himself fall on the bed with Alice on top of him. She grinned as she rolled them over and bit her lip as she watched him stand and strip out of his shirt and jeans.

"Oh Christ don't bite your lip." Jon growled as he pulled her by legs down towards the end of the bed. He the removed her denim shorts and underwear before standing back to admire her naked form.

"What are you doing?" She asked him as she leaned up on her elbows.

"Just admiring the view." He grinned. "I've missed it." Alice grinned as Jon climbed on top of her and kissed her lips, trailing down to her neck and down her stomach. Alice arched her back enjoying every single touch.

"Stop teasing me." She mumbled as he continued to kiss down her body.

"Eager, are we?" He smirked. "Don't worry babe I'll get there."

"Hurry your ass up. I've waited too long already."

"Is your pill still messed up?" He asked as she nodded.

"Yeah. Do you have something?" Jon grinned and reached into his bedside drawer.

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After a while Alice collapsed back on the bed next to Jon as they both attempted to get their breath back.

"Fucking hell." He grinned as the sweat dripped off his body. "That was amazing!" Alice looked at him and smirked.

"Worth the wait?" She asked. Jon turned to his side and smiled.

"Well worth waiting for." He winked. Alice grinned and nodded. She was about to say something, when the phone rang.

"It's probably Ricky." She laughed, "I bet you he's lost."

"Or that he's actually downstairs wondering why the door is locked." With one last kiss, they jumped up and Alice began putting her clothes back on while Jon headed over to the phone. Once she was done she sat back down on the bed waiting for Zayn to finish his phone call when she saw Jon 's face change. He looked at Alice with wide eyes, took a deep breath before talking on the phone again. She then watched him slowly put the phone down and stare deeply into space for a few minutes. She also noticed he was as white as a sheet.

"Jon? Is everything okay?" She asked. Like a zombie, Jon walked out of the room and down the stairs and into the living room. Alice picked up his abandoned mobile and listened to see if the other person on the line had hang up. When she got no answer, she locked the screen and headed downstairs to find out what was going on. She found Jon sitting on the sofa rocking back and forth with his hands on his face. She gave him a confused look again and sat down next to him placing her hand on his knee.

" Jon? You're scaring me. What's wrong?" She asked. Jon looked at her with pity in his eyes which confused her as put his hand on her cheek. Alice stared at him waiting for a reply.

"Ali I'm sorry." He whispered. "I am so sorry."

"What for?" She asked, looking at him confused. "What have you done?" She noticed tears forming in Jon's eyes and she admitted that he was starting to scare her. "Jon?" Jon covered his face and got up heading towards the kitchen. He opened the fridge and got out the bottle of water. Alice followed him in.

"Jon this isn't funny what is going on? Who was that on the phone?" She asked. Jon walked over to her and cupped her face with his big hands.

"It was the Police."

"The Police? Why are the Police ringing you?"

"It's Ricky." He said, fighting to get the words out.

"Ricky?" She repeated. Jon looked at her as the tears started seeping from his eyes. He shook his head and knelt down opposite her.

"There has been an accident Ali." He said quietly putting his hands on her knees and she felt her heart beat faster.

"How bad?"

"It's serious." Alice brought her hand up to her chest to try and calm herself.

"What…what kind of accident? What do you mean?" She asked not even trying to hide the panic in her voice. "Has he caused the accident?"

"I don't know babe." Jon said. "The Police just told me that he was involved."

"He's OK though, right?" She asked. "Jon?" Jon looked at her and wiped his tears away from his eyes. His lips quivered as he looked at the floor. "Jon? Tell me he is OK?" She asked weakly finally allowing the panic to take over her body.

"They said it was fatal." He whispered and Alice felt her whole world come crashing down.

"Fatal?" She whispered. Jon looked up at the ceiling, biting his lip and closing his eyes. He opened his eyes again and held Alice's hands.

"Ali He's d…" He started to say. Before he could say it, Alice shook her head vigorously.

"Don't say it Jon. Please don't say it." Jon looked at her as he cried softly.

"He's dead." Jon said quietly. "Ali I am so sorry!" Ali stood up and suddenly felt dizzy. Jon noticed her stumble and sat her back down again.

"He can't be." She said shaking her head. "They must have gotten the wrong person."

"The Police said we should go over to the hospital and identify his body." He answered, still in shock. Alice looked at him. She got up again and walked to the window.

"Let's go then." She said. Jon looked quickly up at her.

"Are you sure?" He asked. "I can do it babe."

"I am his wife Jon." She whispered. "It's my job to do this."

They finally got to the hospital and Jon was worried about the way Alice was handling the situation. Although she seemed to have accepted what had happened she had yet to react properly to the news. And if he was being honest he was scared of how she would react once she saw Ricky. She was always a positive person. Never thinking the worst until it was staring at her in the face. The doctor led them up to the mortuary. The room seemed dark and gloomy and cold. Isobel looked around her and then at Jon. He looked at her not knowing what to say or do. The doctor led them to the bed, which was covered with a white sheet.

"I must warn you, it's not a pretty sight. The accident was quite severe." He warned looking at them both. Jon nodded and took hold of Alice's hand. The doctor slowly removed the sheet, before exiting the room to give them some privacy. Alice looked at the body and took a step back. She shook her head vigorously Jon closed his eyes and sighed putting his hands on her shoulders to show some support.

"That's not him. It doesn't even look like him." She argued. Jon squeezed her shoulders slightly and rested his head on her head as the tears formed in his eyes.

"Ali it's him babe. Look at his tattoos." Alice let out a loud sob as she felt the vomit and bile rise in her throat. She covered her mouth and ran to the sink. Jon rubbed a hand over his face before looking over to Alice who still her head in the sink, throwing up. He walked over to her and rubbed her back. She rinsed her mouth with water and walked back to the bed.

"Maybe he's not dead. Maybe he's just asleep." She said looking back at Jon with tears rolling down her cheeks.

"I am so sorry Alice." He whispered holding her hand. Alice pulled her hand away, and sat on the chair as a million and one thoughts popped into her head.

"Why?" She cried. "Why Ricky?"

"I don't know babe." He whispered crouching down in front of her and putting his hand on her lap as Alice let the sobs take over her body. Jon sighed and stood up placing his hands on her shoulders to try and console her.

"I am so sorry sweetheart." He said weakly trying to stop himself from crying. She got up and looked at Ricky again.

"I should have bought more beer when I went to the store. I shouldn't have let him drive off like that. If I had got another crate, he wouldn't have had to go and get some more. This is all my fault." She sobbed. Jon walked over to her and turned her around.

"Now you listen to me. None of what happened is your fault. You weren't to know and you did warn him not to take the car. You begged him Ali but he didn't listen. This is not your fault, babe." He soothed.

"But it is. I should have tried harder to stop him." She looked at him and took a step back as it dawned on her the realisation of her actions. "Oh god!" She said, covering her mouth in an attempt to not throw up.

"What?" Jon asked furrowing his eyebrows.

"We were in bed together and he was dying! Oh god!" She cried. Jon knew that was coming. He shook his head and held her closely.

"Ali…" Alice pulled away and edged back.

"Don't touch me." She growled.

"Alice Please don't do this." He said as the tears streamed down his face. Alice looked at him giving him a cold stare.

"Please leave me alone." she whispered.

"What?" He asked.

"Just leave me alone with my husband Jon!" She said, turning her head away and getting nearer to Ricky. Jon swallowed hard to try and get rid of that lump in his throat. He could not believe she was rejecting him like that. He walked backwards, giving her hurt looks before finally walked out of the mortuary. Alice sat on the chair next to Ricky and looked at him. He looked so peaceful. As if he was asleep. She looked at all the cuts and grazes on his face, and hesitantly reached out her hand to touch him. His skin was cold and dry. She rubbed her finger over his forehead and then pulled her hand away again.

"I am so sorry." She cried. "So sorry about everything." She rested her head on his cold chest and cried some more.

*** End of flashback***