hello back again my fellow readers!! thanxs to all my reviewers and readers to keep me going on this story. well here we go again.

Soon it was morning again and the sun was shining through the window above Ritsuka, who was still sleeping. Soubi was in his study painting. It was 10:00 in the morning. Ritsuka started to wake. He fluttered his dark eyes slowly and looked around the room. He sat up and he didn't know where he was at first. Until he had some flashbacks and then knew he was in Soubi's house. But Soubi was not with him. He paniced.

"Soubi?! Where are you?" Ritsuka asked quickly.

Soubi heard Ritsuka's scream and ran to his room. "What Ritsuka, what's wrong?" as he came to Ritsuka's side.

"I'm sorry Soubi I...I just wanted to make sure you didn't leave me." Ritsuka said holding Soubi as tightly as he could.

"No no never. I'll never leave you. Not for anything." Soubi said stroking Ritsuka's hair.

"Soubi...do you want to know?"

"Know what your life?"

"Yes do you want to know?"

"I would like to know but, you don't have to tell me."

"I want to tell you but, not everything."

"It's okay you can tell me whatever you want. We have forever for you to tell me eveything."

Ritsuka then pulled away from the embrace and sat there with his eyes on the bed. With his ears pulled to his head closely.

"My...depression stared right after my brother died. As soon as he was gone, I relized I had no one to call my own. Then my mother started acting crazy. Always doing something to me because he was gone. She would tie me up to a chair so she won't lose me or she would beat me or pour hot water on me or some other things."

Soubi just stared at Ritsuka and took everything in. He then held Ritsuka's hand to know that he was there for him.

"Then...I...I stared to hurt... myself. I could'ent take it one night and I was in the bathroom sanding in front of the mirror looking at myself thinking, "why i'm I here? i'm so pathtic." So I went to the cabnet and got out a safty pin and stared slash it all over my right arm. I felt better after doing that. I felt nothing really. I've been doing that until yesterday."

Suddenly Ritsuka felt strong arms wrap around him in a tight embrace. Then he heard sniffling. "Soubi?"

"Ritsuka, I knew I should'ent of left on that trip. sniffles I can't belive I lefted you! Ritsuka!" Soubi said breaking down.

Ritsuka then broke from the embrace and put both hands on Soubi's neck.

"Please don't blame yourself. There was probley nothing you could do."

"No! I could of stayed and none of this would have happened and I could of kept you from thinking you alone when your not and..."

Soubi was cut short by Ritsuka's soft lips, it was a simple kiss just to make Soubi shut up.( I know that sounds mean sorry )

"Soubi you saved me and that's all that matters. I was going to kill myself last night. But then you came and saved me. Your my angel Soubi. I have no idea how, but you came for me." Ritsuka said while staring into Soubi's eyes for the longest time.

"Ritsuka." Soubi said while lightly touching Ritsuka's hands. "I love you"

"I love you too Soubi, I love you."

Soubi and Ritsuka at the same time they kissed. With such passion that they hungered for each other. Soubi slipped his tounge into Ritsuka's mouth while Ritsuka's tounge tryed to get into Soubi's mouth. But Soubi let Ritsuka explore his mouth. Ritsuka was feeling good for the first time in his life he wanted to savor and make this last forever but soon they both needed air BADLY.They both gasped with the feeling of air hit their lungs. They both looked at each other with lust,passion and love.

"Soubi."Ritsuka said licking his swollen lips.

"Ritsuka." Soubi said lightly looking into Ritsuka's dark purple eyes.

"Ritsuka please be with me, be my lover, be my everything, be my heart, soul, be with me please."

"Soubi" Ritsuka started crying again." Of course I will i'll be your lover your everything. But once you have me, you can't let me go. Don't ever do that to me. Love me, hug me, kiss but don't break me."

"I won't Ritsuka, never. I love you."

"I love you too." Ritsuka said putting his forhead to Soubi's.

I must say i'm proud of myself! I really like it!!please review

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