Chapter 4: Reassurance
"James."
"….."
"Are you still mad at me?"
He nodded.
Logan sighed, "will you get over it?"
He shook his head.
"You only met him one time."
"So?" he furrowed his brows glaring at him. "You only saw Carlos one time and fell for him."
He clenched his fist underneath the table. They were currently in Logan's study room after spending hours in one of the mansion's larger study rooms having a conference with other businessman, when Logan found James he's been giving him the silent treatment and only spoke when he was addressed to. James was still upset that Logan ruined a moment when he met a blonde named Kendall who got separated from a tour guide and was lost. When James pointed the way he went Logan immediately left him making James angrier by ignoring him. Logan went to check on Carlos in case Kendall found him not wanting him to go anywhere near him, even though the door was locked it was better to be safe than soryy, after he talked to Carlos he left and leaned on a wall is sighing in relief.
He knew Carlos would be okay since he declared his area off limits so no one could see him, but he had to make sure to calm his mind. Ever since he first laid eyes on him he had to have him, there were no second thoughts or planning he had just went for it for once in his life without thinking and he never regretted it.
He never thought it was strange to fall in love with a nine year old, but when he saw the small latino boy seven years ago he felt a connection to the boy and felt a mix of emotions that he couldn't explain. He took him in and befriended him, whenever Carlos cried or felt sad he would hold him in his arms and offer him comfort and would always notice how perfectly they molded together.
When Carlos was happy he was ecstatic, he would play with, him talk to him, laugh with him, do everything he can with him. When he found out Carlos was bisexual he felt he had a chance for Carlos to fall in love with him, he noticed the blushes he had whenever he got too close or hugged him more than usual, and gave him kisses. Logan loved giving him kisses on the cheek, nose, forehead, or temple, it always gave him a faint tingly feeling on his lips.
When Carlos started asking him to go outside he did everything in his power to isolate him from the world so only he could be with him and not have any fear of losing him to another man or woman. He started lecturing him about how dangerous going outside was using fear to make Carlos want to stay inside more, but it only made him curios and started buying books, movies, video games, a guitar, anything to keep him busy so he won't think about leaving his home.
As years passed he felt even more in love as he grew from a cute child to a handsome teenager that he soon saw in his dreams having sex. At first he couldn't see him too afraid that Carlos will notice his erection and start to question him about it and was afraid that he liked women until he found about he was bi. He didn't want to scare him in case he goes too far showing his affection to the latino, he was content being friends as long as he sees him. Having him was better than claiming him…for now.
"That was different," he said after a moment of silence.
"You were thirteen!" He exclaimed. James was the only person other than his father who knew about Carlos for a few years after he stalked him when James asked why he kept disappearing. He found Carlos when Logan was about to enter a room, James surprised him when he pushed his way inside and found a boy sitting on a couch wearing a large black hockey helmet. Logan kicked James out, painfully, and explained who he was and why he kept him after he explained his feelings about him. For a week James kept making fun of him of him and Carlos marrying someday, he stopped when Logan threatened that he would tie James to a chair and make him watch his lucky comb getting destroyed.
Logan crossed his arms and looked at him in disbelief, "what makes you think he's the one?"
"I felt a spark," Logan raised a brow.
"That could be static from the carpet floor."
He shook his head, "it's not and when I looked into his eyes it was love at first sight, man they were the most gorgeous eyes I have ever seen." He started talking about the blonde with a faraway look in his eyes.
"Are you planning on fucking him?" Logan knew of his sexual activities since James always brags about the hot guys or girls he gets with. James, like him, was bi, but he tends to be with guys more than girls. "If you do it will be too low even by your standards considering he's sixteen."
He glared at him, "no I actually want to get to know him. I want to know what he likes, what he hates, his hopes, his dreams, his-,"
"This is a first time I heard you speak about someone as a person other than your mom and you hate her," he said amazed at how dedicated he was to the blonde even though he met him for a short time. He had a sudden feeling of déjà vu, which was how he thought when he first saw Carlos. "It's fine as long as you don't do anything stupid, like you normally do," he muttered the last part to himself.
"Thank you Logan for your support," he replied sarcastically after he heard Logan speak.
"What are friends for?"
Kendall followed the map and walked through the hallway until he saw another hallway and made a left. He looked at the map again and saw a set of stairs, as he walked he made sure to keep track of his whereabouts not wanting to get lost, again. Fifteen minutes and many twists and turns through the hallways later he finally found a set of stairs. He took cautious steps making sure that he didn't make a sound and to keep an eye out for people. A part of him hoped to see James again, but he knew that he probably never will and it was a one-time thing. He smiled when he reached the first floor; with a look at his map he found a path that lead straight to the backyard. Putting away his map he walked until he saw two doors that revealed the garden, twisting the handle he stepped out and his eyes widened at the site before him.
The garden was better at ground level the air was filled with the sweet aroma of flowers, the sound of the water flowing in the fountain was louder giving a calm atmosphere and so were the noises of the birds chirping. He yelped in surprise and took a step back, when a blue bird suddenly appeared in front of him, upon closer inspection he recognized the chirp and the pattern of flight from it, "Sapphire?"
She chirped again and landed on his shoulder; he noticed how the sun rays reflected on her wings and body making her glow under its light, "now I know why your name is Sapphire."
She gave him a gentle peck on his cheek and flew off he followed her with his and eyes and looked up to see her landing on a windowsill. He smiled when he saw Carlos waving at him with a smile of his own. He waved back and saw him pointing at the large hedge. He nodded in understanding and walked towards it, he crouched and noticed that there was a thin fence holding the leaves together to hold the hedge. He got up and walked forward keeping an eye on the fence until it disappeared and saw a dark brown color in its place. Placing a hand on it and touched the surface it felt hard and cool beneath his palm, it was wood.
He grazed his hand on the wood ignoring the scrapes of small twigs and thorns pinching his skin until he felt a cool metal touch. Grabbing it he twisted it finding it difficult to open until he fiddled with it until he heard a crack and pulled it seeing a thin opening leading to a street with parked cars, he looked up to Carlos and gave him a wave again. He waved back and saw Sapphire's wings flutter probably meaning a goodbye or a see you later. With a grunt he opened the door slightly and peeked out making sure there was no one near him he stepped out leaving the door a bit open and made sure that it was still hidden by the hedge's leaves. He looked up and saw a shop at the end of the block, he smiled at his accomplishment and took out his phone and walked there hoping Guitar Dude will answer his call.
The blue bird was chirping and flying around the room wildly while Carlos was screaming in joy while jumping on the bed wishing for time to move faster so it could be the next day. He was going outside tomorrow. Finally, after years of staring out the window dreaming of going to the city it will become a reality and hang out with a friend. He didn't notice Sapphire fly to his opened closet or Logan leaning on the doorway with a smile on his face until he heard his voice.
"Someone looks happy." He suddenly stopped jumping on the bed and turned to see Logan leaning his shoulder against the doorway.
"Logan!" he jumped off the bed and walked to him. "You're back."
He nodded, "yup, did you do something while I was gone?"
"Uh…I was able to beat four of your high scores in some of the video games." He said quickly making up an excuse for his excitement.
"What!" His eyes widened in shock. "It took me weeks to beat yours."
He shrugged, "that's what happens when you have nothing else to do here."
"You do know this means that I have to get back at you right?"
Logan saw a flash of gray and a shout from the hallway, "not if you catch me first!"
He grinned and ran out of the room, he saw Carlos run into the kitchen and went after him. For forty-five minutes Logan chased after the Latino all over his home, there was the occasion throws of pillows and soft objects, there were also some close calls, but Carlos always moved or threw something at him before Logan was able to grab him. With a grin Logan hid behind his bedroom door and when Carlos arrived he threw himself at him, he squealed and laughed as Logan tickled his abdomen and they landed on the bed. They laughed and smiled at each other, "I win."
Carlos pouted, but it soon disappeared when he noticed the position they were in. Logan was on top of him their chests touching so close that there wasn't any space left between them, looking up he saw his laughter slowly died down. He felt his breath on top of his lips, they were so close all he needed to do was lean forward and they will be pressed up against his. Logan saw Carlos's pout disappear into a flustered expression his cheeks tinted red and noticed why, his body was on top of his. His lips were right there inviting him to touch them with his, he looked at Carlos and soon his thoughts drifted to him shirtless, sweating and panting saying his name over and over again as he…there was a beeping sound bringing Logan back to reality. He reached towards his pocket and took out his cell phone flipping it open and pressed a button silencing it.
He looked back down at Carlos and saw a sad look in his eyes, he didn't know if it was because he didn't try to kiss him or because he was leaving. Leaning down he pressed his lips on the tip of his nose, "I'll see you the day after tomorrow, okay."
Carlos nodded, "goodnight."
"Sweet dreams," he kissed his nose again and got up leaving the room and Carlos's area.
After he closed and locked the door he leaned back against it and took a deep breath rubbing his face. He wanted to kiss his lips so badly he didn't know whether to be relieved or frustrated with his phone for the interruption. When he took a step he hissed and looked down to see a large bulge on his pants, he groaned and quickly ran to the nearest bedroom. Quickly closing the door behind him he immediately palmed himself groaning at the touch and started to move his hand rapidly.
He walked to the bed and fell on his back, he unzipped his pants and pulled them down along with his boxers, releasing his hard member. He hissed as the cool air hit his cock, he gripped it and closed his eyes imagining Carlos stroking it. His thumb slid across his slit smearing the pre cum that was dripping from the head. He groaned at the thought of a naked Carlos covered in a thin sheet of sweat his eyes half lidded in lust and want, his chest heaving for breathes and imagining how it will feel like being inside him. Stroking his member roughly he thought how tight and warm he is and how Carlos moans will turn into screams of pleasure as he thrusts into him saying his name over and over again like a broken record. Logan felt a familiar heat pool above his groin and his breathing came rapidly and ragged, he gasped as he came on his hand and abdomen. He lay on the bed as he slowly came from his orgasm and got up deciding to sleep in the room and head to the bathroom to shower and change for bed.
Kendall found Guitar Dude outside of the mansion with a cell phone in his hand, when he looked up he had a smile when he saw the blonde walking to him.
"Dude!" he placed a hand on his shoulder giving him a playful shove. "Where the hell were you I tried calling you after you went missing."
"I got lost."
"Well the tour ended you want to go get a bite to eat or something," he pointed to the shops that were a few blocks away.
He nodded, "yeah I'm starving."
They both started walking to the gates leaving the mansion, "so what happened?" Guitar Dude asked in curiosity.
He shrugged, "went to the bathroom and when I came out you and the group were gone."
"Steve got pissed multiple times he finished the tour early," they chuckled. "I think he's gonna complain or quit."
"Maybe."
"Find anything interesting?"
He mind switched to meeting James and Carlos and reminded himself of tomorrow's plans of getting him to know the city. He had to bring some money for himself and Carlos to eat and bus fare. Deciding not to tell about his encounters he shrugged and in a casual voice said, "nothing special just hallways."
"Seriously?" he said surprised, "nothing special?"
He shook his head, "nothing."
"That sucks."
For the rest of the afternoon they were at a restaurant and ate and talked until Guitar Dude's phone rang ending their meal when his dad called to tell them that his meeting ended and it was time to go. During his ride back home he thought about the last few hours and felt excited about tomorrow and was thinking about planning where to go or if Carlos had any place in mind he wants to go. His thoughts changed from Carlos to the brunette he met, he felt a light blush on his cheeks as he remembered how he smiled and how he kissed his hand like a gentle man. James was his final thought as he fell asleep in the car; holding the same hand James kissed close to his heart.
James was allowed to stay in one of the guest rooms since he and Logan are going to be busy tomorrow with a meeting with other businessmen and employees in their company about finances and the regular boring stuff then go to a charity event. Right now James was twisting and turning in bed trying to go to sleep, but he couldn't as a green eyed blonde teenager kept haunting his mind. He hoped to find Kendall after the meeting, but by the time it ended the tours were over and most of the tourists left and according to the maids and workers of the mansion there were no people missing. Since the mansion is so large tourists tend to linger away from the group or get lost and there are workers to help them get back to their group or the entrance of the mansion.
After a last attempt of trying to get some sleep he groaned and lifted the covers. He went to a small dark wood desk and sat in front of it turning on his lap top, he went to the internet and typed Kendall's name hoping to find anything about him. It would have bothered him if he was looking for a stranger in the internet, but he had to because when he met Kendall…he felt a shock of electricity in his body when he touched him and was sure Kendall felt it too. He doesn't really believe in love at first sight or you know it when you feel it, but after meeting him those were the first things that popped into his mind and couldn't get him out of his head and had a difficult time thinking during the meeting. He wasn't like the random people he got with for a one night stand, he was sweet and he could tell that he cares about people and was a bit fit when he noticed his toned arms. The most amazing thing about him were his eyes, when he smiled they would brighten, when he blushed they will glow, when he was shy they will shimmer.
He shook his head trying not to drown from his thoughts about Kendall and was surprised to see a few links. Clicking on the first one it was a news letter showing Kendall smiling and another teenage boy holding a trophy both wearing a jersey and holding a hockey stick in their other hand. Reading the article he found out Kendall was co-captain of a hockey team in a high school in the city and it wasn't the first time Kendall won a trophy. According to the article he started playing hockey when he was a kid and played it ever since joining a hockey team in middle school and high school. He played in countless of games from other schools and won second place twice and first place once in the state championships.
James went to the school website, Palmwoods High, and found a picture of the entire hockey team and found Kendall in the middle. He went to a part of the website where the students of the school have their own profiles, he immediately found Kendall's and found out he likes the color green, he loves pink smoothies, his favorite clothing are plaid shirts, his favorite sport is hockey, and he likes to draw. James jaw dropped when he saw a picture of Kendall standing next to a portrait of a mountains and a forest that he apparently drew. He chuckled when he found a picture of Kendall and the captain being tackled by their team after winning a game. Skimming through the internet he fell for the blonde even more as he found out more about him, his interests, his dislikes, where he lives and found out where the school is. While he was looking through some of Kendall's drawings he yawned and found himself trying to stay awake.
He looked at the time at the lower right corner of his laptop and found out it was nearly two in the morning after looking at one more picture of Kendall he left the internet and turned off his laptop. With another yawn he got up from his seat and walked to the bed he closed his eyes when his head hit the pillow his last thought was of Kendall smiling and his green emerald eyes before he fell asleep.