I sat on the bed where Edward stood in the corner of our room. "Why are you signing the divorce papers that easily?" I asked knowing that Edward wasn't the type to give up what is so precious to him. "Bella, I feel like I pressure you to marry me and that you only did it to get changed am I right?" He asked looking at me finally.
I was right his eyes looked pained and I stood up walking to him putting my hand in his looking into his eyes. "I loved you when I was human Edward and nothing sounded better to me than to spend eternity with you. Except I loved Jacob when I married you the reason why I didn't tell you was because I thought that I can get over him. I realize that my love for you is more of the idea of being in love with someone that I was so addicted to. My love for Jake just feels right. It feels like if everything in the world was normal than he would be the one. I'm sorry, I really wish this didn't happen" I said feeling my eyes lower to his chest.
He cupped my face with his hands and lifted my face up so that he can look at me. "I love you more than I have ever loved anyone but if you love Jacob then I will not hold onto you" He said his eyes filled with understanding along with the lingering agony. I pressed my lips against his kissing him slowly and softly trying to see if I would have that spark that I did when I was human.
He tried as well; He kissed me rougher and deeply but I just didn't feel the same way he did. I felt as if I was kissing for play it didn't feel real. I didn't have any emotion of love towards him and it made me feel guilty. I pulled away and looked at him and wasn't surprise to see him leave the room. I felt anger and sadness all over because of what I've caused. Why do I always have to do this to him? I can never do anything without hurting someone.
It wasn't fair because not only does it hurt me to see them that way but the fact that I cannot do anything in my power to fix it. I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a blood package from the fridge and drank it viciously. "Mom, there's something I've been meaning to tell you" Renesmee came in the room walking slowly towards me. "Shoot for it" I said and threw the empty pouch in the trash before I wipe my face with the back of my hand. "I really like Jacob mom, I think we should invite him over tomorrow" She stated playing with a strand of her hair. I smiled at her and nodded in agreement. I adore the fact that my daughter accepted Jacob like family so since this imprint makes it hard for me to avoid him I pat her head and said "Yes, I'll call Jacob right away and invite him for lunch tomorrow. Does that sound good?"
She squeaked and nodded before hugging me "Yay of course mom!" She ran off to her room practically hopping. I laughed softly at her graceful movements and then I decided to call Jacob. It took two rings before he picked up "Hello?" His husky voice answered. "Hey Jacob, I was thinking can you come over for lunch tomorrow afternoon? My cabin of course" I asked. "Sure why not? I can't wait to see you" He said and I smiled to that and nod slowly to myself before saying "Listen, I gotta go now I'll see you tomorrow okay? Good night Jake" "Good night Bells" He replied before he hung up. It was really nice to hear his voice but I figured I better hunt before tomorrow that way I don't risk hurting anyone.
The hunt didn't take very long to do considering my vampire speed and the fierce yet graceful movements I have attained as a vampire. I manage to get a deer and a couple of squirrels. I return to the cabin to find the bathroom occupied. I knocked "It's me, Can I come in?" I asked. "Door is unlocked" He replied and I open the door.
The counter had a nightgown along with a pair of black panties and a bra. The water in the tub was warm and filled with bubbles and Edward just turn off the water. "This is for me?" I asked and he nodded before getting up. "You must be worn out from the hunt" He stated he was in velvet red boxers. I smiled and pressed a kiss on his cheek. "Hey, Thank you for this Edward" I said softly and He pressed a kiss on my forehead. "I'll see you in a bit" I said facing the bathtub and He left the room shutting the door to give me privacy.
I immediately got undressed and slipped into the water. The warm water was soothing for me and the strawberry bubble bath water felt amazing on my skin. I washed my body with a small wash rag and Dove soap and I washed all over before I wash my hair. I rinsed all over before I got out and dried my body. I put on my clothes effortlessly and brushed out the tangles in my hair. Sadly, Vampires do get tangles in their hair.
I went to our bedroom and lay next to Edward. "How was your shower love?" He asked looking at me with that crooked smile that I loved when I was human. "It was great actually, I feel a lot more relaxed" I said looking at him. "Well that's what I intended for you to feel" He said with a small chuckle. "Why are you being so generous?" I asked.
"Can't I do something nice for my wife without being questioned?" He asked looking at me with a raised brow. I shook my head "No, I guess not" I said. "Then come on rest in my arms while you're still mine." He said softly looking at me and I just couldn't say no. I felt so bad for him that I just scooted closer to him letting him wrap his arms around me as we just lay there for the whole night.