I made up my mind I'm going to tell Daryl how I feel about him. I was trying to when he walked away the other day. But I had all night to think about it and I made my decision. I have liked him for awhile now. Since the day I first met him actually. I can't believe that he even likes me. I can't believe I didn't know. Anyway I'm going to tell him. I made it to his tent it was still early in the morning but everyone was just getting up. I went to unzip his tent when I noticed it was already unzipped. So I just walked in. At first it looked like he just up and left but then I noticed his bow still laying on the ground by the opening. I looked around and seen his shoes on the ground and his shirt. Some thing's wrong Daryl never leaves his bow for any reason. I never seen him without his shoes or his shirt either. I would probably have kissed him then and there. I went over to the others and said, "somethings wrong has anyone seen Daryl?" Nobody looked up at me but Shane said, "Yeah he went to his tent yesterday. Did you look there?" I looked at him and said, "Yes I looked there he's not there. We need to find him." He finally looked up from the fire and said, "What would you have me do." He got up and spit into the fire. I looked at him and said, "Well we find him of course. Send out a search party we got to do something." He looked at me and started laughing and walked up to me and said, "Why would we waste energy on Daryl fucking Dixon? He never helped us before and besides he said what we all been thinking he's nothing but redneck trash." I looked at him and got so angry I slapped him square in the face and screamed, "He is not trash! He is a good person just like everyone else! He saved your ass two or three times already when he could have walked away. What gives you the right to judge him?"Shane looked at me and threw me to the ground hard enough to knock the wind out of me. He pinned me down and started punching me I tried to get the upper hand but he was too strong. Then Rick came and grabbed Shane and hoisted him from me and said, "what the hell is going on?" He looked at Shane then at me. I spit blood out of my mouth and said as I got up, "Daryl's missing. We can't just sit on our ass's and do nothing." Rick looked confused then he said, "What? how do you know he went missing?" I looked at him and said, "I went to talk to him and I knew he wouldn't come out so I went inside his tent and he wasn't there. So I looked around and seen his shoes and his shirt on the ground. Also he forgot his bow. Now you know damn well Daryl would never go anywhere without his bow. Now you look me in the eyes and tell me he's OK." Everyone was just staring at me until Rick said, "OK we will start a search party for him but I think he's fine." I grabbed a shotgun and walked to the woods without saying anything. I am beyond pissed off. I can't believe everybody thinks that of Daryl. Yeah so he has a bad mouth and a bad temper but that's just to protect himself. When the sun went down I made my way back to the camp and said, "Nobody seen him?" everyone looked at me and Rick said, "no we haven't found him yet. maybe he doesn't want to be found." i walked up to him and said, "like hell Daryle would just leave without his bow or talking to someone. you may think he would do that but i no he wouldn't." and with that i turned and walked away. i walked right into Daryle tent and looked around i sat down on his make shift bed and felt so bad i started crying. i stayed there until my watch said 6:00 am that's when everyone gets up i opened the tent and stepped outside into the morning light. i looked around and seen almost everyone by the fire eating breakfast. who can eat at a time like this? Daryle's missing. they looked up as i approached and said, "sit down and eat something." i didn't waste my time talking to them i just grabbed a shotgun and left again. that happened for about a week until i was so exhausted i passed out on the ground. i woke up to rick screaming at me i looked up at him and tried to get up but he held me down. he looked at me and said, "you can't keep doing this glen. your hurting yourself." i just looked at him and said, "someone has to look for him rick he's out there somewhere. what if he turns into one of them cause i stopped looking for him. maybe you can live with that but i can't." he looked at me and said, "first you need to get your strength back at least eat something." i just nodded and followed him. i didn't even no what i was eating i just scarfed it down so i can go back out and look for him. when i was all the way done i got up and left without a word. another week went by and still no sign of Daryle. i came back and it was pitch black as usual but when i came back everyone knew something was wrong. Shane stood up and walked to me and said, "hey kid are you OK." i just dropped the shotgun by his feet and kept on walking. Everyone was watching me now as i walked away. i got a few feet away when i fell over a big log on the ground. i didn't even know it was there. it was so dark but luckily Shane was there before i could hit my face against a tree. He grabbed me before i completely fell. before he could ask me any questions i broke. my knees went weak and i would of collapse if it wasn't for Shane holding me up. i grabbed his shirt in a death grip and buried my face it and i cried. i did more then cried i screamed and cried. i never cried that hard over anything before. Shane wrapped his arms around me and said, "shhh..shhh..shhh..its OK everything will be OK." i screamed,"h..he's gone and i..its all my f..fault." i cried into his shirt. all he said was, "nothing is your fault glen. you couldn't have changed anything. everything will be OK we'll find him." i cried, "h..he l..left before i could tell h..him i..l..liked him. h..he thinks i h..hate him." i cried he didn't say anything to that just held me closer. it felt like hours went by before i stopped crying and he led me to the fire where everyone else was. i didn't look at anybody. i sat down and within a few minutes i was asleep. i dreamed of horrible things like Daryle becoming a walker or him getting eaten by walkers. several times i woke up screaming bloody murder. and scared the living shit out of everybody. but soon it was morning and i was up and looking for him again. before i could leave the camp rick stopped me and said, "you are not going anywhere until you eat something' you hear me?" i just looked at him as he sat by the fire i walked back by the fire and he gave me something. maybe it was chicken but i don't know. when i ate all of it i got up and tried leaving again. i really don't feel so good. before i could leave rick ran up and gave me a glass of water. i shook my head and tried to leave but he held his ground and offered the glass to me again. i grabbed it and toke a big gulp and threw the cup on the ground and he just stood there in my way. i suddenly felt like i was going to get sick. i barely turned away from him when i puked. i threw up all my food and water\ that i just ate. after i was done i looked back at rick and walked away to the woods. when i came back i was done. i got so mad i walked to the camp and ran right into Shane. i didn't look at him just kept on walking. all he said was,"dude what the hell!" he ran after me and tried to grab me so i relaid around and punched him in the face. he stumbled back and before he could punch me back i ran to my tent and barely got it open when he tackled me and punched me in the face and pinned me underneath him. just like before he couldn't say anything before i started crying. when he let me go i just crawled to my make shift bed and buried my face in my pillow and i screamed and cried. when i stopped crying i realized that it wads raining i can't go out and look for Daryle in a freaking hurricane