I don't have much to say except sorry on the late update. Also I have determined a theme song for this fic. It's Survive by Rise Against. Listen to it while reading and it totally fits.
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"…I'm sorry."
"So am I."
"For what?" She asked exasperated.
"For not telling you I loved you while I had the chance." He said.
She gasped and bit her lip. She let out a muffled sob. "Shizuo..."
"This really is my own fault. If I hadn't been so stupid that night, you never would have listened to the flea."
"It's my fault for listening to him."
"Will you be happy if is say it's both of our faults?"
"No, it was completely my fault. I over reacted that night. I'm sorry Shizuo, for everything."
"Try to calm down, I not an expert but I know stress isn't good for you or that baby."
She took a deep breath. "I know," She sighed.
Shizuo went to leave the room but paused. "Does he know?"
"Yes, he found out last night. That's why I was crying, I...pushed him away. I'm afraid of him now Shizuo."
"The flea's a bastard but I'm not blind. He can deny it forever if he wants, but he cares about you."
Her eyes widened. "I'm so stupid." She said burying her face in her hands.
"I won't kill him, for your sake. I still care about you Shikyo, even if you chose him."
"I-I'm sorry Shizuo. Thank you, for everything."
He turned back to the door. "You can stay as long as you want to." He said leaving the room.
Shikyo stayed long enough to calm down. She left Shizuo a note with money for the door and left for Shinjuku.
Shikyo walked up the stairs to Izaya's apartment. She knocked on his door and Namie answered. When she saw who it was she sighed and motioned for Shikyo to come inside. "Izaya, someone's here to see you." She muttered.
He looked up and his gaze darkened a bit when he saw Shikyo. "Namie, you can take a break." He said obviously meaning for her to leave. She just muttered "whatever," and left.
"What are you doing here Shikyo? I thought you were afraid of me." He all but hissed.
"S-someone talked some sense into me." She said.
"Let me guess. That someone was Shizu-chan. When I said to run back to him I didn't mean it literally."
"I didn't go back on purpose. I passed out halfway home and Shizuo found me. I'm grateful it was him and not someone else but if I had it my way I never would have seen him." She said looking away from Izaya.
"What exactly did he tell you."
"That no matter what you said you cared about me." She said. She heard Izaya get up and she looked at him. He motioned for her to follow him. He took her up to the roof.
"Did you believe him?" Izaya asked looking over the edge.
"I...yes."
He looked over at her and narrowed his eyes. "How much do you trust me?"
"What do you mean?"
He grabbed her wrist and made her fall sideways so she was hanging over the edge. He grabbed her other wrist so she was looking down. "Izaya!" She gasped.
"Do you trust me enough to think I won't let go." He asked.
Shikyo's eyes widened before she composed as best as she could being one step away from death. "You won't let go." She said.
"Are you sure?" He asked loosening his grip slightly. She gasped.
"Izaya, what are you going to prove by this?"
He pulled her back. "That it's dangerous to trust me." He said once she was back up.
She gripped his jacket. "You once told me you would never do anything like that to me." She said trying not to cry.
"And you trusted that I would keep my word."
"Why are you trying to keep me away Izaya? What are you afraid of?"
"Because I'm afraid of what I'm feeling, Shikyo. I think I may have found one human I feel for above everyone else, and it's you."
"Izaya," Shikyo stopped and sighed. "You're afraid to love." She said quietly.
"I don't know what I'm afraid of anymore. You want the truth Shikyo? From the day I stopped you in that alley you've been a pawn. You were supposed to be nothing more than another part in my plans. However things didn't work out like that. As time went on I stopped wanting to use you. That was around the time you started coming by every day. I realized I didn't want to lose you. I also discovered I was afraid to. I don't want humanly emotions, and I don't want to be placed on the same level as humans. However I realize now I don't have control over that."
"Izaya, it isn't bad to love."
"I don't want to love the same person that Shizu-chan loves."
Shikyo looked away from him a pained expression on her face. "Even if you did love the same person, there is one thing you have that he doesn't."
"What's that?"
"That person's love returned." She said looking back at him. "I chose you a long time ago Izaya. Even while I believed you couldn't love me."
"Shikyo, it would be better if you didn't."
"Not anymore,"
"Why?" He asked turning towards her.
She walked up to him and took his hand setting it on her stomach. "Because like it or not this is your child." She said.
He sighed smirking lightly. "Of all the humans I could have developed feelings for it had to be the persistent ex girlfriend of my worst enemy."
"Hey, if there's one thing I've learned it's fate can be a total bitch." Shikyo said. "I mean I fell in love with a sociopath. How is that fair?"
"Shikyo,"
"Yeah,"
"I won't leave you."
She smiled. "I know, we'll make this work...somehow."
They went back down to Izaya's apartment.
Shizuo came back to his apartment and saw Shikyo's note with the money for the busted door.
Dear Shizuo,
Remember how Izaya said he was going underground for a while? Well I've decided to go set things right and go with him. Thank you for everything you've done for me. I'm sorry about everything I've done since highschool. I hope you can forgive me. I don't know when or if I'll see you again so I guess this is goodbye. I really do hope we can see each other again someday.
Your Friend Forever,
Shikyo
P.S. Tell Shinra and Celty goodbye for me.
Shizuo sighed after reading the note. 'Good luck Shikyo.' He thought. 'I forgave you a long time ago.'
Shizuo went to his room to look for the old photo albums he still had. He too hoped they would meet again someday.
There will probably only be one more chapter after this.
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