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BPOV

"THIS IS ALL YOUR FREAKING FAULT!" Ugh! I had just woken up and that is what I have to hear Alice screaming from outside my door? Damn.

"How is all my fault?" A velvety voice questioned. Oh great it was Edward. Here to look at me weirdly again mate?

Then I remembered what happened. I remembered his stare. What Tanya said. How he didn't object and how he always kissed and held her. How he loves her.

I still love him. I always did and I always will. He used to love me to. He said in unconditional. But he lied. There was a condition and he lost me and I lost him. I sobbed. I had opened the floodgates once more. And although all this stung so badly and made me feel like an empty shell I knew I loved him and this wasn't his fault. Of course it wasn't! He wasn't flying the plane. He didn't make the plane!

"OKAY NUMBER ONE YOUR DATING THAT SELF CENTERED WHORE! NUMBER TWO YOU LOOK AT BELLA AS IF SHE ISNT THERE OR LIKE SHE'S AN UGLY HAG WHICH SHE IS NOT! NUMBER THREE YOU DIDN'T EVEN CARE WHEN TANYA SAID THAT. I BET YOU WERE THINKING THE SAME THING TO WEREN'T YOU? I DON'T CARE I YOU GOT FREAKING AMNESIA! YOU STILL REMEMBERED US. YOU EVEN REMEMBERED ROSE AN JASPER AND THEY AREN'T IN THE FAINTEST BIT RELATED TO YOU! YET YOU CANT EVEN REMEMBER BELLA! SHE WAS YOU FREAKING GIRLFRIEND AND LOVE AND EVERY MINUTE OF THE DAY YOU WOULD DECLARE YOUR LOVE FOR HER. YOU SPENT NEARLY ALL OF YOUR FREAKING TIME WITH HER. HELL YOU LIVED WITH HER FOR GOD'S SAKE. YOU SPENT MORE TIME WITH HER THEN US! AND YET YOU REMEMBERED US BUT NOT HER? NOW GET YOUR ASS IN THERE AND THINK A LITTLE!" Ah friends so loving, so gentle. You love 'em to death

I heard the door open but I was still sobbing. I realised that the only reason he was coming in here was because Alice made him. He wasn't doing this for choice he would probably want to be back with Tanya watching some movie while she cuddled on his lap. The thought made the floodgates snap and just pour water without any indication of stopping.

I heard two throat clearing coughs. I looked up but my tears made it blurry. I tried to dry my eyes but it was impossible. I blinked a few times and was finally able to see.

"So your awake?" He said it more like a question. He looked uncomfortable, sitting by my bed.

"Obviously." I tried to keep my voice steely but it didn't work. "I heard you got part 1 of Alice's whiplash." I had to let the humour and seriousness leak into my voice.

His eyes grew wide and his face became matted with fear. "Part 1? And umm how many parts would there be?" His voice was shaky and I supressed a laugh

"Around 5 if you're lucky if not around 8." I told him a smile playing at my lips.

"Shit, shit, shit!" He cursed under his breath and this time I couldn't hold back my giggle. I heard him chuckle with me. My favourite sound. So musical…

But then I remembered why he was here. My lip trembled and I blinked twice trying to keep the tears in but one slipped out trickling down my already wet face, leaving a thin trail.

"Don't cry… please?" He murmured soothingly. I managed to hold the floodgate in.

"Bella ever since I came… back into everybody's life they have all been berating me saying that you are the one I loved and still should. I have been getting on their nerves. I don't know why I don't remember you. I have been trying ever since they told me about you… and I. I am extremely sorry that I have been treating you badly and I am even more sorry that I have made you cry and have pain all these times. Alice told me you still… love me and that I used to love you but now… I'm sorry Bella but I love Tanya now. I'm sorry I caused you pain and sorrow but this won't work. I'm sorry Bella." He finished softly. He squeezed my hand and as he did I felt a spark shoot through my body. It was no different from when he used to touch me before. I relished the feeling and closed my eyes, trying to stay strong.

I heard him stand up and walk to the door quietly closing it after him. As soon as I heard his footsteps disappear I opened my eyes and immediately started sobbing. That was it. I now officially had no hope of having my Edward back. He didn't love me anymore. It was official. He loved Tanya. I wanted my Edward back so much because he hadn't changed on bit. He still had the same smile, the same charm, humour, personality. He was still caring and kind and everything else you could hope for.

I cried and cried. Alice and Rose flew through the door once more and closed their arms around me, rocking me like a baby until I fell into an uneasy slumber.

EPOV

I awoke early this morning. I carefully got out of bed so I didn't wake Tanya and quickly cleaned up. I sped to Bella's apartment in my Volvo. I spent the whole time thinking about what to say.

Should I be blunt and just tell her I don't love her? She seemed pretty emotional. I didn't want to put her through any more pain. Should I spin a long tale about it? I wanted her to know that I wanted forgiveness and her friendship but nothing more. I loved Tanya… wait did I?

After the whole slap episode Tanya has become way more clingy I'm not saying I don't like it but it's just getting annoying. She's 22 I think she should know how to look after herself.

Beads of sweat were breaking out on my forehead as I stepped into the elevator. I was still thinking about… well everything. Alice told me that I used to love Bella and that she still loves me. She told me I should remember her. All of this is confused me and rolled around in my head. I wished I wasn't in the plane crash. I wish I never had amnesia. I wish that I had a normal life.

I was going to tell all of this to Bella. I knew she would understand or at least listen. I heard the elevator ding and open. I walked out and at a snail's pace I walked to Bella's apartment. It's weird thinking that I used to share it.

I knocked on the door softly and stood there waiting, rocking on my heels. No one came to the door. Bella should be awake it was 10. I knocked louder. I waited again. No answer. I started to get. Was Bella alright in there? I hoped so.

I put my hand on the doorknob and turned in and to my surprise in opened. I ran inside, my thoughts still swimming

"BELLA?" I called frantically. I ran into every room but Bella had vanished. I started to get scared. All my thoughts vanished. Where was Bella?

I called Alice. She answered on the first ring. "What do you want Edward?" Her voice was bitter and sorrowful. I was surprised.

"Alice where's Bella? She's not in her apartment." My voice seemed to worried and frantic to me.

"Why would you care?" Ouch that one stung.

"I need to speak to her Al where is she?" I was getting annoyed now.

"She's in hospital. She's unconscious. She was choking." What? Shit, shit, shit!

"What? How?" I asked although I was already in the elevator.

"When you left yesterday her cough got worse but she choked because she started crying."

Oh God. Holy Crap. This was my fault. And Tanya's as well but I never even talked to her or looked at her nicely and she loves me. I can't believe I've put her through so much pain. I thanked Alice and hung up on her.

I ran to my car and speeded to the hospital. I charmed the lady at the counter to let me see Bella and I ran down various halls and corridors but when I got to her room I saw Alice guarding the door, sending me death glares.

Oh shit.

""THIS IS ALL YOUR FREAKING FAULT!" She screamed at me and even though I deserved it I still tried to defend myself. I needed to know what had happened all this time even if it did mean getting screamed at.

"How is it my fault." I questioned knowing I would get an answer finally.

"OKAY NUMBER ONE YOUR DATING THAT SELF CENTERED WHORE! NUMBER TWO YOU LOOK AT BELLA AS IF SHE ISNT THERE OR LIKE SHE'S AN UGLY HAG WHICH SHE IS NOT! NUMBER THREE YOU DIDN'T EVEN CARE WHEN TANYA SAID THAT. I BET YOU WERE THINKING THE SAME THING TO WEREN'T YOU? I DON'T CARE I YOU GOT FREAKING AMNESIA! YOU STILL REMEMBERED US. YOU EVEN REMEMBERED ROSE AN JASPER AND THEY AREN'T IN THE FAINTEST BIT RELATED TO YOU! YET YOU CANT EVEN REMEMBER BELLA! SHE WAS YOU FREAKING GIRLFRIEND AND LOVE AND EVERY MINUTE OF THE DAY YOU WOULD DECLARE YOUR LOVE FOR HER. YOU SPENT NEARLY ALL OF YOUR FREAKING TIME WITH HER. HELL YOU LIVED WITH HER FOR GOD'S SAKE. YOU SPENT MORE TIME WITH HER THEN US! AND YET YOU REMEMBERED US BUT NOT HER? NOW GET YOUR ASS IN THERE AND THINK A LITTLE!" It stung and left me only more confused but more than anything I started to get scared of Alice.

I walked into Bella's room. She looked even more frail than before. More easily broken. It broke me that I would have to break her heart again.

Bella was crying and crying. Her gown was wet and so were her bed sheets. I coughed twice although I wanted to comfort her I didn't know how I would.

She looked at me with sad brown wet eyes. She started drying them and then blinked a couple of times before looking back up at me still looking sad and broken.

"So your awake?" I can't believe I was so thoughtless. I mentally slapped myself.

"Obviously." I could see she was trying to keep her voice steely but she couldn't even though I deserved it. "I heard you got part 1 of Alice's whiplash." I could hear the humour and seriousness in her voice. Crap this was only part 1. Damn.

"Part 1? And umm how many parts would there be?" I asked getting so scared that my voice was shaky. I still knew I deserved whatever Alice had in store for me though.

"Around 5 if you're lucky if not around 8." God I'm in some deep crap. I could see a smile playing on Bella's lips though.

"Shit, shit, shit." I murmured under my breath but Bella heard. I heard her giggle. It was a beautiful sound I had to admit. It was like music. I was happy to see her close to happy but I would need to tell her soon and get back to Tanya before she started to worry… If she ever did.

Bella's face became sad again and I could see she was holding back tears although one broke through, leaving a trail on her face.

"Don't cry… please" I tried to make my voice soothing as I was sitting next to her. She stopped. Thankfully I never like seeing people cry. It made my heart break but it was more with Bella. Maybe it was because I knew I was going to break her heart soon anyway. I had to get it done and over with

"Bella ever since I came… back into everybody's life they have all been berating me saying that you are the one I loved and still should. I have been getting on their nerves. I don't know why I don't remember you. I have been trying ever since they told me about you… and I. I am extremely sorry that I have been treating you badly and I am even more sorry that I have made you cry and have pain all these times. Alice told me you still… love me and that I used to love you but now… I'm sorry Bella but I love Tanya now. I'm sorry I caused you pain and sorrow but this won't work. I'm sorry Bella." I finished softly and squeezed her hand. I felt a spark shoot through me and for some reason it was something I remembered but from where… I never felt it when I touched Tanya. Why?

Bella closed her eyes at my touch and became peaceful. I slowly walked out quietly closing the door. Alice was still glaring at me but she didn't say anything but as I left I thought I heard a sob from Bella's room. I immediately felt the urge to go in there and comfort her but I knew I couldn't I had to get back to Tanya.

I ran my hands into my already messy hair trying to figure out why I remembered that simple spark when I touched Bella. I wanted to go back and ask Alice but I was going to Tanya.

Tanya, Tanya, Tanya.

I really need to get out of this crap I call my life.

But there is too much I need to fix.

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