Here comes another chapter! This one did make me tear up a bit, so get ready for a sob fest. Seriously, go get the tissues. :D

Anyway, be ready because the 5th chapter is coming tomorrow morning! I'll probably work on it tonight because I am officially losing my braces tomorrow! Yay! I am ecstatic.

This usual disclaimer: characters belong to the fantastic Cassandra Clare! PLEASE REVIEW! Reviews help motivate me! Enjoy!

"Jace, you have to get up sometime." A voice muttered softly in his ear. "We'll find her. She's probably back in New York."

"That's the thing Isabelle!" Jace yelled angrily, his voice slightly muted under the covers of his bed. "She's not. When she said goodbye, it was like goodbye forever, not just goodbye for a couple days."

"Maybe it's good that she's gone." Said someone from the corner of the room.

"Alec!" Isabelle cried. "It's Clary! Jace's sister! How can you say that?"

As the two siblings bickered, Jace felt himself sinking into another depression. Alec and Isabelle had gone looking for him since he hadn't returned after leaving the Penhallows for Clary, and they found him on his knees, red sparks dying in his hands. Alec had removed a seraph blade thinking there was a demon attack, but Jace explained in slow, one word answers that Clary had summoned a portal. She was gone. And she could be anywhere in the world. They'd dragged him back to the Penhallows where he had since been in and out of constant depressions. They thought it was just because he missed Clary and was upset about the argument. They were right about him missing her- Jace felt like since Clary left a hole had opened up in his chest. He wasn't his usual cocky self; it was all gone, vanished off the face of the Earth just like Clary had taken it.

He took a couple deep breaths. What good was it sitting here, not moving and barely talking when she, the only girl he loved, and will ever love, was in possibly in danger? "Alec! Isabelle!" He shouted over their loud voices.

They turned to him, their faces with expressions of surprise. "Listen to me. We need to find Clary."

"Mom," Clary whispered. "Mom, I'm here."

She was at her mother's bedside at Beth Israel, softly stroking her hand. There had been no change in her condition.

"Mom, there's-" Her voice cracked again, as a single tear ran down her cheek. "There's something I have to tell you. I know you can't hear me, but I have to tell you anyway. I think- I know I'm in love with Jace. Jace Morgenstern, mom. My brother."

"I don't know how it happened Mom. I think some part of me knew all along, ever since we kissed in the garden after he gave me the witchlight." She laughed quietly. "You know that expression, when you kiss the right person, you see fireworks? That's what I saw. Except the fireworks were like explosions. It just felt, right. Like we were meant to meet each other, meant to fall in love."

"But Mom, when Valentine said we were brother and sister, I think some part of me knew, deep down. Yet I denied it. I didn't want to believe it. After that, I started second guessing everything I did with him. I would say to myself, a sister wouldn't do that, a sister wouldn't do this. I knew I loved him, but I pretended I didn't. For- for everbody else's sake, I guess. I thought they would find it sickening that we loved each other."

"I know Jace loves me Mom, I know I love Jace. But, for him, I have to disappear for a while. Find out what I want. If I'm willing for this to work. Who knows Mom, maybe he'll love someone else when I come back. Maybe I will love someone else. But I have to leave, to find that out." She kissed her mother's forehead, just like she'd done with Jace. "I love you Mom. Thanks for listening." She slipped a small sheet of paper on top of her mom's bedside table.

Clary strolled out of the hospital, oblivious to everything else happening except for the silent tears running down her face. She pushed open the large white doors with porthole windows and sat down on a cold blue bench outside Beth Israel. Wiping away her tears, she stroked the witchlight in her hand.

"Someday Jace, you'll know where to find me." She whispered, as she took the witchlight rune and buried it along with a note softly into the dewy soil next to the bench.

"I love you Jace Morgenstern, and I will never stop loving you." She sighed sadly and stood on shaking legs. Quietly, she walked away, disappearing into the cascading orange leaves of fall.

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