CH4

"Hi! EVERYONE" said melody at the weekly meeting, luckily this week there hadn't been any suicides or accidental deths. "Now please write down the days you have lived without depression so far." The biggest number was 3 days.

"Today you all are going to cut smiley faces for little kids in an orphanage."

Poor kids, i might be at the blame for some of them, they properly don't know a thing about their parents because of me, they might think what kind of idiots leave their children in an orphanage not knowing that their parents died as heroes. Draco's thoughts.

"The scissors are going to be plastic well because it might be too dangerous to trust you with sharp objects from hearing the amount of suicides in this group before i arrived." Said Melody hanging everyone a pair of plastic scissors. "Please know that these smiley faces will bring a smile on those poor children's faces, it is rare that someone dose anything to them so this will mean a lot to them."

"How can cutting out smiley faces make us happier?" asked Draco. "It will be like forcing a smile onto something that doesn't want to smile, something like torture."

"Let's just say the faces do want to smile for the sake of avoiding torture." Smiled Melody. If you looked aroud the room there would be one or 2 people trying to slit their wrists with the plastic scissors, but no blood was spilt. Somehow few of the people manage to get a small smile out cutting smiley faces for orphans, so the class was making progress. Draco was one of the people that didn't get a joy at all, meanwhile Jacob did fell a bit better that he had helped someone to at least have a small smile.

Fallowing Wednesday, Draco and Jacob were back on the mission to play some kind of game. They both had no idea how to play it so they were learners.

"Hermione would probably know how to play, she knew everything." Whispered Draco.

"Same with Nessy, there will never be another one like her. She was just the most beautiful creature on earth" said Jacob.

"It might be easier to forget about her if you thought of her as your ex, who left and you never saw her again." Draco

"How could i think of her leaving me, that would only make me feel worse, Renesme wasn't an ordinary woman she was special and better then others." Jacob

"Tell me what made her better than others; she can't possibly be better than others."Draco

"Her lips had the perfect tone and they were soft and easy to kiss" Jacob

"Lipstick" said Draco

"Her hair was so soft and curly, you just would want to play with it." Jacob

"Shampoo" Draco

"Her eyes, they were the perfect colour and they stood out from miles away" Jacob

"Eyeliner" Draco

"Ok, then her smile, it lit up the whole entire room, and you would fell a burst of happiness inside you."Jacob

"That is every woman, their smile is worth more than anything in the world, even if i smiled it would light up the room, but i simply cannot smile for i know i have caused so many people to suffer." Said Draco in his depressing voice as always. "Perhaps she was good at sex? Everyone knows a woman great in bed is a secret to a great relationship."

"No we never did it." Said Jacob. "I guess people do die as virgins."

"How old was she?"Draco asked

"emm 18" Nessy looked 18 or 17 so it could go well.

"Are you a, ehmm a virgin?" Draco asked a bit uncomfortably.

"Yes" answered Jacob.

"and how old are you again?" Draco asked

"25." Draco tried not to smile, but a small smile somehow had appeared on his lips for a second. That smile hadn't been seen on his face for whole 7 years, it had been covered by depression and sadness, but it finally came out. It wasn't there for more than 2 seconds, but it was progress, and it meant a lot to Draco to just be able to say that he smiled only one in 7 years time.

"25 five years without any. Eh emm, you know waht? How on earth have you survived, you have barely lived..." Draco said

"Every time i had thought of it, Edward would give a cough, he knows everything it's impossible to keep secrets there." Jacob began making excuses."How old were you when you firs, emm did it?"

"I was 13."said Draco, now back into a bit of depression, "My father got me a slut of a girlfriend, and oforse a teenage boy is going to want some so that how it began.. Later on i stol virginities of yong girls..."

"Have you ever, tried to rape someone?" asked Jacob

"Sadly i have tried." Said Draco "But the girl ended up having more pleasure then me, and i ended up tied to a bed, my attempt to rape her was one of the best things i would ever have done, later on we met a few times for a something quick, while in public, we hated each other. Then at the war my father killed her, as she fought at the good side, they didn't even let me attend the funeral for my mistakes, i am to blame for the death of the most beautiful woman on earth, Hermione Jean Granger."

"That is sad" said Jacob

"I know, but our time is over" he pointed to the clock and left Jacob alone again to tidy up.