Junjou Terrorist Act 11: Is My Forever Your Forever?
Hey! Sorry It takes me so long, I'm a proactive high school student, but i bet you don't really care XD ANYWAYS I was thinking of instead of taking like a whole month to update, like update weekly and do it one part at a time, it ads suspense! So I think either this week or the next i'm going to start doing that, please tell me if the weekly thing works out better for the people waiting! And tell me what you think so far! I really wanna know! I hope it's good thoughts! Well enjoy guys! 3
Oh And PS: I don't think i mentioned this before but about Zach, he's not an OC though his personality kind of is. Wether you read the manga or watched the show, he's the 'foreign kid' and I figured that if they were close enough that he would visit Japan during the school year then they got to be pretty close! And I like Zach, but like everyone else I personally feel like he should bud out. though that's not how the story goes XP You just have to wait to see all the changes and what happens between them all!
Disclaimer: I do not own any characters from Junjou Romantica or anything like that, though if i did i would be so happy!
A Day with You:
Part I:
At about 9am Miyagi pulled up to theTakatsukiestate and pressed the little round button on the intercom, *beep* "Hey, It's Miyagi, is everyone ready to go?"
A feminine voice sorrowfully replied, "Gomen! I have a super important business meeting that got rescheduled for today! I can't miss it so I'm not going with you three today. I'll tell the boys to meet you upfront though."
"It's ok, I get it. And alright, thanks." Miyagi was kind of upset that Risako couldn't go, but he was excited to go out with Shinobu at least once more before he leaves.
Shinobu and Zach soon make their way outside. The bright summer sun casted a brilliant light upon Shinobu that made Miyagi smile, but only for a second and then utter disgust took his face at the sight of Shinobu's counterpart. Shinobu was dressed up more then his usual tee-shirt and jeans, he worked some forest green high top converse with white socks barley showing, some fitting brown and white plaid shorts that cut right about 3 inches above the knee, a form fitting dark green tank top that showed an inch or two of his midriff, and an unzipped dark brown vest that met the lowest part of his belt loop. He matched hip look with a few leather bracelets and a leather belt. Zach wore the same 'cool kid' style with black and dark blue DC's and no show socks, Blue and purple plaid shorts tied with a black and white studded belt, a dark purple tee-shirt with a monochrome design, a large extravagant key hanging from his neck, his hair spiked up showing his studded earrings, and a few bangles around his wrist next to his leather studded bracelet. Their slender bodies were nicely shown in their fir clothes and their fair skinned arms were exaggerated by the color scheme.
Walking down his walkway Shinobu lowered his head in embarrassment to the clothes he was wearing since Zach forced him into them and Zach had his arms comfortably wrapped around Shinobu's neck and his head resting on his shoulder. Shinobu held onto Zach's arm trying to hide his embarrassment from his lover but Miyagi took their positions to mean something else entirely. 'Shinobu's so cute, but he's never been like this before. Why is he so clingy to that boy? Is there something deeper between them…?'
"Ne Zach, who were you talking to on the phone last night?" Shinobu inquired as they walked towards the small dark car.
"Huh? You heard that?" Zach asked nervously.
"Not really, it's just that it woke me up. If you're going to talk on the phone for like an hour straight at 4 in the morning then do it in your own room!"
"Gomenasai! I thought you were asleep the whole time. If you would have said something I would have hung up."
Shinobu sighed the conversation away and a little upset added, "It's fine. Just don't do it again." 'He was probably talking to him since he hasn't seen him in a while, and he sounded so upset. I couldn't just yell at him to hang up, and I wasn't really awake. I just woke up for a second and fell back asleep. Whatever, He'll tell me later if I don't blow up on him like I usually do.'
Zach blinked with confusion, 'Wow… He's being really understanding. His mellow tone is kinda creeping me out… I wonder if it's this guys fault he's all dazed.'
When they reached the car Zach spoke first, "Ohayou Miyagi! It's such a beautiful day!" As he spoke he rubbed his cheek against Shinobu's as if he were indicating his possession.
"Ohayou Zach-chan. It is a beautiful day, isn't it? I hope we have a lot of fun." The sarcasm in his voice purely exposed. "Shinobu-chin, do you want to sit upfront with me?"
"Sur-" "Nope! Shinobu is mine! He's sitting with me!" Still holding onto Shinobu's neck Zack pulls him into the back seat of the car so that Shinobu is sitting on top of him. Zach undid his hold on the smaller boys neck just to wrap is long strong arms around Shinobu's waist.
"Zach! Let go of me! I don't want to sit with you! Baka!" Shinobu struggled to get free, but to no avail.
"It's ok Shinobu-chin. You're already in so let's get going." Miyagi didn't even look at the now dejected boy he was speaking to, but instead started the car.
As Shinobu was told to stay where he was he stopped struggling and sits in silence. Zach, seeing how Miyagi's words affected the boy, thought to himself, 'How can he say such a thing to him? Is he really Shinobu's lover or is he just playing with him…? He hurt Shinobu just like that… Shinobu is kind of fragile but for it to have this much of an impact, just what is Miyagi to Shinobu?' While he was trying to understand all this Zach patted Shinobu's head and smiled at him when he looked up. Shinobu was so used to crying when he was around Zach that he lost his control for a second and his eyes started to tear. Knowing that Miyagi was there made him hold back his tears because he doesn't want to show his weak side to Miyagi. Trying to comfort him Zach wipes Shinobu's tears and hugs him tightly. When Zach undid his hug he still held Shinobu in his arms a foot away so he could see Shinobu's sullen face. Zach thought his face was so much cuter when he smiled, but he rarely did.
When he pulled Shinobu away and saw those eyes trying their hardest to stay strong but feeling wrong doing so Zach tried to take his mind off of it, "Hey Shinobu! Remember when we were in middle school and to get away from my mom we snuck out at night and went to the amusement park? There were so many colorful lights!"
Shinobu's eyes relaxed as he remembered, "Yea! And you bought me Taiyaki for the first time and I thought it was the best thing ever!"
"Haha! Yea! If there wasn't a Japanese cultural festival happening in the park that night then you would have never gotten to try it!"
"It was so warm that night. If your mom knew that we weren't home she would have killed you!" Shinobu said as he started to enjoy being with Zach.
"Yeah…" Zach's heart sank for a moment but Shinobu didn't notice and he quickly put on a cheerful mask, "Haha! It's a good thing we decided to camp out by the river that night!"
"Uhuh! The stars were really pretty. You don't see stars like that in the city." Shinobu looked forward to see Miyagi who was focused on driving and gave a little sigh. Why wouldn't Miyagi pay even a little bit of attention to him? He had to of still loved him because he kissed him the night before, though he didn't say he loved him…
Zach noticed Shinobu's confusion and started to whisper something in his ear, at that moment Miyagi looked back as he had done a few times before on their trip, unknown to Shinobu, to see what they were doing and make sure Shinobu was okay. He saw the drooping eyes of his lover shoot open and then freeze followed by a pat on the head from Zach and him saying, "I think that's what it is, especially when you consider what you were just thinking about."
'Stars? Why would stars upset Shinobu so much?' Miyagi thought and returned his eyes to the road ahead.
Just as Miyagi turned away Shinobu's terror struck eyes turned and saw the emotionless man looking ahead. Shinobu thought about what Zach had said in order to confirm his thoughts. ''Shinobu, does it really sound like he loves you, or is he just using you for your cute face? You do have a girly face like Risako-oneechan.' But there's no way that's actually true. He doesn't even like Oneesan right? He has spent a lot of time with her recently…'
Zach pulls Shinobu's head to his shoulder and lets him rest him while he thinks about his love. The radio softly playing in the background eased the two boys to sleep while Miyagi drove in silence.
Part II:
"Shinobu-chin…. Shinobu-chin… Nee Shinobu-chin, wake up. We're here." Miyagi turned around in his seat to nudge the smaller of the sleeping boys, but who awoke first was the larger to Miyagi's disappointment.
"Yaaawwnn!" Zach stretched his arms as much as he could while being under Shinobu in a compact car. He laid one arm across Shinobu's chest to keep him close as he examined the parking lot they were in, "We here? Man I slept good!" Zach flaunted his being able to sleep with Shinobu like this to Miyagi and started nudging little Shinobu awake.
"huuh…?" Shinobu slowly rose rubbing his eyes. "So we're here?" Shinobu asked looking around.
"Yea. Let's go in." Miyagi's tone proved he was annoyed at Zach.
One by one they went through the procedures, going through the line, exchanging their ticket, walking through the detector, and getting their bags checked. Soon they were on the other side of the gate surrounded by colorful flashing lights and the sounds of laughter and high pitched screams.
Miyagi started to unfold his newly acquired map which showed the entire park and had a picture of every attraction. There was no way they could go do everything in one day!
Shinobu grabbed Miyagi"s arm to support himself as he looked past the older mans shoulders at the map. He has never been to an amusement park inJapanand he was so excited, though he didn't show it.
Miyagi looked to his side to see the boys face, "Where do you want to go first Shinobu-chin?"
Shinobu looked up at Miyagi and blushed at the sight of Miyagi's gaze and quickly returned his focus to the map, "Anywhere is fine."
"Ok then how about here?" Miyagi looks at the map and points to the largest coaster shown.
"If you want to." Shinobu's monotony answered.
'Well roller coasters aren't really my thing, so how about…' "How about here then?" Miyagi moved his index finger to the arcade left of the coaster.
"It doesn't matter." Shinobu Stubbornly replied. This ignorant side of him really got on Miyagi's nerves sometimes.
A little irritated Miyagi changed his approach, "We can go anywhere you want first Shinobu-chin."
Without thinking Shinobu whispered, "It doesn't matter where we go because I'll be wi-" Shinobu stopped himself as Zach's words come to mind, 'he's just using you.'
"Shinobu-chin?" Miyagi wondered what he was going to say. He thought it was going to be something along the lines of, 'because I'll be with the one I love!' or 'because I'll be with Miyagi"! And clamp onto him, but then why did he stop? 'Was that not what he was going to say? It is kind of out of character but he does say some cute things like that sometimes. Maybe he said it without thinking and didn't mean it. Maybe he just wants to be here with Baka Zach.'
Tired of seeing the awkward lovey-dovey couple Zach buds in, "Let's go there first!" He points practically strait up and a little towards the right at the at least 100 ft. tall drop tower, "It looks fun and it's right here! C'mon! Don't you wanna go on everything you can Shinobu?" Zach said smiling and already walking in that direction. The other two hesitantly followed without complaining too much.
In the end Zach dragged Shinobu on and Shinobu wasn't going down alone. The three were strapped in seats right next to each other and when they dropped Zach laughed, Shinobu yelped in the beginning but tried to hold it in, and Miyagi was so stiff he couldn't even open hip mouth to make a noise!
For about 5 hours strait they dragged each other on almost every ride and tried not to be sick. Zach was having fun but still watching out for Shinobu, who always got so light headed that he tripped a lot. He knew Shinobu was still confused and wanted him to forget about it for now since he was leaving to go toAustraliasoon anyways. Miyagi was in no shape to physically help Shinobu like Zach since he was in even worse shape, and he didn't even know what was wrong with Shinobu but he had some ideas. He thought it was because of how harsh he was about him going, but every minute with Zach makes him want Shinobu to stay. Though he still thinks it's the right thing to let him go, he doesn't want to 'let him go' with Zach per say. He knows that his loving Shinobu will hinder him and he did say to himself that he would let the boy go when it was time for him to move on in his youthful life, but it's just so damn hard.
"I'm going to be sick! Let's sit down." Shinobu got out in one lazy huff as he plopped himself on the nearest bench. They had gone on every ride that crossed their path and almost made a complete loop around the park so Zach gave in to Shinobu's request and sat down, ending the 'being dragged all over the place' part of the day.
Miyagi staggers towards them but stays standing, "Hey I'm going to go get something to drink. Does anyone else want anything?"
"No way, I'm going to puke if I drink anything right now." Shinobu lifelessly responded as he stabilized his insides.
"I'll get it. I don't trust you to carry anything of mine in that state. Plus I saw something really great a while back. You two wait here and don't move!" Zach warned as he ran off to where they had just come from. Miyagi silently agreed and went to sit on the same bench as Shinobu. Both of them were too tired to wonder exactly where Zach rushed off to.
After a few moments rest Miyagi strikes up a conversation, "Ne, how are you feeling Shinobu-chin?"
Without looking over Shinobu emotionlessly replied, "I feel like I'm going to be sick. Sorry Zach can be a little out of hand."
'A little?' Miyagi thought to himself. "Yea. I think I almost died 10 times over."
"You almost died? Are you okay?" Shinobu quickly spun around to check on his lover.
Miyagi blushed when Shinobu got excited about him, "I'm fine Shinobu. I was only kidding."
"I KNEW THAT! I was just checking…" Shinobu's voice cowered back as he finished speaking. "Zach is taking his time."
"Yea. He is taking a little while." Miyagi never looked away from Shinobu, though Shinobu had already turned to the direction Zach went when he spoke.
"I wonder where he went." Shinobu quietly said, almost to himself as he looked down trying to hide his faint smile.
"Ne Shinobu… Do you like (love) Zach-chan?" Miyagi quietly asked. After wanting to know what Zach meant to Shinobu for a while now, Shinobu's hidden smile was all he could take until he had to know.
"Of course I do." Shinobu looked directly at Miyagi's face when he answered and his eyes were so big and innocent. Thinking nothing of the question he wasn't the slightest bit embarrassed to admit it. "I have always liked (loved) him. Ever since I met him that one night when we were kids."
'That one night? He doesn't love him like that right…?' "So then have you two slept together?"
"Uhuh. We've had a bunch of sleepovers. He gets lonely when he's away from home so even now we are sleeping together."
'That's what I thought. Thank god! Huh?' Miyagi slyly looked past Shinobu and saw Zach listening in on their conversation from behind a near by tree. 'I think now is a good time to show this boy his place.' In a louder voice Miyagi continued their conversation, "Haha! Isn't it hard to breath with that big oaf laying on you?"
"Yea, it used to a lot, but I've sort of gotten used to it." Shinobu really liked talking with Miyagi since he has felt weird near him since this whole thing started.
"So if you sleep together then have you kissed him?" Miyagi asked smirking.
"Whaaa? K-K-Kiss? Him? No way! That's gross!" Shinobu's cheeks heated up and his lips tightly pressed together trying to get the thought out of his head.
"It's gross? Cause you're both guys?" Miyagi pretended to be worried and curious, even though he knew he was controlling the whole conversation.
"No, Miyagi's a guy and it's not gross… It's because it's him that it's gross…" Shinobu's face grew even more flustered when he mentioned his lover's name.
"Why is it not gross when you kiss me?" Miyagi asked wearing an innocent expression.
"It can't be gross because I love y-" "Yo! Look what I got!" Zach purposefully interrupted Shinobu carrying a small grocery-like bag.
"Gasp! Is that what I think it is!" Shinobu dropped the subject and lunged for the bag.
The sullen Zach light heartedly laughed at Shinobu's gesture, "Haha! You can tell from just the smell? You really must love this stuff!"
"Huh?" Miyagi sat on the bench completely lost as he watched his little lover continuously leap for the bag that always managed to evade him.
"Grrr! Give it to me!" Shinobu made his ands into fists and pushed them down to his sides like he was about to throw a tantrum.
"Nope, I don't think I will! Well… If you say you love me then I'll give you two!" Zach persuasively smiled to match his tone.
"Hmph. I like (Love) You. Now give me the bag!" Shinobu lunged once more, but to no avail.
"Sigh. Well that was rather pathetic but a promise is a promise. Here's your share, you can't have the whole bag!" Zach pulled out two wrapped fish shaped pastries and handed them to the child (who was actually a year older then him).
"Yay! I love you!" Shinobu exclaimed as he went to sit.
"Yeah, yeah. Here's yours Miyagi-ojiisan." Zach walked over to the bench to give Miyagi his and sit down next to Shinobu.
A little irritated Miyagi gave his thanks, "Gee, thanks… But isn't this just Taiyaki?" 'He's so excited that it's creepy. I've never seen him like this. Though it is really really cute, but to bring this out in him. This Zach kid is an odd one. He clearly knows how Shinobu feels but he still tries. If I let Shinobu go back with a guy like him then their relationship could change, especially since he's so pushy. Well at least now I know for sure that Shinobu doesn't love Zach'
Miyagi lovingly watches Shinobu completely devour his first red bean paste filled pastry while thinking to himself. As he watches Shinobu scarf down the second he was given he wonders if it really is the little snack that has got him so excited. "Ne, Shinobu-chin. Do you like Taiyaki?"
Shinobu smiles up to Miyagi and with a mouthful of food barley manages an exaggerated "Ummhumm!" before swallowing to continue, "I really love it! Zach bought it for me when we were kids and it was so different from normal Australian foods! It was amazing! But it has to be red bean paste filled and it has to be fresh or I won't eat it!" Shinobu quickly finished speaking so he could bite into the section he has been eyeing for the better half of his speech.
"NOM!" Shinobu plopped the last bite of his Taiyaki in his wide open mouth and happily chewed his snack. Then he gulped down the rest of his juice and let out a big sigh, "Ahhhhhh! Thanks for the meal!"
"Silly Shinobu! You're a mess!" Zach giggled as he took hold of Shinobu's chin to turn the young boy's face to his and licked the filling from Shinobu's cheek. "There, all better."
Embarrassed Shinobu pouted and looked away. Zach's aggressiveness was really getting to Miyagi. He didn't want Shinobu to be alone for even a second with that guy. Miyagi was so jealous and kind of scared that he will eventually lose his little Shinobu to that monster, but Shinobu was indifferent to all of this which just makes him feel worse. He decides that he has to make sure Shinobu knows who his lover is.
"Baka Zach! I can wipe my own face!" Shinobu shouts, breaking Miyagi's concentration.
"Haha! But that's no fun Shinobu!" Zach laughs and pats him on the head.
Shinobu suddenly stands and starts to walk away, "I'm going to go wash my face!" And speed walks to the rest rooms.
"Wait Shinobu-chin, I'll g-" Miyagi was stopped by Zach grabbing hold of his sleeve. When he had Miyagi's attention he stood face to face with the older man.
"You DO know Shinobu's coming home with me. Even if he does love you, he loves me too. He just doesn't realize it yet. Plus, I'm better suited for him then you are." Zach arrogantly stated with a hardened face.
"I knew you were listening, even when you're told that he doesn't love you, you don't give up. I hope you know that I'm the one who told him to go back." Miyagi coldly retorted while thinking, 'He is so full of himself. He really does want to steal Shinobu from me! And he could probably do it too since that little brat does love this idiot. But still… I can't just let him have Shinobu-chin!'
"I figured you did considering when he first saw me he broke out into tears. He is a baby but he doesn't cry that often. And in the few days I've known you; you have managed to make him cry twice! What makes you think I would hand him over to you! I love him! And that means I would never make him cry!" Zach nearly shouted for the whole park to hear.
"Twice…?" Miyagi whispered, 'I figured he would be upset when I left him that first time, but when was the other time he cried? And if I wasn't there then how was it my fault?'
"Yes! You didn't even notice? He was about to burst into tears in the car this morning when you were being cold to him! What I want to know is why he loves YOU? You of all people! He's normally indifferent to everyone except for me. He's even emotionless towards his own family. I don't know who the hell you are or what you want so just let Shinobu go. It would be easier for him to only love me, like he used to."
Miyagi has been thinking that it would be easiest for his lover to just let him go, but he can never go through with it all the way. He always ends up coming back to leading him on, even though he knows it's wrong. He wants Shinobu to love him more, even if he is leaving. He wants Shinobu to be his. After a moment of silence Miyagi's thoughts begin to clear, "That won't happen. I'm sorry Zach but I love Shinobu and I plan on making sure he knows it. Even if he does go away, once he finds out who he wants to be he can come back if he wants. I know you love him, but it is obvious that he doesn't see you the same way." Miyagi spoke in a calm manner which just ticked Zach off even more.
"Shut up! He can't stay with you so give up! I won't let you have him! I don't trust you and frankly I don't like you! Just leave us alone!"
Miyagi just quietly stands there listening to Zach rant, quite pleased with himself for figuring out how to handle Shinobu next. He calmly sits Zach down on the bench and says that he will be right back. Zach yells at him for a moment longer but then stays put because he doesn't know what else to do.
Part III:
Miyagi speed walks towards where Shinobu said he would be so he could retrieve him. As he approaches the building he sees the boy exit with a depressed face.
"Oy Shinobu-chin!" Miyagi gets Shinobu's attention and reaches for his hand. Once he has a firm hold he leads the boy to the Farris Wheel.
"Oy Miyagi! Where are we going! Hanashiteyo!" Shinobu tries to shake off Miyagi's hand but Miyagi looks at him with an unusual smile that calms him. As they approach the Farris Wheel Shinobu looks up at amazement at their destination, "Oy Miyagi! Answer me!" Shinobu demanded in a softer tone still looking up at the colored lights moving in a pattern on the large wheel.
Delicately Miyagi set a single finger on Shinobu's tightly pressed lips. "Shh. I don't think they will let you on if you're yelling the whole way there." Miyagi quietly spoke to Shinobu as they neared the car entrance.
The door was closed behind them as they sat across from each other in the silent car. Shinobu was stiff as he tried to guess Miyagi's motifs, 'Why did he just suddenly bring me here? Is he planning on doing something in here? It is private, but if he just does stuff then does that mean Zach is right? MIyagi is good at tricking people… I don't know what to do… I do love him, so much. But maybe he really didn't ever love me. In the beginning he didn't like me, and he said the love we would have was physical. I mean to get me out of his face he pushed me down, and I did say I would do it with him, but that was only so he wouldn't leave…'
Shinobu's eyes were closed shut and his head hung over his stiff lap. Anyone could tell how awkward he felt, he looked terrified. What Miyagi couldn't figure out was why. He figured Zach did something to him, but what could he do to make him scared of his love? Miyagi watched Shinobu worryingly for a moment until he couldn't take it anymore. He slowly and carefully reached for Shinobu and caressed his warm soft cheek. Shinobu flinched at first but then after a moment of nothing happening he looked up at the older gentleman who was simply looking and smiling.
"Shinobu-chin, I love you" Miyagi softly sang in his low heart wrenching voice that froze the smaller of the two. With Shinobu's eyes mindlessly fixed on Miyagi's and his lips loosened and relaxed on his flustered face that was held by loving hands. 'No, should I believe him? Miyagi I don't know what to do…' Shinobu thought as his lover's words rand in his head. Miyagi bent down and kissed the defenseless boy after he said his feelings. 'It feels so good. It would only feel this way if you did love me right?' Shinobu contemplated while tying tongues with the one he was destine to love.
Miyagi soon pulled away fully aware that if he had continued he wouldn't be able to stop. His little lover quickly looked away, unable to sort out his thoughts though he did believe one thing to be true. He knew that he couldn't believe that Miyagi didn't love him, but he couldn't bring himself to feel like that was right.
"Ne Shinobu-chin. What's wrong?" Miyagi lovingly inquired while reaching for his partner.
'Don't tell him! Don't tell him! Don't tell him!' Shinobu thought to himself, he didn't want Miyagi's opinion since he was the man in question, but he really needed to talk about it. Just as he was about to speak Miyagi grabbed hold of his hand, "It's okay Shinobu-chin. Don't force yourself. We're almost at the bottom so be careful standing up." When the door opened Miyagi helped the boy up and as they left the attraction their hand joined together.
Looking down at Shinobu Miyagi made up his mind, 'I want you to be happy but I can't give you up, I won't ever give you up. I don't really care if this is the wrong thing to do anymore, but I'm going to make sure you know I love you. Even when you do go away I want you to know that I will love you forever.'
"Oy! What's the big idea just leaving me behind like that!" Zach yelled as he caught up with them, "Do you know just how long I have been looking for you! I thought something happened! Where the hell were you two!"
Shinobu showed not an ounce of sympathy as he pointed up back towards the Farris Wheel. "On that."
"Not fair! I want to go too! Why didn't you tell me Shinobu! I was out here alone forever!"
"It couldn't have been that long. The ride was only like 3 minutes long."
"That's kinda harsh…" Zach said in a quieter tone, but then reverted to being loud when he snapped out of his momentary depression, "So what do you want to do next Shinobu?" Zach clamps onto Shinobu's free arm and lets him think.
"Now, now, Zach-chan don't get too excited. Shinobu is mine." Miyagi confidently spoke as he looked down upon Zach. 'There's no way in hell I'm giving my Shinobu-chin to this Idiot!'