A/N Sorry for not updating yesterday, I had no time. I wont update much during the week, but Friday I will post 2 chapters, because Wednesday and Thursday I wont be posting. I just want to say thanks to deadgirl101 for being a really true fan of the fanfic from the beginning. I really hope you enjoy this chapter. Thanks for the favorites. You guys inspire me to keep writing. I do not own Pretty Little Liars. Should I make them get A texts? Or should I leave A out?

Emily's POV

Hanna seemed more comfortable this evening. She kissed me, and kept trying to get me to make out with her in a kids movie. I felt bad for saying no, but I saw a few death glares from parents of little children who kept looking back. I tried my best not to even notice she was there as I focused on the movie. It was really cute. As soon as the end credits started to roll, Hanna grabbed my hand and dragged me out of the theaters. I tried to get her to slow down but she just kept dragging me. I guess my offer to make out when we got to the motel sat in her head the entire movie. Even though I may have wanted to make out with Hanna, I just felt like we were rushing things. We had kissed once before, it was a dare that Alison had given us.

Aria, Spencer, Hanna, Alison, and I were all sitting in a circle. It was one of the hottest days of the summer that Alison went missing.

"Okay, Han, truth or dare?" Alison questioned Hanna. I could see from the look on her face that she was scared to pick dare, but she had been picking truth a lot. Hanna took a second to think about it.

"Dare!" She squealed. Alison got the look on her face that she always got before she tried to make someone do something they wouldn't want to do. I saw Hanna gulp as if she knew that she was in trouble.

"I dare you and Emily to kiss! Not a peck, but full tongue action! For 3 minutes." Alison whispered, as if she was afraid that someone would over hear her. Everyone giggled except for Hanna and myself.

"Come on Hanna, don't be chicken!" Aria squealed through her laughter. Hanna looked nervous, as if she was scared that she would like it. Spencer shoved her a little more towards me.

"Hanna, it's just a dare, besides, it's only us, nobody will know" Spencer whispered loudly.

I took a deep breath and cupped Hanna's face in my hands. I gave a slight nod to tell her it was okay. Hanna leaned closer and I was immediately lost in the feel of her lips on mine. I could faintly hear the others laughing, but it seemed so distant. I could hear them screaming "Tongue!" as well. Hanna seemed like she wasn't sure what she should do next, so I slid my tongue gently across her lower lip asking for entrance. My tongue was immediately met with hers and we smiled into the kiss. After what felt like an eternity we knew the time was up and slowly broke apart. We all sat in an uncomfortable silence for a little while.

"Umm... so Aria, Truth or Dare?" Hanna asked to break the silence. The rest of the night seemed to go on without much mention of the kiss.

I was broken out of my flashback by Hanna who was shoving me into the car. I totally forgot where we were and it took me a minute to get back to reality. When I finally got back to reality, I realized that Hanna looked upset. I went to grab her hand, but she pulled it away.

"Aw, Han, come on. You aren't mad at me are you?" I ask with a pout. Hanna still refuses to look at me, so I drop the pout.

"No, but you didn't have to ignore me the whole movie." Hanna answers. I suddenly feel bad about ignoring her. I was just trying to make the others in the theater happy. It's not my fault that I am such a nice person. Hanna can be nice too, when she wants to be.

"I'm sorry" I whisper in her ear softly. I giggle when I see that Hanna tenses and am taken by surprise when she slams on the breaks and turns into a parking lot. It takes me a second to realize we are at the motel.

Hanna pulls into a parking spot and quickly sends a text to her mom saying we are staying at a motel. I feel bad for Hanna, having to hide her sexuality. I want to be with her, but I don't think I can until she is ready to come out of the closet. Unlike me, she gets a choice, I kind of fell out of the closet, flat on my face.

"I liked it, you know" Hanna mutters. I stare at her confused. I am completely lost.

"You liked what?" I ask. Hanna looks at me as if I should know what she is talking about. I continue to look at her confused and she laughs before planting a soft peck on my lips. I blush and turn away.

"Our first kiss, 2 summers ago... during truth or dare. I remember it, and I liked it. Emily, I never told you or the others this, but you were my first kiss." Hanna admitted. I smiled because she was mine too. It makes sense why she didn't know what to do after the normal kissing. I am not really sure how I knew, I just kind of did.

"Really? You were my first kiss!" I squeal accidentally. I cover my mouth and start to giggle. Hanna giggles too and we both step out of the car. Hanna gives me a death stare and motions for me to get back in the car.

"You stay here and don't move while I go get the key. Don't want the monsters to get my little Emily" Hanna whispers with fake agression. We both laugh and I close the door and lock it.

Hanna smiles and runs towards a little shack with a sign that says 'Office'. After about 10 minutes Hanna comes out of the shack and motions with her finger for me to follow her. I do as she says and we get into the room right infront of her car. Hanna gives me a mischeivous smile and walks towards me. I giggle at her and she pushes me against the wall.

"You promised me" Hanna whispers in my ear. I shudder at the feel of her breath in my ear. I feel my knees going weak and I force myself not to kiss her first.

Hanna's POV

I leaned in and softly kissed Emily's sweet lips. My heart was beating so hard, I thought I might have a heart attack right on the floor. I got tired of these little pecks on the lips and went to get into a hotter kiss. I think Emily got the point too that I was ready to move on from those boring kisses, because our tongues met within seconds. We both moaned into the kiss and I smiled while lightly biting her lip. Emily pulled me closer and we continued until I was getting bored of these kisses. I reluctantly pulled away from Emily to catch my breath. I started to kiss her neck so I could give Emily time to breathe.

"Han..." Emily moaned quietly. I smiled and continued my kisses on her neck. I sucked on her pulse point and she moaned louder. I giggled against her neck and started to tug on her shirt. Emily pushed me away quickly shaking her head. Tears threatened to spill from my eyes as Emily went to sit on the chair in the corner of the room.

"Hanna, we can't... I'm sorry... but you know how it was with Paige. I just can't hide away again. I want to be with you, I really do, it's just that I can't hide away again." Emily muttered softly.

I could see the tears coming from her eyes as if it took all her strength to tell me that. I nodded and the tears started spilling from my eyes. I grabbed my purse and ran into the bathroom. I quickly locked the door and went to sit on the edge of the bathtub. I went through my purse until I found my razor blade. I never told anyone how I cut myself, but I just do it when I'm upset. I pull my skirt up so I can see the scars on my thighs. I cut myself on my thighs because I know that nobody will see them there. I start running the water and wait for the tub to fill. When I know that it's full enough I get undressed quickly. I dip my toe into the water to test it. It's a little above warm. My favorite temperature. I slide into the tub and don't wait another second before I scrape the blade against my thighs. It doesn't cause much pain since I am so used to it, so without thinking twice, I bring the blade to my wrist. I slowly drag the blade across. I let out a scream by accident because it hurts. I hear a banging on the bathroom door and I know it's Emily.

"Hanna? Hanna! OPEN THE DOOR!" Emily screamed. I can tell I scared her, but I'm too busy trying not to cry to answer.

I let the tears fall, but make no noise. I can hear Emily trying to pick the lock, but I am in too much pain to move. The blood is turning the water a dark shade of red and I lean back and close my eyes. The last thing I remember is hearing the door open and Emily crying. The darkness overcame me after that.

It was peaceful in the darkness. I walked around until I found this amazing field. Alison was there and she told me how proud she was of me and that I looked better then she ever would. We talked about how we have been doing. I asked her if we were in heaven, and she giggled. Oh how much I miss that giggle. I miss Alison so much. This meeting was the best thing ever. Alison told me we were in the In Between. She told me it's where you go before you go to heaven. I asked her if I was dead, but Alison didn't know. I thought of Mom and Emily. I thought of my friends and how much I missed them right now. I thought of how they must be feeling, how Emily must have felt when she saw my body lying in the tub. I needed to get back. I begged Alison to help me, and all she did was say bye and that she misses me. Than I was sucked into the darkness again.

I know that was a horrible cliffhanger, and you know I will be updating again, so it's a matter of if Hanna is dead, or if she will be in a coma, or if she will wake up fine. Thoughts? Please review! I love you all! I tried to make this one longer, but its not much longer than chapter 3! Follow me on twitter Jessgurlayy97