Chapter 4

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, I only own my OC

I've never been the odd one out of anything. Ever since I was little I've been the center of attention. Some may call me an attention seeker, but I like "charmer" better. Today is the first time I've been an outsider in a group. That's pretty understandable since everyone except me speaks Japanese, but I still don't like it. I'm not going to pretend like I care though, humans are beneath me. Anyways, I've spent the last hour sitting in this shitty, old hut trying to understand what's going on here. I want to believe I'm in some feudal era festival, but let's face it this shit has gotten too weird. There definitely were no guys with tails and dog ears running around in the feudal era.

"Lynn how did you get here?" Kagome asks me, breaking me away from my thoughts. I shake my head, momentarily surprised by the change of language. I stare at Kagome for a second, it's been a while since I've seen her so serious. The last time was at her dad's funeral.

Flashback

It was a cold, depressing night at the Higurashi residence. Usually the parties thrown by the family were filled with happiness and fun, but this was a funeral. Whatever event the Higurashi family planned it was always the best of its kind, and this funeral was the most depressing one yet. I was about ten or eleven, a couple months before my first transition into a half demon.

I was standing next to my brothers, Carter, Luke, and James. Usually we would be playing hide-and-seek by now, my brothers, Kagome, me, and sometimes even little Souta. Luke, the twin to James, would always seek first. He would always get mad at Kagome and me because we would never split up and find different hiding spots. Usually the game would end with Luke and me fighting over the rules of the game as siblings do, which would cause Carter to try to mediate the two of us, which would often lead to my parents having to decide who won the argument (me of course).

Anyways, that night the four of us stood with our parents, watching people giving their condolences to the Higurashi family. Juro, my unofficial uncle and Kagome's dad, had been killed by a drunk driver a couple days. He was buried at the shrine this afternoon, but everyone came back to the house to continue the funeral. I remember watching Kagome holding Gramps' hand while Souta clung to his mother's leg as she was bombarded with numerous people giving their condolences. After a few minutes it was our turn to give our condolences to the Higurashi family. I slowly let go of my mom's hand as she went to hug Suki. I looked at my dad who motioned his head for me to go to Kagome.

"I like your kimono," I whispered for some reason too afraid I would scare Kagome if I spoke any louder. Kagome was wearing a white kimono her mom had just bought her.

"Thanks," Kagome answered, letting go of Gramps' hand. He gave me a small smile and continued to thank people for coming. I'd never seen Kagome so sad before. Even if she scraped her knee she would always be laughing, saying how she was such a klutz.

"Do you hate the driver?" I ask, causing Kagome to give a surprised look. Now, looking back at that day I'm surprised by my question, it's a mature question that most ten year old don't ask.

"No he has to live with his guilt for the rest of his life in prison," she answered me, almost unfazed by my answer, "I feel bad for him, but I can't hate him."

Flashback ends

"What is this place?" I ask, I hate not knowing about something, it makes me seem so vulnerable. I watch Kagome quickly look at a boy with white hair and dog ears, and look at me again. The longing in her eyes makes me wonder if he's the guy she has a crush on.

"Lynn it'd be easier if you told me how you got here," Kagome replies. I feel a tinge of anger form inside me, Kagome has always been honest with me. Ever since we were little we've never kept anything from each other, well at least she hasn't. Maybe we've finally grown apart from each other. I blink my eyes feeling a tinge of sadness meld with the anger inside of me. So what if Kagome and I have grown apart, I don't need her. I don't need anyone, (1) to love is to destroy and to be loved is to be the one destroyed.

"No it'd be easier if you cut the bullshit and start explaining what the fuck is going on," I bark at Kagome, earning a hurt look from her and outcries from her friends. Never in our entire friendship have I ever been mean to Kagome. She has always been the one person that has stuck by me at my worse, and helped me instead of trying to bring me even more down. She's always had a pure heart. Even when her dad was killed by a drunk driver, she couldn't bring herself to hate the driver. She just felt sympathy for the man since he was going to be stuck in jail for the rest of his life, hating himself for killing a family man.

"Lynn I know your scared, but-"

"I'm not fucking scared," I bark, "I'm pissed off my best friend is being a lying bitch." I watch as Kagome gasps at my words, and tries to mask her hurt feelings. She looks exactly like my mom did on the day of the big fight.

Flashback

After my "friends" had left I went to the kitchen to find some junk food. "Lynn," my mom called as I opened one of our cupboards. I let out a groan and took the bag of chips out, and shut the cupboard cabinet. I sat down in a chair, and placed the bag of chips on the island. I watched as my mom strode into the kitchen, her long blonde hair in a bun and her high heels clacking on the stone kitchen floor. Everyone says I look like her, except for our eyes which mine are a soft amber while hers are blue. Most people hate when people say they look like their mom, but I take it as a complement my mom is gorgeous. When I was little I used to go into her closet and pretend to be her.

"Lynn Izayoi Taisho can you tell me why I'm mad at you?" my mom questioned as she tapped her shoes on the floor. I sighed and closed the chip bag, realizing this was going to lead to another fight. Lately we've been fighting a lot, mostly because she's decided to try to parent me. Let's face it that ship sailed a long time ago, my mom's more like a scared friend than a parent.

"I don't know," I respond as I look at my phone. Really there's nothing interesting on my phone but it annoys my mom, so I always am on it when we're about to get into a fight.

"How about because Alyssa ran crying from our house," my mom says. I roll my eyes, since when does she care about my friends?

"So," I laugh, "Alyssa a skank who had it coming."

"Lynn don't use that-"

"Look can I go because Jake's having a party that I need to go to," I sighed, jumping off the chair.

"Your not going anywhere missy," my mother responded, "Your grounded."

"What the fuck you can't tell me what the fuck to do!" I scream, causing my mom to back away from me. How can she tell me what to do when she's terrified of me?

"I'm your mother I can do whatever I want with you!"

"Yeah and I could turn into half-demon and cut you into itty bitty pieces!" I scream. I watched my mom's face turn to horror. I've never seen her so afraid of me. I continued to stare at her as she began to try to mask her feelings away, but I knew she was petrified of me.

Flashback Ends

"Lynn you need to calm down," Kagome explains in a parental tone. When I was younger she used to use that tone with me whenever I was mad at someone. I've always had anger issues, they've just escalated over time.

"Don't tell me what to do, you're not my mom," I scream, "And you're definitely not my best friend. Best friends don't fucking stop talking to their friends because they're 'sick'." I use air quotes on the word "sick" to make my point. I look at Kagome, waiting for her next action. She just continues to stare at me with her rare blue eyes.

"Lynn how do you feel about demons?" Kagome asks again.

"What kind of question-"

"Just answer the question," Kagome says, interrupting me. She's never interrupted me before, usually I'm the person who interrupts people. I guess she's finally grown some balls.

"They're not-"

"Answer truthfully," Kagome says, interrupting me once again. I conceal a small gasp, she know something about demons. Shit, does she know my secret? "Lynn I can sense demon on you," Kagome tells me. I quickly stand up. Shit, nobody outside of my family should know about my secret. I quickly try to escape the hut, but two men, one with a purple outfit and a short ponytail and the other with white, long hair and dog ears, block the only exit.

I slowly back away from them, feeling the hut close in on me. I start shaking, feeling the start of an anxiety attack. I haven't had an anxiety attack in a couple of years, but it always end with me turning into a half demon. I clumsily reach for my locket, opening it to realize I have no more pills. Shit I'm screwed, not again.

Flashback

It had been almost a year since I learned that I could transform into a half demon, and the thought of transforming terrified me. I spent that whole year at home with my family and a tutor. Finally I had decided to rejoin civilization and attend school again. My mom and I had grown really close over that year, and she had decided to take me to the mall to buy new outfits for school. At that time I was petrified of my own shadow.

"Sweetie why don't you try on these clothes," my mom whispered to me. I nodded and went into the dressing room to change. The first outfit I put on was a pretty white shirt with a red skirt. I loved it and turned the knob to let me out of the dressing room to show my mom. For some reason the door was stuck, keeping me alone in the dressing room.

Suddenly I felt trapped and looked around to realize that all four of the mirrors on the walls depicted a girl with claws and fangs. I started to hyperventilate and clumsily opened my locket to realize I had forgotten to refill my pills. I let out a blood-curdling scream and transformed into a half demon.

Flashback Ends

I continue to walk backwards until I reach the other side of the hut, trying to calm myself down. Suddenly I can feel my demonic power becoming stronger and stronger, until I feel the familiar change that occurs whenever I turn into a half demon. Everything feels better like the smell of the unpolluted air and sounds of the natural world, but soon I feel something dark. The small sense to kill. I swiftly use my claws to make an opening in the hut, and run away from everyone.

Okay so this isn't the best chapter, but I've had so much work to do so I haven't really had time to work on this story. I want to continue writing this story, so hopefully my next chapter will be better. Also everyone should review since it's my birthday on Monday and that would be the best present ever! Thanks again to SammiRichGurl for being the best beta reader ever!

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(1) It's a quote from the series of books, the Mortal Instruments (which I also do not own), but I couldn't help putting it in here.