Chapter Four:

"I'm Not Ready To Make Nice,

I'm Not Ready To Back Down,

I'm Still Mad As Hell, And I Don't Have Time

To Go Round' And Round' And Round',

It's Too Late To Make It Right,

I Probably Wouldn't If I Could

Cause' I'm Mad As Hell, Cant Bring Myself

To Do What It Is

You Think I Should"

I'm Not Ready To Make Nice - Dixie Chicks

BPOV

He wouldn't. Cullen wasn't a vindictive guy, and based on how he's been acting the past 20 minutes I'd say this was just a damn ruse. As far as I know, he's a chump. I look away from him and laugh to myself. There was no way he would do that. He just wanted to get a rise out of me. I was already feeling fucking fantastic. The weight of the world seem to lift off of my shoulders and the room slowly spun around in my head. Em definitely got the good shit. Fuckhead knew better.

"I'll pass" I hear him murmur. Ha, I knew it. Like I said. Chump. I suddenly feel some shit vibrating on me, and I swear to god if its another one of Jake's fucking pranks again I will kill him. A few days ago, Jake thought it would be funny to replace my phone with a decent sized vibrator. Being high out of my fucking ass, I didn't realize it until it was too late. I answered my new and improved cock phone. Obviously, it wasn't a fucking great day for me.

I shoot a look at Jake and see him talking to Jasper as he takes another line. Hm, nothing fishy. I go into my bag and sure enough it was my cell phone going off. I look at the caller ID. Fuck, its my little sister. I forgot to tell her I was going out after my shift at the club. I groan and get up slowly. I can't even fucking focus and now I have to fucking carry a conversation with my chatty ass sister. I laugh at my attempt at walking, and chant mentally. 'Left foot, right foot, left foot, right foot.' The damn vibrating stops and no one seems to be paying attention to me, besides Cullen of course. I walk towards the door and sure enough, the damn vibrating begins again. Stepping out of the room I lean against a wall and answer the damn phone.

"Hey, I'm sorry I forgot to let you know I was going out after work tonight."

"I figured that. I lost my keys, any hidden spares?"

"Sorry kiddo, I don't."

"So what exactly am I suppose to do now? Wait while you get stoned?" She sounds irritated. Too bad I couldn't bring myself to really care right now.

"I don't know what to tell you, Alice. I don't dictate your damn life."

"You're right, you don't. You never will."

"Am I suppose to care about this? Because I don't."

"Just come the home Izz. I'm locked out and I would really like to get some sleep. Please?"

"Fine." I hang up. Damn her. Always killing my fucking buzz. Alice was twenty. She could take care of her damn self.

"Is everything alright?" A voice said behind me. I fucking jumped, dropping my phone in the process.

"Fuck! What the fuck is your problem Cullen? Does privacy mean shit to you?" I go to grab my phone at the same time he bends down to get it and we smack heads against each other. "Fucking ouch! Great. Fucking great. I'll probably get a bump the size of my fucking fist now. Get away from me!"

Cullen has his hand on his head, rubbing the spot where his gargantuan fucking head hit mine. He reaches down and grabs my phone, holding it out to me. I snatch it from his hand and glare at him.

"My apologies. I just wanted to make sure you were alright."

"My apologies? Who the fuck says that anymore? Are you like fifty fucking years old or something? And I don't need a damn babysitter Cullen." I ignore whatever the fuck he was attempting to say next and head inside the room. I look at everyone and tell them I need to go the fuck home. I grab my book bag and look at Jas. I ask him if he'll drive me home and the asshole tells me he rode with Rose here. Rose doesn't even look my way, her silent way of telling me that there was no way in hell that she was leaving right now. Bitch. Jake needed to stay to watch his place, and Em road with Big fucking Head here. Great. I don't make it a big deal and leave telling them all to go fuck themselves. What? It could have been worse. I don't even grace Cullen with a goodbye and walk out the bar. I dig through my book bag and pull out a cig. I needed this shit if I was going to walk home. Lighting it I inhaled deeply.

"That's a bad habit you got there."

I was becoming used to him following me, and that was not a good thing.

"I'm getting tired of you're stalking tendencies Cullen." I turn around and take another pull from my cigarette. Blowing the smoke toward him, I raise my eyebrow. He seemed unfazed as my smoke surrounded him.

"I was under the impression that you needed a ride."

"Yeah? Well I don't need any damn favors from you asshole. I am perfectly capable of walking." I watch him as he goes to his car and unlocks it.

"Just get in the car Bella." He seems fed up. Good. Maybe I'll fuck up his dashboard just to piss him off some more. I throw my cigarette to the ground and step on it. I walk to his car and we get in. I set my book bag on my lap and kick my feet up on his dashboard. Boots and all. I hope I scuff the shit.

"Interesting backpack." I glance down at my shark book bag and smirk. It was a kick ass book bag. Emmett got it for me last year as a birthday gift. I nod in agreement and just because I felt like being a bitch some more I rub my boots some more on his dashboard.

"This doesn't bother you, does it?"

"Nope. You used to do that shit all the time in high school." My body tenses at the mention of high school. I don't want to sit here and fucking reminisce with the asshole. I put my feet down, pissed off that my plan didn't work.

"I still remember everything, you know?" he murmured. I sighed and looked at him.

"Good for you Cullen. You want to know what I remember?" He rolls his eyes, and I know he's not going to answer me so I just continue anyways. "You fucking ditching me."

"I never ditched you Bella."

"We can sit here and lie all we want asshole. You fucking know the truth." I was getting even more angry.

"I had a lot going on! I told you I was sorry!"

"You had a lot going on! Fuck you, you fucking prick. Guess what this is Cullen? Life. Shit fucking happens, and you're going to fucking sit here and tell me that you had SO much shit going on that you couldn't fucking pick up a god damn phone and call me? Text me? Email me? Did you ever fucking wonder what was going on back home? You just fucking up and left to college, like you're better then all of us. Well guess what asshole, you're not!" I took a deep breath and looked out the window. There is silence for a while before he starts the car.

"Where do you live?" He asks quietly. After telling him the directions, I rolled down the window and let the fucking wind blow through my hair.

"I wondered about you all the time Bella. I had no time, believe it or not. And when I did call you, you were just so damn angry. I was pissed that when I finally did call you, you just treated me like shit. So no, I never tried to call you again. I thought you'd get over whatever the hell it was you were really angry at and call me back. Like always, you know? I'm not perfect, you know this. I just want you to forgive me. Forget what happened in the past. Lets just move forward." I really do wish it was that fucking easy. There is no way I could forget.

"Some things aren't that easy to fucking just get over."

"And I'm sorry for assuming that, but-"

"It doesn't fucking matter, alright? Just fucking drop it."

"I'm not going to drop it. What you're doing to yourself isn't good Bella. I don't like seeing you like this."

"I can't be the person you want me to be. She's fucking gone. Sorry to burst your fucking bubble and all that."

"I don't believe that," he says as he pulls up to my building.

"Fucking believe it." I say pushing the door open. I get out and slam his door shut. He leans towards the passenger window and smiles crookedly and me.

"Oh, and Bella?"

"What asshole?"

"You curse too fucking much," he says and pulls away.

I laugh to myself, and head into the building to help my fucking sister out. I mean, my freaking sister.

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