Chapter four
Grissom was out of the office at the moment but Judy had promised me that he would indeed be back in an hour he was getting his usual dinner at the diner. I was very nervous I did not know how he would take the news. Here his best friend had just died. His fiancée had just barely come back into his life since being gone for the whole summer and now here I was in all of my glory pregnant with his little peanut. I was terrified actually. He knew that I had been trying to talk to him for sometime about something important. In fact he had even apologized to me being the gentle man that he was for never having time at the moment. And we were planning a weekend getaway in a couple months. Well I thought if he is not happy about it the worst thing that could happen is that I will end up as a single mother. I had taken a lot of thought about this situation also and while I did not want to be without Gil, I knew that I loved this child unconditionally and that at thirty six years old I was not ever going to abandon her. After a month of careful consideration and a lot of soul searching I decided that this was the perfect way to put my ghosts to rest. By bringing a new life into my world the dead ones could go away and maybe just maybe I could feel whole again. Just as I was thinking about my beautiful peanut. Grissom walked into the office dinner in tow and his glasses perched on the end of his nose. He looked cheerful to see me there and he looked tired but he said "Hi honey nice to see you here, I always love it when you dress up, so what is the special occasion?" Well, I thought now or never had I finally had his attention. So I kept my jacket on and I decided that no one or nothing was going to interrupt me this time I had had enough. I went over to his office door locked it securely and pulled the blinds. Then I turned to him grabbed his hands and sat him down on the leather couch in the corner. He gave me that quizzical look with his eyebrow in the air. And the little smirk on his face I took his dinner from his hands and softly placed it on the desk. Then I walked over to him and sat on his lap and pulled him in for the most romantic kiss that I think we have had in about six months. After the kiss he was left speechless. "Ah come on don't I get any more loving we hardly see each other any more?" I replied that he would in a moment I told him to stay seated that I had something very important to tell him that is when I turned around and took of the jacket in front of him. He looked like he was expecting me to have nothing on underneath however his jaw dropped when he finally read the news "Girl on Board" he said. Yes I said I have been trying for almost two months to tell you that we are indeed having a baby I Gilbert am pregnant. And no it was not planned I had no idea this happened we were always so careful. I just hope that you are going to be happy and not angry. Again he was speechless he just sat there and did a double take of me. He started to get nervous and stood up and started pacing. I was hoping he would break the dreaded silence or I was going to make a bee line for the door and out of his life forever. Finally he spoke. "Sara, this is such a shock!" I am so sorry that I did not notice sooner, you must be terrified." That's when I knew that Grissom knew me better than I thought yes I was terrified. "Oh Sara, What are we going to do?" I am fifty one years old and not getting younger." "I am not sure how to feel about this all yet Sara, I mean I know that it wasn't planned, but now what do we do?" 'I never thought that I would be a Dad much less at fifty one years of age." He turned stood up and pulled me too him. That is when I broke down in tears he knew at that moment that I had not planned this pregnancy. "I am petrified and scared I just found out only a month ago. I don't know what to do about everything, all I know is that I am not giving this baby up and I am going to try and be the best mother that I possibly can.' 'I would not expect any less of you Sara, I know that you are going to be a great mother." 'I just hope that I can be the father that she deserves a girl Hun, wow this is all very exciting yet sudden news."