Title: Ulquiorra and the lost soul
By: Ayako no fuyumi
Theme song: Inside the fire by Disturbed
Chapter themes:
The final by Dir en grey
Chapter four: even loved ones scatter like petals from flowers in my hand…(Filler)
天鎖斬月
Authors note:
Ok this is all a FLASH BACK chapter for Grimmjow. Very important. But it's an important filler. Like Hichigo is an important filler because without him Ichigo would be dead. So yea. Cheyene this is for YOU! And I die but a lot of the similarities become clearer.
*Cough* Grey eyes! *Cough*
So yea…..Read up.
And bear with me, I didn't count on this in the beginning. Oh and the lyrics fit this chapter,
Ayako is based on me in 7th grade when I had long brown hair but I cut it in a moment of insanity, Now I look like Ulquiorra, but mind you, I cut my hair when I watched Fooly cooly. Not Bleach. I hate the bounts, GAAACH. And I didn't start fan fiction until summer of last year so yea….IM FUCKING 14! 2 years till I can drive to México because I think I have broke laws by writing this….*Gulp* sorry kubo, HERE's credit! Don't sue me…..please…..Tite kubo owns bleach not me, I own Devon and Ayako.
Enjoy the short love story via Grimmjow pov and Ulquiorra's pov as well as back stories of being human!
(Oh and random Japanese learning time!: te no naka ni wa aisurubeki hito sae mo hanabanashiku chitte means even loved ones scatter like petals from flowers in my hand)
The final by dir en grey lyrics in English:
The intention is clear I stare with this left hand unable to be worded, every time I bleed I find there lies a reason to live and I discover words being so vivid and bright, even loved ones scatter like petals from flowers in my hand So even if I engraved the meaning in my hand it will only be known as flowers of vanity, `
THE FINAL.
One by one is multiples why be a sad bait? Deep within the hell of my heart I can't go back, a self torture loser not being able to see tomorrow suicide is proof of life, even loved ones scatter like petals from flowers in my hand. So even if I engraved the meaning in my hand it will only be known as flowers of vanity, So I can't live so I can't live what's lost can't be born again so I can't live so, I can't live, a song that not even seeking the proof of living. lets bloom flowers of attempted suicide.
Narrator Grimmjow pov:
"What is this….white things?" the black haired teen asked. Grimmjow groaned. He knew the kid was in a mental hospital as a human but god, Who doesn't know what snow was? "Snow." Grimmjow said. "oh! It's pretty! And slippery!" Ulquiorra said in delight as he fell on the snow. Laughing. Grimmjow laughed too. This child was just like his brother and at 16 Grimmjow could tolerate this. Grimmjow saw how happy the teen was and smiled. God he really hated being the brotherly type….
GRIMMJOW POV: FLASH BACK….
I was walking around in karakura town. The snow concealed my blue hair. My black sandals sliding on the ground. Ulquiorra fell on his ass again. I laughed. "silence!" He spat. I laughed harder. Helping the kid up. Only 14 and an Espada…. Aizen was such an idiot. The pale boy growled at me when I pushed him. I used to have a little brother his age but he didn't pass the power requirements so….He's an Adhucha still or dead for all I know, I can't find him no matter how long I look, and Ulquiorra reminded me of him.
"oreta! Awai! Tsubasa!" I sang gleefully. Kicking Ulquiorra across the ice. "GAHHHHHHH!" He screamed, Dodging a blue truck. "DUMB ASS THEY CAN'T HIT US!" I howled with laughter. "Oh…" Ulquiorra said. "Oi what the purpose in that!" He screamed. Dodging a delivery truck. "For falling!" I yelled. Laughing with him. He was so happy for an Espada…It was refreshing. "Ya' lil' brat you…." I said ruffling his raven hair. He smiled. I helped him up. We walked for a while. Well SLIPPED but you know what I mean…. "You remind me of my little bro." I admitted. Smiling. "God we used to have a blast. Just hangin' around Hueco mundo starting shit…." I said. Blabbering on about Kuromishin. The boy hung on every word I said. I expected him to take notes at any moment from the look in his eyes…Then I stopped. Remembering that he is missing. "Your eyes show luminosity when you speak of him." He said. "Yea we were close…." I said. "well what ensued your separation?" he asked. "He's missing…." I answered simply. "Oh…I apologize if I made your memories reoccur to you …." The boy said. I smiled. "It's cool." I said.
We kept walking until I saw a young girl….15? 14 maybe? She was wandering. Her long brown hair flying behind her. I felt my heart beat faster…. Her red skinny jeans struck me in the white snow. The black t-shirt with a black hoodie with skills and fake blood shot me in the chest with a feeling I can't explain. Ulquiorra was looking at her thru the side of his eye. I went up to her. "Why not Fooly cooly or Naruto? Why Bleach? Damn….Bounts….." She grumbled. Lighting a cigarette. Her eyes were coated in black eye liner and her skin was white like the snow we step on…. What the hell is she talkin' 'bout? What is NARUTO? I walked up to her. "Oi? Can you see me?" I asked. She turned. "Duh. It's not like snow can hide that blue hair dye you giant berry." She said. Taking a drag of her cigarette. "IT AIN'T NO DYE!" I roared.
"Uh-hu. And I'm underwear man, Protector of the underground city called blow-me." She said. Ulquiorra chuckled at the nasty joke. "Nice….But really it ain't no hair dye." I insisted. She rolled her eyes. "Whatever…Shouldn't you be in a nut-house about now eating cookies with Hannibal lector?" She said coldly. I growled. Ulquiorra bit his lip to stop laughing. "Oh shut up Ulquiorra, Haven't you MET Hannibal?" I spat at the boy. "You are one nauseating bastard you are aware of that aren't you." He said. "I'm an ARRANCAR, we don't have NUT HOUSES girl." I spat at the girl. "Wait….Arrancar?" She said. "Yea…." I said. "Oh! The arrancar arc….Your…the sexta right?" She asked. "I only know from the Japanese dub since we're not done with the bounts in America." She said. She shook my hand. "Sorry I didn't introduce myself earlier. I'm Ayako." She said. Shaking my hand. "Oh come on, it's Japan. Last name please…"I said. "Ayako Bradley." She said. I looked at her. "Fine. Bradley Ayako…" She growled. Ulquiorra snapped his fingers. "Ayako-san. Sounds tasteful does it not?" Ulquiorra said. I rolled my eyes.
"Ayako. Ignore him." I said. She laughed. "Nah he's ok." She said. "Well….Aizen might be interested in your powers….." I said. "Let's go!" she said. Jerking my hand. Laughing. I blushed. She smiled. "Can I get something first?" She asked. "Sure…." I said. She ran down an ally way near the slums of karakura town. She made noise then I saw it, A case that hung over her shoulder. "What is the purpose of that device you hold?" Ulquiorra asked. "A laptop." She said. We looked at her with confusion. "A computer…" She said. Still….confused. she sighed. "Technology that holds information for you, it's for fun, work and other things…." She said. "Oh.." I said. As if I knew all along.
"Of course a laptop….why didn't you say so!" I said as if I knew. "You didn't get a word I said did you….." she said. "I don't have a clue." I admitted. "Say what now?" Ulquiorra asked. He was too busy being in his own world as usual…..I smacked the back of his head. "Urasai baka. You should pay more attention next time." I said. "Hai….." Ulquiorra said in a child like way. "Yes what?" I added. "Yes sir of trash I will endeavor to pay consideration to a mechanism as irrelevant as this next time and perhaps I can accomplish your level of foolhardiness." He spat. "YOU LIL' BRAT!" I said but not as affectionate as it usually was. She giggled as I chased Ulquiorra around. "GET BACK HERE!" I screamed. "of course I will, when hell freezes over." Ulquiorra yelled, laughing as we slipped and slid in the ice and snow.
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I walked down the Garganda with a bruised and complaining Ulquiorra with Ayako as well. "I demand a phone! Get me a connection with child protection services damn it." He grumbled. "Oh you wanna see child abuse! I'll show you child abuse Ulquiorra, get over here for a demonstration." I growled. "oh, I comprehend what abuse implies…." Ulquiorra said. "Ya' sure baka?" I spat. "I value language and grammar more than you could ever desire to Grimmjow." Ulquiorra bragged. "Nutin' good comes from being a nerd." I said. "Not true. Nerds get jobs and are paid more than the popular guys who are flipping burgers at 35." Ayako said. "Oh what ever…" I said. "Not in los noches, They just get their asses kicked." I said. "Any one with difference gets their asses kicked unless your strong enough to kick their ass and earn respect." I said coldly. Everyone looked at me but I didn't stop walking. I remember being new meat as an Espada after rebirth. I got beat up every day until I got pissed and killed them all. That's how I became sexta Espada, I killed four of them and got shoved here. My hair was a problem. Everyone hated me for it.
She ran up to me. "Grimmjow wait up." She said. Her dark brown hair flying behind her. "What cha want?" I asked. "I'm sorry if I said anything that might have upset you…." She said. "It's okay." I said. I looked at her grey eyes for a moment, then I looked away. She was too beautiful to be real….
"Grimmjow…." She said taking my arm. "Are you sure your ok?" She asked. "I'm sure…" I said as my voice slowly closed up from these raging emotions of attraction and lust that were rampaging inside of me. She smiled. I smiled back weakly and we set off with Ulquiorra far behind, Smiling.
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5 weeks had passed and she still remained. Aizen has been noticing a climb in her spirit pressure and so have all of us as I go to her room…
I grumbled as I brought her the MEALS I was required to bring to her. She sat on her bed. Wearing a plain, white strapless dress that revealed way too much of her chest. It sent me into a panic attack when I first saw it. I ran out of the room and was hyperventilating. Ulquiorra walked past sniggering. He walked in and walked out bright red. "Oh….my….lord…" He said. His eyes wide. "And Ulquiorra just lost his innocence. Good job Grimmjow." Starkk said gleefully as he whistled in the door way only to get kicked in the head. "ASS HOLE! BASTARD HORNEY MOTHER FUCKER!" She cried. I laughed and she just kept kicking him in the head. He put a thumbs up. "he, he…Nice view." He said. She kicked him across the room. "ass holes these days…." She said shaking her head. Lighting a cigarette. She took a drag and blew it in the air dramatically. I laughed at how eccentric she was being….
"bwaahahaha!" She said gleefully. I smiled. She was so insane…..
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Am I falling for her?
All I can think about now is Ayako-san. How lovely she was, her humor, her strength, her beauty, her absolute insanity….
I was visiting more often than expected, She would tease me about it but still, I couldn't resist. It was like gravity was pulling me closer and closer to her…..
She told me she was about 14. Liar. I don't even know my age. I look twenty or twenty two but still…..Her soul is to young. She has been around for 14 years, I on the other hand have been around for centuries. And yet she is still wiser than I and Ulquiorra combined. And hell, Ulquiorra's a nerd of nerds. She has been acting kinder to me lately. I have been kinder in return.
….One hour later….
Ayako ran up to me. Her eyes full of fear. "What is it?" I asked in a rushed tone. She stuttered and clung to me. "Nnoritora…t-t-t-tried t-t-to k-kill me…." She cried. Sobbing loudly into my chest. I held her close….She was so WARM. And her heart still beat. I buried my face in her hair as I crushed her to me…..
"Ayako…." I whispered. Petting her head. She stared at me in shock. "I will never let anyone hurt you…" I said. My lips getting closer and closer to hers…. "Never.." I said. Then our lips met gently as her hands wound around my neck. The tears still rolling down her cheeks… "I…I love you Grimmjow…" She said. Closing her eyes and holding on to me…
"Yea." Was all I said. "I like you too." I said softly as she leaned against me. Her grey eyes closed. I smiled and kissed her head. "I love you too…" I whispered too low for her to hear.
I love you too.
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After that we got closer. It's been 1 year now. She is 15 and I'm….I still don't know.
We rarely touched but I swore that tonight…I would make her my bride in heart. Soul, and body…
I knocked on her door. "Ayako-san. It's me. Grimmjow." I said. She opened the door and hugged me. "Grimmjow!" she said gleefully. I blushed. "Oh come in, come in! I won't bite…." She said. I kissed her cheek and walked in. We plopped ourselves on the sofa and she smiled at me. I kissed her on the lips as the emotions went raving and ranting. She pulled me onto her as I felt her soft warm body below me…..Her lips locked with mine as our tongues fought for dominance… "Grimmjow…" she moaned as I bit her neck softly…
Tonight was going to be a night….. that was for sure.
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I woke up to a lack of warmth on my body…. Why was it cold? I got up and looked around…..
Ayako….Where was she?
I felt the cold hard pavement below. Wasn't I on the couch?
"Ayako. This isn't funny!" I said, my voice trembling a bit…I didn't know what had happened but….my mouth was wet with something…Blood….BLOOD! I jumped up, not caring that I was naked as I ran around the room, "Grimmjow…." I heard a voice croak near me. "Ayako?" I asked. I held her body in my arms….Her hair was singed and burned as charred flesh struck me on her arms and forehead. I felt nothing like this, this pain. "Oh god what have I done…." I cried. "No matter what…I love you and not Aizen…." She said… "I love…you…" she said one last time as her head rolled to the side limply. Her eyes staring blankly at me as her lungs sunk in on themselves. A sickening sound of a last breath filled my ears. Blood dripped on the floor as tears did the same….my tears. "AYAKO!" I screamed as I held her tight. "Hold on, I'll get Szyle, he'll fix you up. And Aizen will help you…" I blubbered on. "I love you so much, you can't die, and people like you can't die because people like me keep them safe right? Please Ayako wake up…" I cried. But I knew it was too late as I felt her skin cool.
I looked at my hand, it was aching… and I saw it, a burn mark shaped like a cero. the same wound that was on her head….
Then it hit me, the blood on my lips, the cero wound, the bite marks on her neck and the soul chain that had been removed…I killed the only woman I could ever love…who could ever love me….
I was in shock I looked at her bloody body that lay in my arms, now colder than ice and her eyes glazed over with the last moments of pain and fear…..
I screamed at the top of my lungs. I deserve to die, I will never leave her alone in the cold. In the eternal dark.
I grabbed my sword out of my Hakama feverishly. My hands unsteady as it tumbled to the ground. I was sobbing now. My chest trembling with each gasp. I grabbed the sword by the hilt and sliced down on my wrist. Ayako won't die in vain, I will get my revenge against myself. I felt the blood trickle to the floor…
Drip…. Drip… drip…
I raised the sword to my throat as I felt icy hands snatch it from me. Ulquiorra? I cried harder. "I hate myself! I deserve to die damn it!" I screamed as he grabbed me and slapped me. "GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF!" he yelled, then he saw my hands covered in blood and the cero marks. "You could not have done what I thought you…." Ulquiorra started. "I don't remember it! Why did I kill her Ulquiorra? Why couldn't I have died instead?" I cried. Ulquiorra let tears trace the green marks. "There, there Grimmjow…." He said as I collapsed in sobs, I saw his eyes harden….and I felt his skin grow cold.
She wasn't the only person who had died that day…..
And even loved ones scatter like petals from the flowers in my hand….
….FLASH BACK OVER….
I guess I went crazy after her death, I screamed in the night. I laughed psychotically often and most of all, I escaped to my inner world where Ayako was mine, where she was safe and breathing. I felt absent tears escape my blue eyes…. "Damn…" I mumbled. Ulquiorra, make things right because soon…
Madness will embrace me.
Sorry this is a lazy chapter, after all, it's a filler.
But any whom, put together the pieces of this story, all of it and think long and hard….
Who is Ayako?
Who is Devon?
And who is cheyene?
Who are YOU?
Espada encyclopedia
Gin: Aizen sama WHY!
Devon: Yea, what the hell man?
Grimmjow: *Sob*
Ulquiorra: ….*Crickets in background*
Devon: its 12:30, I can't be funny today…
Ulquiorra: I'm gonna go…..cry….
Devon: Well this is a downer…
Gin: Yup.
Devon: Do we end it now….?
Gin: But we have 2 minutes of screen time left….
Devon:…..Shit.
Gin: Ass.
Grimmjow: Mother.
Ulquiorra: FUCKER! Whoop I love that part.
Everyone: O.o
Ok bye bye and review damn it!