-The Last Blood Droplets 4-
Author: Theavanessa Leonhart
Genre: Fantasy, Romance, etc.
Warnings: Fail Grammar, Typo(s), OOC
Pairings: RussiaxFem!Prussia, RomanoxFem!Prussia.
Hetalia belongs to Himaruya-sensei~ [I just own the story]
Author's note: Gilbert's diary. Somehow I felt like.. hm.. it's hard to imagine Gilbert feelings, and also Lovinos. The moment when he realize that he needs her more than anyone else. By the way, I'll show Klaus Beilschmidt as Ludwig's twin (Holy Roman Empire) and later we'll have Feli's point of view. xxxLoveless, this vocaloid song just inspired me a lot for this chapter.
Chapter 4: Diary of Gilbert
[Gilbert's POV]
Vampire.
You may take that word as a lie. But I have to say that, they're real. Well, I'm real. Yes, I'm the blood drinker. We don't have any specific diffrence from human, but our skin might be paler than you guys. One thing that you have to know. If we vampires, bite you, it doesn't mean that you're a Vampire.
You can only be a vampire if you born as a Vampire. You have vampire blood in you.
Then, you maybe confused about what hapenned to us in the past, so let me tell you a bit of our history.
The Beilschmidt was known as noble family –for Vamps, ofcourse-. We live to protect the Council no matter what. Until, the numbers vampire population are getting overload. The council gave us order to seal the vampire instinc of the lower class vampire. Maria and I were 122 back then, and Ludwig is just.. hmm.. 15 I guess.
The Italian Vampire, I forgot his name, tried to kill the head of the council. He was a noble and it was a sin if you sealed a noble, but my grandfather actually did it, in order to save the council. Grandfather choose the council instead of his own best friend. Yes, he is Lovino and Feliciano's grandfather. Later, he was found suicided and died in the jail.
The council kept my Grandfather sin as nobody will find out, except the grandchildren. They sure want their revenge. Later before my grandfather died, he sealed our blood in order to protect us. The 'human' us were raised by old Fritz. Yet, Ludwig doesn't remember his days as a Vampire.
Until Maria's human body can't stand her wounds anymore beacuse of the weak and idiot me. Old fritz at last activated her blood back and later she bite me to activated mine. And yeah, I accidentaly made Ludwig awake.
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Being a vampire is not as fun as you think. We maybe have the thing you guys said it a super powers. For example Maria and I. She can read people's mind, and we actually quite like that.
Another power that we have. I can's stand it anymore. Evertime I touched something, I can feel everything that passed by it. When you touched the land, you'll feel the heartbeat of the country it self, the border of every side of the land, and most of all every person's feelings. Happiness, loneliness, hatred, sadness. This kind of emotion keep dancing freely in my heart, and played a corossive song and yet derstroy me from the inside. I can hear almost everything. The laugh of hapiness, and the tears of sadness, the shout, and feelings from every pain that people's heart can have. I felt like my body shivered, and it feels like it would be blown up someday.
I've met new people since that. Everybody showed light in their soul, yet, turned off before I do. Humans life is just too short. But somehow, they've managed to love someone and get up again when their fall. They're a weak creature, but strong. Even if I tried to love someone, I ended up losing them. I keep me hurting myself. Maybe, I'm not as strong as them.
May times I tried to suicide, and none of them were succed. My body, it's immortal. Can bleed, can hurt, but can't died.
It's strong right? But why? Why is my heart still weak? Why am I not strong enough? Why? The dark side of me is trying to take me over.
Nein. I can't let him have me. I have to ended up everything, this useless misery of mine. How can the awesome me loose as this kind of game?
And most of all, I can't let the second life that Maria gave me dissappear easily. I want to live. I want to protect everyone that beloved to me. Maria, Ludwig, and.. Anya. At last I found someone that I love. She's immortal like me, she understands me. I don't care even if she's a demon.
But..
I still have the feeling that I shounldn't have felt in the start.
"Can I still love you, mein Engel?"
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I can feel almost everything. Her body, the warmth inside her. The over flowing memories keep dancing in my mind, the memory of the old days. When grandfather want us to touch, his land, that belongs to him. Germania, and each person that tied up to the land. The exact feelings when I touched her. The lost memories came back.
She lied under me. I touched her thigh with my trembelled hand.
"Now, you remember everything, Gil?" she looked at me with her warm smile.
"Ja. How can I forget about these? I used to have such a power-"
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you from the start. I.. I know this kind of power isn't easy to handle, so I wished you would never discover it.. but.." I kissed her lips deeply. I know what is she talking about. She moaned softly as she hold my body tightly, and pull me closer to her. I put my toungue inside her and take every warmth that she has.
"Now I can handle everything.. you don't have to worry.." I rubbed her head and give her a kiss on her forehead. I placed my hand on her shirtless chest. I kook close at her skin, as whiteand as pale as mine. Her eyes, is the same like mine too.
"We're one right?" she looked at me with her pale face and a bit of blush that left on her.
"Ja. We are one.." She moaned and tighlty hold my hand as I put 'mine' inside her. She touched my lips, rubs them softly and late in that nite, we kissed. The best kiss I'd ever have in my life.
That night, I was trying to cut my hand when she actually caught me. She hugged me as tight as she can. Telling me something that I've never hear for ages. It was in Israeli. I never know she can speak it.
She asked me to touch her, and suddenly, I can remember everything. I used to able use this power, no, I'm able to use it. After she made me sure that my heart is strong enough
She said she still need me in this world, ja, my existence. Ah.. yeah.. You saved me once again, Mein Engel..
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[Ivan's POV]
"Why Maria? Why did you choose Ivan instead of me? You were paid to kill right? You.. as long as you'll be mine, I can pay you for even 1000 years!" Lovino frustated. He punched the wall as it cracked. Maria still sat and looking down. She didn't give any responses of everything that Lovino said to convienced her. It's been hours...
I listen to their conversation, standing in silence in front of the door. Cold swear is covering my body.
"Please, take me to him.. I'm begging you.." It's the first time I've seen her like this.
"Please.."
That, absolutely not the usual her. It was the other side of her, it must be. But, there's must be a reason why she begged like that. Not for Ludwig and Gilbert. They're not te reason. Maria's sure that her brothers is strong enough.
"Where.." at last she give him a reasponse. He actually look shocked when he heard her voice. "Where's my little brother? Klaus.."
K-klaus? Who is he? I never heard that name before.
He looked at her deeply. And now they're actually speaking eyes to eyes. "Why do you searching for him? He has no use for you.."
"Give me back my Klaus, Lovi!" she shouted as she stand up but her hand is still tied up. Lovino pushed her to the wall. "Klaus Beilschmidt.. your long lost little brother... West's twin.."
What!? Ludwig actually has a twin!? I don't even know that. No, not even Gilbert.
"Your grandfather took him from us when he's little, when my grandfather sealed his blood.." She looked at him with her sharp eyes. Yet after that, someone, a vampire, came out from the other door in his dark coat. His eyes is as bue as he sky and his blonde hair, just the same as Ludwig, but he doesn't smell like him.
"Sweschter.." that voice came out from the blond haired guy. He seems so weak. He do smelled like a Vampire, but his pressure.. is just as soft as humans. Is that mean that..
"K-Klaus.." she can't believe her own vision. The little Klaus, her little brother that has gone for 4 centuries.
Different from Ludwig, his eyes is dull. His face is expresionless.
Lovino cut out the silence. "As you see.. he can't stay in that kind of weak state, can he?" he looked back at Maria. "You know what to do-"
"Ja,ja! I know!" Maria answered him before he finished his statement. "And.. Ludwig, I want you to meet Klaus," she smiled at Ludwig's pale face who just come from the other door..
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[Normal POV]
"Lui.. You've grown a lot," Antonio Carriedo steped his feet and stopped in front of the blonde man. He sat down on the floor, tied up, and behind him, there's a girl who's already with him standing in silence for more than 3 hours, and also another guy next to her. Feliciano Vargas.
"What do you want, Toni?" he asked him in anger. It doesn't mean Ludwig hasn't been thinking about get out from that basement, but remembering Anya is keeping her eye on him back there.
Antonio sinically laugh. "What we want? We just want our pride and power back. Only your sister can do that because her seal was taken off by Frederich himself, the Counci, the one with Royal blood. Gilbert can awake you because his blood is the same as yours, which mean, you two can't broke down our seal."
"Maria won't do that.."
"Yes, she will. We can make her to, as longas you little human brother is still with us."
Ludwig shocked. "Was?"
"Your elder siblings haven't told you anything, have them?"
"Noch nicht."
After waiting for the right time to talk, Feliciano moved closer to Toni and Ludwig. "Ve~ Mary-chan is such a mean sister. She didn't even tell you about your own brother~"
"It's not mean Feli, she's just overprotective to his little brother." Toni looked at Ludwig as the blue eyed man rolled his eyes.
He know that Maria was trying to protect him but still, he can't believe Maria can hide such a unavoidable truth, the truth that he has a twin. "Tell me.."
"Hmm?" both of Feliciano and Toni look at him, made sure of what just he said. "Tell me more.."
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"You'll find your happiness there, darling,
Deep down inside of your body you've got,
Something the two of us suddenly lost,
Let it sink deeper down into your core,
If you don't you'll keep yearning more."