Disclaimer: I do not own the Teen Titans, the song 'Undisclosed Desires' by Muse, or the song 'First Date' by Blink 182.

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Undisclosed Desires

Chapter Four

First Date – Part 1

It was a date. No – not a date. Friends… just friends… right? Wait… why am I even trying to convince myself it isn't a date? It isn't, so get over it!

I let go of a long strained sigh. My stomach gurgling anxiously; I made myself breathe evenly.

It was precisely seven minutes and thirty-nine seconds since I embarrassingly high-tailed it to my room. Thinking back to that horrifying moment, I groaned, my expression crumbling under the shame. I could have handled that situation better; but I didn't.

I wanted to cry I felt so ridiculous. But the worst part of it all? It wasn't the way I cowardly ran away from him. It was where my thoughts turned to after I recovered from the initial shock and turmoil: Would Starfire mind? She's the one who broke up with him, so why would she even care? It's just dinner. No big deal.

I was ashamed to even think this way. I was better than this… right? Yes. I was – am. I am better than this.

So that was it then. I'll tell him something came up and that I can't go. He would believe it; he always does.

I found myself slowly relaxing at the thought. And here I was worrying about it like it was the end of the world. Glad that's over. I chuckled audibly to myself, "What a relief."

I heard three sharp raps on my door; my brief euphoria instantly shattered.

I panicked.

I flung forward away from my door with a gasp and landed face first on my carpet.

"Ow!"

I scrambled to my feet quickly, rubbing my nose while doing so, trying to decide if it would be better to answer with a lame excuse or to just ignore it completely. I bit my lip, torn between the two options.

Should I?

Three more knocks on my door. Ack!

"Raven, it's me, Robin. Are you there?"

Oh! Damn it all!

I hastily opened the door, a nervous smile forming on my lips, "Hey, sorry. I was… in the bathroom." I flushed. Out of all the lame excuses, that was the best I could think of? Bleh, my idiocy was leaking.

"It's alright," he answered easily, wisely ignoring my animated tone, "you ready to go?"

I took a breath, ready to feign disappointment and maybe even throw in a few sighs while I'm at it, when I noticed what he was wearing.

Although he still wore his mask, I stared at him in awe. He wore baggy dark blue skinny jeans and a red unzipped jacket with a plain white shirt underneath. He also wore black and white Vans sneakers to complete his casual look.

I just stared. There was nothing I could say.

Robin noticed, "What?" he asked, an odd smile beginning to form.

"I… don't think I've ever seen you in street clothes before. You look nice." It was only then that I realized I'd just said this aloud. I immediately looked down and blushed, whimpering mentally. What is wrong with me?

"Oh, thanks," He sounded surprised, great, "So, are you ready?"

I felt that I was forgetting something important, but… he looked so nice; handsome even. I'd never thought him to be a skinny jeans kind of guy, albeit it wasn't super tight like most guys, still... it looked semi snug… only around his waist was it a little more loose… how was it possible for Robin, the leader of the Teen Titans, to have style? How did that work?

"Raven?"

I jerked out of my trance, "Huh?"

"Are you ready to go?" he asked once more, another odd smile forming on his features.

Once again I had that nagging feeling, but my cheeks burned and I responded shyly, "Yeah – I mean, yes, I am." I bit my lip in embarrassment, hoping I didn't sound too much like an idiot.

Robin chuckled, "Okay, let's go."

Just as he turned to lead the way, I saw him reached back and felt his hand wrap around my own.

My eyes widened but I let him lead the way, blushing all the while.

Something clicked inside me; a sense of inconceivable joy coursing through me that I didn't dare let go. It was strange how normal it felt to hold his hand. It didn't seem like Robin was even aware of it himself.

I didn't know what to feel or what I was feeling, but in that moment, I simply didn't care.

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AN: I'm sorry. I know it's short and that I'm evil and I know it's been forever since I've last updated. What like… the beginning of the year? Jeeze… yeah. That's awful. But on a lighter note, this is not all I've written in the last 12 months. Haha

I have actually written this entire chapter out, I only wanted to get a little bit out to give you guys something to hope for and give you the rest when I give it another once over.

I promise too. The second part is much longer and I didn't half- ass it like I did on this one. Lol So here you go and I'll probably give you the next chapter tomorrow. Alright then.

I'll get to it!

P.s. I didn't originally mean for this to be a two part thing, so excuse me if the ending is a bit abrupt and unfair. haha