Chapter 4

Previously
„...I just want you to be happy... even if it's not me who makes you happy."
Beca can't help but stare at him for a few seconds. That is not the reaction she expected. The Bella member finally says: „I really hope we can be friends again. Maybe not in the next few weeks 'cause I think it's better if we break the contact for a while just so you can arrange your thoughts and so on... But maybe later..."
Jesse interrupts his exgirlfriend: „Beca, don't make it complicated. I'm hurt, yes but I'm okay with it and I can hold my thoughts in check so don't worry. We stay friends."
He smiles at her.
„Okay." Beca says and they hug each other as a sign of a future friendship.

Meanwhile Kommissar has landed in Berlin and is on her way home.
She tells the taxi driver where to take her and leans back in the seat. The blonde plugs her headphones into her Ipod and looks out of the window while she listens to music.
The people on the sidewalk seem to be so close but still too far away. Usually when the tall girl arrives in Berlin after a long journey it feels like she is finally home again but not this time. Everything around her seems so strange. She got used to the English language while she was in America so it feels hard for her to speak German now.
Even Pieter has realized that something is wrong with her:
The woman refused to speak German with her fellow Das Sound Machine members and was a lot stricter when it's about training their choreography. Although DSM has just participated in the world championship of a capella they already have to perform in a theater in one week on saturday.
Pieter is worried and Kommissar knows that but there is no reason to worry about her. She is old enough to take care of herself.
In the end the German will tell Pieter what happened that night when she just dissappeared from the afterparty but now is not the right time to do that.
This boy is her best friend and the only one who knows absolutely everything about her but usually it takes a little time until Kommissar opens up again even though the two are friends for a really long time.
They know each other since kindergarden and became friends in elementary school. Pieter even had a crush on the blonde in 7th grade and she still enjoys to tease him with that.
What the German woman really likes about her friend is that he often helps her to talk to him by starting the conversation when he notices that something is wrong but this time the blonde stays stubborn.
It's better to find out what I feel by myself before I tell anybody.
„So, wir sind da. Das macht dann 18,50€ (So we are there. That's 18,50€.)" the taxi driver said. Kommissar searches in her bag for the money and hands the man a 20€ bill. „Behalten sie den Rest. (Keep the rest.)" she says, takes her handbag, steps out of the beige car and takes her black suitcase out of the trunk.
How weird it sounds to speak German again.
She looks at the house she has lived in for years. It has a bright blue color and a big wooden door with a silver doorhandle in which the blonde pushes her key, turns it around and steps inside.
Inside the house it is quite cold which is typical for old German buildings. She goes up the stairs while carrying her bag and the huge suitcase. Luckily she is very strong because of all the training of Das Sound Machine so it is not a big deal for the woman.
She unlocks her door and goes inside.
Everything looks like it did when she left to go to America. The furniture, her decoration.. All of that is familiar to her but it still doesn't fell like home.
I just wasn't here for a long time. I will accustom to all of this again, the woman thinks.
She takes a look into her fridge and in the cupboards to find something to eat for dinner but when the German finds small package of cheese she starts smiling but feels even more empty than before.
I kind of miss this little girl.
Kommissar goes directly into her bed after changing her clothes. There is no sense in making myself food when I feel depressive, she thinks, closes her eyes and falls into a dreamless sleep.

Kommissar wakes up at seven o'clock, as always. She gets dressed and goes to the nearest cafe to buy herself two cups of coffee to go. When she accidently orders the beverages in English the waiter looks at her confused and then tries to tell her that he only speaks German.
The blonde stares him down until he goes to the next table, shaking, and turns around to go home. While she walks across the street she pulls out her phone and calls Pieter.
„Kommissar? Warum rufst du mich so früh an? Wir haben heute den Tag frei oder hast du das vergessen? (Why do you call me that early? We have a day off or did you forget that?)"
The woman stays silent, knowing that Pieter will understand her silent message.
„Soll ich jetzt gleich zu dir kommen oder habe ich wenigstens fünf Minuten Zeit um mich anzuziehen? (Should I come over now or do I have at least five minutes to get dressed?)"
„Komm vorbei, sobald du kannst. (Come over as soon as you can.)" the blonde answers.

When Pieter arrives Kommissar sits on the couch and watches TV.
She turns it silent and tells him everything about her and Beca's one night stand, how she is not sure if she loves the girl, the way she doesn't feel comfortable in Germany anymore and how she wants to go back to Georgia where the Barden University is located.
Her best friend listens to her quietly.
„Well. You can only find out if you love her or not when you talk to her and tell her about this. The troll can maybe help you and if you are not comfortable here then go back there. Visit her. It won't help you to stay here when you know that you actually belong elsewhere." Pieter tells her in English since he realizes how it comforts the woman.
„You really think so?" The blonde asks.
„Yes, why not? I had similar feelings when I was separated from my girlfriend while we were in America. I just wanted to go back, no matter what, and now that I am with her again I feel a lot better. Do the same, it can't harm you... Though I would ask you to stay here for at least one week until we perform in the theater." the brown haired boy explains.
Kommissar smiles and hugs him. „Thanks." she simply says. „I guess I have to book a flight now."

After performing „Fire meet Gasoline" by Sia for a stage play about two people in love which reminds Kommissar terribly about Beca and herself she hurries home to get her luggage and runs to the airport.
The flight takes almost twelve hours so the German places a pillow between herself and the seat, cuddles into it and listens to music.
She can't sleep the whole flight so when the plane arrives in Atlanta the woman feels tired like she never did. The blonde takes a taxi to get to the hotel she booked near Barden University. When she arrives in her suite she calls the room service to order two black coffee.
As soon as a waiter brings the beverages to her she immediately gulps them down and waits until it is 8 am.
Kommissar pulls her blond hair up in a high ponytail and puts on some make up to hide the dark circles under her eyes.
When she finally steps out of the hotel the woman immediately feels the depressed that feeling she had all week declining. All the people, the buildings, even the smell is different here. The German breaths in the air and smiles. This is what home is supposed to feel like.
On the way to the university the woman gets a little bit nervous.
What if Beca doesn't like me anymore? Does she even want to see me?, she thinks fearfully.
When the tall woman arrives at the university she takes a look at the building and feels overwhelmed by it's height. She goes inside.
There is a counter right after the entrance with a sign which says: Information.
A woman is sitting behind it and watches the blonde. „Can I help you?" she asks after some moments. „Ah yes." Kommissar starts. „I'd like to visit Beca Mitchell. Can you tell me in which room she lives?"
The woman types something in her computer and then says: „She is in room 214. You have to go up the stairs there and then turn left until you are almost at the end of the corridor. Then there is the door to her room. You can't miss it."
„Okay, thank you" The German says and starts jogging up the stairs.
When the tall woman arrives at room 214 she tries to calm herself down. Her heart is pumping against her ribcage because she is so excited to see her little Maus again.
After some minutes of thinking about what she should say to the other girl she knocks at door and waits.
A very sleepy looking Beca opens it and asks angrily: „Whyat the fuck is wrong with you? It is sunday! Do you know what time..."
The brunette immediately stops talking when she sees who is standing in front of her.