Chapter 4

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RPOV:

I hear the doorbell ring and my stomach does flip flops. I can hear muffled voices from downstairs and I know he's here. I look myself over in the mirror and love what I see. Kurt is a genius. My black cashmere sweater hangs off one shoulder exposing a good amount of my neck and shoulder.

It's tight fitted and stops just below my hips hugging me in all the right places. The dark skinny jeans are tight showing off my ass perfectly. Noah always loved my ass. But the boots are what make this outfit. I was a little hesitant when Kurt showed up here with them but now I know that they will drive Noah crazy.

Now what I have underneath my outfit will bring him to his knees. I have on a black lace bra and thong I got from La Perla costing a small fortune but will be worth the look on his face when he sees it. I finish off my look with a dark smoky eye and a nude shiny lip. As I smooth my curls I hear Kurt yell to me that he's leaving.

I take a deep cleansing breath and channel my inner Marilyn Monroe and head down stairs. "Ok Kurt, I'll see you tomorrow." I say sweetly as I descend the stairs. I nearly trip down the last few steps at the sight of Noah standing awkwardly in the hallway while Kurt ogles his nice ass.

He looks even better than he did earlier. The white of his shirt stands out so beautifully against his smooth olive skin. Not to mention his eyes. Those smoldering sexy eyes of his is was got me in trouble in the first place. As I make my way down the steps I can feel my whole body tingle under his intense stare. Somehow I manage to maintain my cool facade but inside I'm nervous and feel like I'm about to faint.

"It was nice seeing you again Puck. Bye darling." Kurt says and kisses me on the cheek. I say my goodbyes and watch him practically skip out the door. Ok...I can do this. I sashay my way past Noah swinging my hips a little more then necessary but I can tell I have his full attention. I glance over my shoulder and give him my best fuck me smile. He swallows hard and I can't help but smirk inwardly.

"Aren't you coming in Noah? I don't bite." I say teasing him a little. His eye widen slightly and he stammers an ok. I walk further into the living room and take a seat on the loveseat. I pat the space next to me but he doesn't move. I smile a little bit but dreading what he's about to say.

"Rachel…I…we…umm…look can we just cut the crap and get to the real reason why I'm here." He says finally taking a seat across from me on the other sofa. I keep smiling despite the sting from his words. "Ok." I say my voice wavering just slightly.

"Why? Why did you leave and why are you here now?" He asks his eyes intense and drinking me in. I sigh a little knowing that I would have to answer him; I was just hoping to put it off a little longer. I try not to look in his eyes because he has always been able to leave me speechless with his burning gaze.

"I…well…things were just so serious and intense with us, you know." I start not really sure what else to say. He just looks at me expectatnly waiting for me to continue. "I mean I was graduating high school with an already made family. I didn't know how to handle that." I say the tears starting to form in my eyes. "What the fuck is that suppose to mean?" Noah asks his jaw clenching tight.

"Finn told me what Quinn had planned. That she was waiting for a job in LA to open up and then she was going to leave. I wasn't ready to be mommy." I say looking up to see his expression. He just stares at me for a moment then runs a hand over his face. He lets out a bitter sounding laugh.

"Unfucking believable. I wasn't expecting you to be Soraya's mom. I wouldn't have put that on you. Why didn't you just talk to me?" He asks the hurt clear on face. "I was just so confused and then that night things just so intense with us. You practically asked me to marry you. What was I suppose to do? Give up all my dreams to stay here and play house?" I say surprising myself at how angry I sound.

He glares at me for a second before responding. "I wasn't asking you to marry me. I gave you a promise ring, it was a promise to love you and be faithful to you. Rachel I never wanted you to give up your dreams for me and play house." He practically yells. I go to say something but the look he gives me tells me to keep my mouth shut.

He stands and comes to sit next to me. His face softens a little and the closeness of him makes my heart beat faster. "I wanted all those things for you just as much as you wanted them. I never wanted you to give up anything for me. I would have waited for you. Waited till you got everything you dreamed of. I knew I couldn't leave and you couldn't stay but I was willing to try. Why couldn't you?" He says his husky voice low and deep. It's a voice that can caress you when spoken.

"I don't know…I was coward. The feelings I had were so strong that it scared me when I actually considered not going to New York and staying with you."I say my voice barely above a whisper. He leans in closer to me and my heart nearly pounds out my chest. It's been so long since I've been this close to him and he's making me dizzy.

"You could have told me. We could have at least ended as friends instead of you abandoning me like everyone else and tearing my heart out." He says his eyes searching mine for what I don't know. My stomach clenches at his words and I can't keep the tears from spilling down my cheeks.

"I couldn't have talked to you because I knew the moment I looked in your eyes I wouldn't have been able to leave and I staying wouldn't have been good for either of us. I would have just ended up resenting you and i didn't want that." I say truthfully. He just nods his head and rubs his face with his hand. Something he does when he's trying to figure out what to say next.

He leans forward resting his elbows on his thighs. He clasps his hands together and turns his face towards me. "I guess I got what I came for. No matter how much it hurt, it was nice seeing you again." He says sincerely than moves to get up. I jump up after him and follow him to the door. I reach out and grab his arm. The arms I once told him were lovely when we first started whatever this was.

He stops and faces me. He's so close and I'm not scared anymore. I grab the front of his shirt before I can over think it and pull his lips to mine. He stiffens at first and just when I'm about to pull away he molds his smooth warm lips against mine. His rough hands grasp my hips tightly. I become bolder and push my tongue in his mouth tasting him. I moan a little remembering how good he tastes. Like dark cherries. FIERWORKS!! Is all I can think as the kiss continues. It's everything I remember and so much more.

He pulls away much too soon for my liking. He gently removes my hands from the front of his shirt. "I can't do this." He says his voice cracking slightly. He turns to leave. "What are you so afraid of Puck? You kiss me back and now you're just going to walk away." I say trying to push down how hurt I am and taunting him just a little.

Suddenly he has me pressed between the wall and his hard body. His delicious scent of campfire and licorice invades all my senses making my head spin. From the look in his eyes this is the Puck I knew not the Noah I loved. He smirks that same Puck smirk and I can feel the heat spread from my stomach down to my toes.

He leans in so close and are lips are barely touching. "You have no idea how much I still want you." He sneers the desire in his voice turning me on like crazy. "Oh." I squeak not able to really say anything else. His face softens suddenly and he pulls back a little. "But I'm not free. I'm with someone else." He says softly our faces only inches apart. "Wh..what?" I ask stunned at what he just said.

"I shouldn't have kissed you back. I'm with Gloria now and I'm not a cheater." He says sadly. My heart breaks at the mention of her name. "Do you love her?" I ask my eyes burning with unshed tears. He hesitates for a moment. "I care for her a lot but my heart has always belonged to someone else. But she's a good woman and I won't hurt her." He says sadly. "Then choose me, pick me." I say with all the conviction I can muster. "I wish it was that simple." He says softly and strokes my face delicately.

"I'm sorry." He says his eyes so dark and sad. "You're breaking my heart." I manage to say as the tears escape my eyes. He steps back and traces my lips with his thumb and places a soft kiss on them. "I'm sorry. There's just too much baggage for the both of us to deal with. Maybe things could be different but I have Soraya to think about and now Gloria. She's been nothing but good to me and she deserves better." He says and walks out the door leaving me crushed and alone.

I drag myself up the stairs and throw myself in my bed and cry myself to sleep. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

A/N: Please Review. Don't hate me. I hope you didn't think I was going to make it easy for them. Next up Rachel is down but not out.