Okay, here's the next chapter. I am really soryy for the wait but I've had exams etc etc. I'm also working on the next chapter of 'After You've Gone' but I've hit a bit of a block with it so if anyone has any ideas, I'd be very grateful!!
This chapter's for Angel's Grace who helped correct my sad typo's and gives me someone to talk to on MSN to save me going mad during my day's off although I would appreciate her NOT teasing me all the time hint hint...
Okay, enough of my ramblings on with the show... be warned, this chapter contains spoilers for Doctor Who Series One and Two and Three as well.
Time After Time
Lying in my bed
I hear the clock tick and think of you
caught up in circles
Confusion is nothing new
It had been one month since Jack had returned from his most recent adventured with The Doctor. He'd had one month to cope with the violent memories of his year held captive on The Valiant. One month since he had started a 'relationship' with Ianto Jones, not just a sexual one either, a proper, going-on-dates, relationship.
Flash back warm night
Almost left behind
A suitcase of memories
So much had happened in 'the year that never was' that he had almost forgotten how it had started; the trip to the end of the universe, sending the last human's off to 'Utopia.' The Doctor, calling him 'wrong.' The Doctor, telling him about Rose, how she wasn't dead. She was still alive.
Jack rolled over and looked at Ianto, fast asleep, he looked so young. Sometimes, the young Welshman reminded him so much of Rose. They were both so young, almost naïve but he wouldn't dare say that to either of their faces, they were both enthusiastic about what they did; Rose travelling in 'time and space' and Ianto saving Cardiff from the invasion of aliens, but they both felt so deeply, cared so much, almost too much.
Whenever he pictured Rose, he always imagined her as he first met her; young, smitten and just so… blonde. He may have had been attracted to Rose when he'd first met her but they The Doctor had made it quite clear that she was 'off limits,' usually Jack wouldn't let that get in the way, but this was The Doctor. And then he had started feeling things towards The Doctor as well, which just complicated things even more.
Time after sometimes
You picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me
I can't hear what you've said
Sometimes he thought he saw her, in the streets of Cardiff or in a crowded room. He would just see a flash of blonde hair or someone wearing a union jack t-shirt out of the corner of his eye. He'd look again and it would be someone who looked nothing like Rose but it would make his head spin, the memories of his time with Rose and The Doctor would come flooding back, the feeling of abandonment would rush back and he'd just feel hopeless until he reminded himself that he was needed here, by his team, by Cardiff, by the rift.
And you say, go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
On the days when he though he saw Rose, he'd usually dream of her. Sometimes, it was re-living memories of their adventures with The Doctor, sometimes it was her and The Doctor just walking away, leaving him behind, just as they'd done on the Gamestation. Other times, he dreamt of her trying to get back to them, of her struggling in her new world. On nights like that he'd wake up in a cold sweat, tears falling and he'd reach for Ianto to remind himself that some of the people that he loved where still alive and there for him.
If you're lost, you can look
And you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you
I'll be waiting
Time after time
His only consolation to being immortal no matter how long it took, if, when, Rose came back he would still be here, waiting for her. When The Doctor came to Cardiff to refuel, Jack would always be here, always waiting for more adventures, although he didn't think he could leave Ianto again. Not now the man had only just started trusting him again after he had ran off last time.
After my picture fades
And darkness has turned to grey
Watching through windows
You're wondering if I'm okay
He may have lied to The Doctor when he said he'd gone to see Rose 'a few time.' To be honest, he went to see the blonde every year, from the year she was born to the year she went off with The Doctor. 18 visits to London, 18 times he'd seen her, wishing he could go up to and talk to her but knowing he'd screw up the timeline and he'd heard stories from both Rose and The Doctor and he did not plan on releasing huge alien-monkey-paradox things into the heart of London.
Secrets, Stolen
From deep inside
The drum beats out of time
The last time he'd seen her, she'd taken his breath away. She'd grown a lot on the past year and looked exactly as he remembered, she'd outgrown her 'geeky' stage and shot up, loosing the baby fat and the braces (Jack had laughed when he'd seen her with the braces and made a mental note to tease her about it the next time he saw her. Of course, that was before Canary Wharf and the whole 'parallel universe' thing).
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time
He'd always be here for them. For the people he loved. They may not always be there for him, but he'd always, always be here.
Right, there we go, please review as it gives me motivation to write more!!
How good does Doctor Who look next week?? Did anyone else notice that Donna was wearing Jack's coat?? hehe, I'm so annoyed that I'm away! grrr damn D of E...