I Choose to Love You (Yuuri Katsuki)

St Petersburg. I've been dreading this for a month now. It's more than just a career move, coming here would mean facing Yurio again after his confession and dealing with Victor.

Victor. He's sure to have lots of questions. I've been silent for the last few weeks I've been in Japan.

Yurio. I'm looking forward to seeing him but at the same time it scares me so much thinking of it. Victor said that he's been out for vacation but the timing makes me think he's hiding from me.

I guess it's good for now. I have to speak with Victor first anyway. We have a lot of things to clear between us before anything can move on. Oh God, what a mess.

I travelled straight to the skating rink because I know at this time of the day Victor will be there. I did not give him information of my flight. I want more time to think and the travel alone to St Petersburg will allow me enough opportunity to settle down.

Now that I'm here, I'll be as honest as possible. No more running and hiding.

I immediately spotted Victor speaking with Yakov and as if he felt me here he turned his head and saw me. I could see the surprise in his face as he registered my presence and ran straight to me.

"Yuuri!" His tight hug assured me more than anything else. We can get through this some how.

"I'm sorry Victor." I can feel my self breaking down and I can't stop the tears flowing down my eyes.

"Whatever it is we'll figure it out," he promised me.

He drove me to his house where I'll be staying while training here. Not even half an hour from the time we arrived I can't hold it in anymore and I poured out everything that happened in Japan with Yurio.

"You don't look so surprised." I pointed out because he really doesn't seem like it, it feels like he's already expecting something like this.

I watched him for few seconds, like he was pondering what to say. He sighed and looked me in the eye for the first time since I started talking.

" I figured as much when Yuri came back depressed. He was upset when he heard that you might be retiring. And after the GP he suddenly wanted to go to Japan."

He was able to put so much of this mess together even if Yurio and I refused to speak about it. I guess the silence spoke louder than any words.

I thought so hard of exactly what i wanted to do, of where I want this to go. And for Victor, Yurio and especially for myself I have to see this through.

"Victor, I honestly think we got a lot of things backward. It's time to right them. I want to be able to stand on my own. Be strong enough to support the person I love and to be worthy of love as well." That isn't so hard. Looking at Victor I know he understands. And I'm so lucky that he's the person supporting me through all of this.

He smiled at me and held my hand as he said, "I'm so proud of you Yuuri. You've grown so strong. I guess that's what love can do to you. Thank you. You've given me a purpose, a new path and I'll continue to follow it with you. If you'll let me."

I pulled him in the most honest embrace we had. Love. I guess it's all good.

I inhaled the morning air. The cold is biting even through couple of layers of clothing. I turned back to Victor who's seeing me of.

"Are you sure you're okay to travel on your own? I could've come with you." He's been at it since last night. But I already decided to do this alone.

"I don't think Yurio will appreciate that I'm bringing you with me." I can imagine it already he's probably going to throw us out. That made me smile.

Looking up at Victor he smiled back at me. He definitely understand what I mean. "Call me once you got there and come back with that brat. We're already losing too much practice time."

"I know I'll bring him back and we'll be ready for whatever." As I turned my back to Victor I felt like a chapter of my life have just ended and with every step I take I'm starting a new one.