Hey Imilia here!

Thank for those who waited for this chapter. I just didn't have enough time on my hands and I have many problems not to mention school.

So here is another chapter of Lights. It's not very long but I hope you like it :)

Chapter IV

* You're not the only one who matters*

"I love you, but… I don't have much time left…"

"What are you talking about?"

"It's nothing wrong… It's just… I… um, hah… How do I put it. I'm not here anymore. I love you… Syo."

"W-what are you talking about…? Kaoru..?"

"… I love you… I really do…"

"NO!" I screamed and realized I was in the living room, lying on the sofa and screaming in the middle of the night and even if you won't believe me, after that I heard a hard 'sigh..' coming from upstairs. Then few minutes later I heard footsteps. They were getting closer and closer. Like you already know I'm very smart person so I hid behind the sofa. (A/N Syo fells proud of himself… again…) I was hiding there for a few minutes too.

"What… are you doing, Syo?" I heard to my ears sweet voice.

"You were able to see me?!" I shouted trying to distract him from giving me a crap like 'what the fuck are you doing here in the middle of the night?'

"Whaaat? Noo, of course I couldn't see you, I just thought that you might be here, looks like I was right." I sighed, 'That irony…'

He looked away from me and his gaze was couth by the opened window. He stood there for a few minutes, he was just… watching it. And then I saw a piece of paper on the ground. It was right there, beside his feet. 'Well fuck that shit…' I saw him picking up that little piece and while reading his face expression changed dramatically.

"May you explain this to me?" He walked near me and threw the paper at my face. I looked at him for a while but then my look was concentrated at the piece of paper. I started reading it.

'Like I said, you can always come to me if you feel lonely or sad, or ever depressed'

'Love, Kaoru.'

'P.S. Syo probably won't find this, so if you're reading this Ai, I WILL take him away from you :)'

I was looking at the piece of paper for some time.

"Oh, ohohohoooo, so he thinks I'm stupid…" I said sarcastically. 'That bastard…' I thought.

"That's the only thing that comes inside your head?" He said with a smirk. 'So he thinks I'm stupid to? No one can think that I'm stupid!' I screamed inside my head.

"So… any explanations for this? No?" He looked straight through my soul.

"Don't look at me like that, I was depressed. I HAD to tell him."

"So you invited him over in the middle of the night."

"Ai… Don't be a jerk. I just had another nightmare. I don't need you telling me how to live, ok?" I closed my eyes, trying to forget what I saw in my dreams. He was fading away… I'm scared. Freaking scared again!

"Syo? What's wrong-?" I started sobbing. What if something happened to him? What will I do then? I don't want him to get hurt, I lov-.. No, no, no, no… I have Ai, I don't need anyone else, right? RIGHT?!... right.

"Fucking hell… Why do I have to fell like this? My life is perfect, I don't need anyone but you, so why do I fell…" I paused for a second. Trying to understand what I felt. It was harder than I expected. "I fell guilt and anxiety… I don't know…"

"Syo…"

"Shut up!" I screamed. I didn't knew what was going on. "We spent so much time together, I was, I mean I AM happy, but… something's missing…" He tried to say something but I told him to shut up again. "I want to go home… I want to go home Ai…"

I knew how miserable he felt not being able to comfort me. But I felt even more miserable… I don't know. I'm starting to feel the way I felt in high school. I want something but I don't know what…

Next day I packed some stuff and left our home. I said that I will be back in a month. I said I needed time to think…

… So right now I was standing in front of my house and thinking… Where the fuck is the doorbell?! I started walking around old fashion house, looking for someone OR a doorbell. Both could have been helpful. I walked around the house, and then went to check the garden and the pool. Nothing. It's like everyone's gone. Maybe they went shopping for something or maybe they are all just still at work and… oh wait, we don't have a doorbell. Fuck. How could I have forgotten that?

"What am I even doing here…?" I sighed. I was about to go back but I bumped to someone.

"Ah! Dammit watch where you're going!" I screamed not even know into who I bumped. When I turned around I saw my mother.

"Syo-chan!" She shouted. "What are you doing here?! I haven't seen you since you went to your music school." She started at me for a minute.

"Umm… mom?"

"You still look like a girl Syo-chan." She sighed and I got so mad my face even turned red. But eventually I calmed down because, after all she is my mother.

"So… Where Is Kaoru?" I asked and mom showed me a very confused face.

"Why do you need Kaoru-chan, Syo-chan?" She asked me calmly.

"I need to talk with him." My mom looked at my bags. "And I might stay here a month or so…" I mumbled. I sooo didn't want to look at her face, because I knew exactly what she was going to do.

"SYO-CHAN! No way! Really?! You're not lying, right?" I shook my head and she started screaming again. She grabbed me and hugged me so hard that I thought I was going to die. Thank god Kaoru came back at that right moment and saw our mom squeezing me to death.

"Mom! He will die if you won't stop!" When she heard Kaoru she immediately released me.

"Kaoru-chan! I haven't seen you in years!" She forgot all about me and started running towards Kaoru.

"Oh Fuck!" He swore and started running away from her. The whole situation was so funny that while laughing I even started crying. Sometime around that moment I heard Kaoru scream. "Syo faster! Take your bags let's get out of here!" I was a little confused because I thought that Kaoru was living with our mother, but I guess he has his own place now. And I see why. I grabbed my bags and ran towards him, while he was still running in circles. When I was right beside me he grabbed my hand and ran to his car which I actually never saw before. And man… that was some awesome car! A red Ferrari! I threw my bags on the back seat and jumped into the car. Kaoru did the same thing.

So after an awesome ride we were at his apartment. The living room was the first room I saw. The place looked classy I have to say. It had a giant window, many flowers. My eye caught a big painting of a crying girl, there were some photos too, and most of them were with me or with me and Kaoru.

"Nice place you've got here." I said as I put my bags on a beautiful blue couch.

"Yeah, I know." The voice behind my back said as it slowly stepped forwards me. I felt warm arms touching my neck and then, he hugged me from behind. It felt like in one of those old romantic movies that Kaoru used to watch all the time.

"I didn't come here for this." I said with a strict voice tone but he didn't stop. He placed his head on my left shoulder and whispered 'I love you' into my ear.

"Stop it!" I shouted and pushed him away. He stood there astonished for a second and then started talking.

"Why not?" He asked.

"Because you're my brother." I mumbled

"What if we're not brothers?"

"We're blood related…" I answered

"What if we're not..?"

"We're twins Kaoru… Twins…" I said so calmly that even I was confused by that.

"Okay… So how long are you planning to stay?" He asked.

"About a month." I said as I sat on that BEAUTIFUL couch. Blue, I must remind you. Kaoru sat right beside me from right.

"Do… you want some coffee?" He asked me and I nodded. "I'll go get some coffee." He stood up and walked to one of the rooms. I didn't wait for long. He returned with two cups of coffee. He put the cup on the wooden table. I looked at the coffee. 'Shit. He knows everything!' It was my favorite coffee, with lots and lots, and LOTS of cream, because yeah, I like it that way. I took a sip.

"Can I kiss you?" He mumbled straight forward. And I accidentally spited my coffee. And now I was wet.

"…Fuck! This was my favorite shirt!" I cried. Kaoru probably got some IDEA and stood up again.

"I'll go get you a new shirt." He said with a smirk. I didn't like where it was going. Some moments later he returned with a white shirt.

"Go ahead, change." He said with a smile.

"You just want to see me naked, right?" I asked bluntly and his smile just got wider. I took of my wet shirt and tossed it on the ground. I felt how he was staring at me.

"Don't stare. It's embarrassing." I said as I slightly blushed. And once again he hugged me from behind with my shirt still of and started touching everywhere!

"S-stop Kaoru…" He didn't answered and started sucking my neck. "Ngh… ah! Stop it!" I tried to push him away but he caught my hands and pushed me on the couch.

"NO!" I shouted but he shut me with his lips. I tried to push him away. And when one of my hands was free I tried once again. I resisted and resisted, and in the end I slapped him.

"Stop it, Kaoru! Do you know how I feel?!" I screamed.

"Well do you know how I feel?!" He shouted. "Do you think it's easy not to be near you and let that stupid Ai touch you?!" I looked at him trying not to panic.

"I…"

"You're not the only one who matters!" He shouted again. "There will be time when you won't get what you want, you understand that?!" He looked at me for a second then released me and went to another room by shutting the door so loud that window almost broke.

"…" I sat there silently. "He almost broke the window…" I stood up and walked to the room door he was in. I slightly knocked.

"Go away!" I heard from the other side of the door. I stood there a few more minutes and then said.

"I'm sorry. I guess I'm just afraid." I paused for a sec. "But if it's you, I might as well be ok." I couldn't believe what I said and just then I understood what I did. The door slowly opened and a pale hand grabbed me and pulled me into the room.

I spent that night with Kaoru. My own twin brother… Again.

Ai- So you cheated on me...

Syo- I didn't, I swear!

Kaoru- Yeah, you did.

Syo- Kaoru!

Kaoru- What? Can't a man speak?

Syo- !

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