Disclaimer: I don´t own Buffy or any other characters affiliated with the show.

A/N: My beta reader has gone underground for some reason so I haven´t been able to contact him. This means that this chapter has not been beta read and that means their probably will be a few mistakes.

Chapter four

The day that had started out so good but had turned bad with a capital B, Fuck! Why was his parents such assholes. Why couldn´t they been like Giles or Joyce but no he had be stuck with a pair of drunk bastards that cared more about where the next drink was coming from then they did their son. Xander sighed, he should be use to it by now but in the back of his mind he kept hope that they would turn out to be good and maybe love him. Maybe it was to stupid but he had really hoped that they would be different when he got back from his vacation but it had been the same as always with the yelling, drinking and hitting.

Xander spent the day walking around thinking about the past and what crappy parents he had, he smiled slightly as he remembered the first day he meet Willow his best friend in the world.

*Flashback*

They sat in groups of five around small round tables while they were drawing. It was the third day of kindergarten for Alexander and so far he liked it even if there were a couple of dodo heads that had pick on him. But Alexander liked it here with all the toys and he had even found a friend called Jesse who liked the same things as he did. Right now he was drawing a green tiger chasing Skeletor away from He-man that was holding his sword up. Alexander looked at the picture with a frown there was something missing but then he smiled. Yellow he needed yellow as the lighting hit the sword so that He-man could get bigger. Alexander her muffled cry from his left, he turned and looked at the red haired girl that was looking at her had with tear filled eyes. Alexander peeked over her shoulder and saw a yellow crayon broken in half in her hand. She seamed to be really upset about the crayon and with a lopsided grin he tapped her on the shoulder and she turned around with tears in her eyes as he held up yellow crayon.

"Here!" he said and gave her his yellow crayon with a smile on his lips.

"Really!" The girl snuffled. Alexander nodded making the red-headed girl smile. She gave him the two broken half of her yellow crayon.

"Thank you!" She said sniffling and wiped her nose with her arm.

"Wats your name?" he asked. (A/N What´s = Wats)

"Willow" She said shyly.

"Alexander! Nice to meet you!" Making Willow blush.

*End Flashback*

He really loved that girl and he hoped that even if he had changed into something very much like a vampire that he could still count on her friendship as he had for all these years especially when it had gotten bad at home he had snuck out of the house and came over to Willows where had slept when he was smaller but he had stopped doing that when he became a teenager. Xander had parked his car at the pub he now worked at and walked around, what he really wanted was to take on a couple of vamps to get out his frustration on even if he really didn´t know how to fight that well. That was something he would need to take care of even if he was stronger and faster he need some training if he was going to have a good chance of surviving and be able to help but so far he had a few remnant of the soldier from Halloween not much but a few thing had stuck but most of it had faded away with time.

"Howhaveyoubeen?Ihavemissedyousomuch!" Xander bad mood vanished as he heard his best friend speak a mile a minute. He turned around and hugged her breathing in her sent, he felt the tension in his shoulders ease up as held Willow tightly against his chest. He heard some muffled sounds as Willow tried to speak he putter her down, he could see that she was slightly flushed.

"Hi Willow! It´s great to see you and I haven´t been back that long a day or two and I been okay. Missed you too man it is lucky that I am expert in Willow speak or I wouldn´t have gotten that at all!" Xander said grinning making Willow blush slightly as she punched him in the shoulder.

"Ah-ow!" Xander said rubbing his arm milking it for all it was worth.

"You doffus I didn´t hit you that hard. No slayer strength here!" Willow held up her arm. Xander laughed.

"It is good to see you Willow. Just what I need!" He said smiling at her.

"What´s wrong?" Xander cringed, he knew that he would be no match for Willows resolved face and talking about what happened between his parents and him was not something he wanted to do.

"I meet Buffy yesterday and she had some trouble with a vamp and this hole collage thing!" He said quickly trying to change the subject so he wouldn´t have to answer that question at least for right now.

"What!" Willow squeaked.

"I am guessing she is a bit overwhelmed with this hole collage thing!" He saw that Willow started to worry.

"Hey now, no need to worry Wills! Xandman was there to bring her out of her funk. But I guessing that she would love it if you would visit her. I think she could use some Willow time" Xander said with a big smile and hugging her. Willow looked up smiling then she hear the big clock dong.

"Oh gush I am late! I got to run Xander. Call me!" She said running of. He smiled sadly as he saw her running with her book bag over her shoulder through the courtyard. It was good to see her yet it didn´t quell his fears about what would happen when she would find out but hopefully she would able to except him.

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His shift at the bar had been slow and painful with a bunch of assholes that thought just because he was working in a bar and they were in collage he was below them and if he hadn´t worked at Mystic in Oxnard he would have probably tried to deck them and lost him his job but during his time at Mystic he had learned not to let it get to him but even he had a limit, Xander was just glad that he had made it through the shift without punching the lights out of the collage snob.

"Alright there kid?" Tom asked.

"Just glad I don´t have to listen to them anymore!" He said and motioned at the group of guy that were leaving. Tom frowned.

"A bunch of snobs are what they are. Thinking they are better then us just because we work for a living!" Tom snarled angrily making smile. Then it wasn´t just him that had a problem with those SOBs.

"I hear you. But they are paying costumers!" Xander said making Tom grunt as they continued cleaning up but he could tell that Tom really didn´t like collage kids especially that group that according to Tom attended this bar frequently.

It took an hour to clean up, Xander sighed as he went out the back and walked to were he had parked his car. Taking of his shirt and putting on an other before he headed out to find some vamps, he really need to work of some energy and frustration after the day he had had.

Xander had filled out the paper work and everything for his employment at the bar and Tom was an okay boss not to demanding but no slush either and the pay was okay but nothing worth wild but it would do until he found something better and face the facts he really needed the money now that he was homeless. He had decided during the day that he was going to sleep in his car tonight even though it was a risk being Sunnydale and all.

Xander made his way to one of the many graveyards in Sunnydale, he had been to every graveyard in Sunnydale one time or another with Buffy when she went patrolling so he knew the layouts pretty well. He smiled grimly hoping to find a vamp or two to take out his anger upon and since they where vampires he didn´t have to feel bad because they were evil and had no souls.

He kept to the shadows as much as possible to give him an element of surprise something that he knew Buffy wouldn´t do. She usually just walked the graveyard and since she is a petite blond hot girl the vampires couldn´t resister her or it was something of the slayer essences that attracted them to her during her patrols of the graveyards.

It didn´t take long before he the ground started to move on one of the graves, he looked at the grave stone.

Adam Greenhorn

Born 1980-08-24

Died 1999-09-12

Beloved Son and Brother

Xander sighed when he looked at the gravestone it was sad but that person who had died wasn´t there any more it was just a soulless beast that would kill and enjoy it if it wasn´t stopped. The grass started to buckle and he saw tips of fingers digging there way up through the ground, first it was only the fingertips, then the finger, then the vampires hole hand came up soon followed by the other one. It wouldn´t take long now that the vampire had his hands above ground, it needed only to pull it´s self free but Xander knew that it could be tricky because fledgling waking up in a tight space underground not knowing where there where or how they got there.

He stood in the shadow of a tree as he watched the fledgling vampire dig its way up through the grave, it only took about 30 seconds before it had made it´s way out of the ground a little slow so it must have gotten snagged on some roots in as it dug it´s way up. Xander gripped one of his stakes tight as he waited to see if the fledglings master would show up. The masters didn´t always show up after they had turned someone only if they were to become a child so to speak a vampire that held more value to a master then an ordinary minions other wise the fledgling made it´s way to its sire. When nobody showed Xander stepped away from the tree so that he was visible. The fledgling saw him a gave a feral smile and it´s faced morphed from human looking into its demonic featured with ridges around its nose, eyes and forehead. Xander just smiled back and pocked the stack in his jacket and charged the vampire, he didn´t want it to end to quickly and one vampire a fledgling at that he could handle with out a problem with his new speed and strength. The fledgling rushed him, Xander knew it was coming and slammed his fist in it´s face hearing the crunch as his fist broke the fledglings nose sending it flying into a gravestone.

"Arrrgh!" Screamed the vampire and gripped it´s nose.

"You fucking asshole you broke my nose! You are going to pay for son of a bitch!" The vampire yelled looking murderous with its beady yellow eyes snarling as it launched its self at him tackling Xander to ground. The fall knocked the wind out of him for a second, Xander felt the breath on his neck. Panicking he pushed with everything he had and launching the vampire off him throwing it through the air. Xander came to his feet as soon as he had pushed the fledgling of him and he didn´t wait for the vampire to recover. He ran towards the fledgling that was on the ground on all fours, Xander launched a kick right at its face as he had done when he played soccer when he was younger. The kick connected with an audible crunch sending the fledgling it to a tree, with out stopping Xander launched another kick at the fledgling hitting him in the stomach.

Xander didn´t care any more he was so riled up and taking out all of his frustrations out on the vampire how could do nothing but take the beating. Xander was punching and kicking like a mad man not realizing that the new born vampire had stopped moving as punches and kicks where raining down upon it. With on last punch the fledgling crumbled to dust from the excessive beating it had taken, Xander was breathing hard with bloodstained slightly swollen hands.

He sat their on the ground pinkish tiers rolling down his cheek, it had been a long time since Xander had cried not since Angelus had put Willow in the hospital had he cried but now his life had changed so much that he wasn´t really sure what was going to happen. He was scared of what he was and how the gang would react to his condition but he was also angry at his parents, himself for letting this happen to him and the world. He need to talk to somebody but he was afraid of what would happen if he did, he knew that his friendship would change if he talked to Willow and since that hole debacle with Spike they had been drifting apart but he wanted and needed his best friend right now.

Taking a deep breath and wiping his cheek he stood up making up his mind, he was going to tell Willow what had happened to him and he was going to do it right now.

A/N: Some of you may have noticed other might not but here in this chapter I have put in something that have been bothering me since the end of the first season of Buffy The Vampire Slayer and that is when Angel tell Xander that he has no breath. In this chapter I wrote that he felt the fledglings breath on his neck, I don´t know if you should take that literal or is it more of a description of feeling that the vampire was close to sink his fangs in his neck. But the thing that bugs me is that if they have no breath the how the fuck does a vampire speak or smoke if they are not able to breathe maybe some of my reader have answer for this.

Well I hope that you like the chapter it took a while to write had to rewrite a few time before inspiration hit me in the noggin.

Thanks for all your reviews they give me the motivation I need to keep writing.