Thank you for the reviews and adds. So another chapter and just to warn you that some of you many hate me for this chapter but please stick with me on it, it's part of the bigger picture. So let me know what you think good or bad.

Here we go...

Heavy In Your Arms

'I'm strong enough to stand protecting both

your heart and mine.

Who is the betrayer, who's the killer in the crowd,

the one who creeps

in corridors and doesn't make a sound

Liv stared at herself in the mirror wondering where it had all gone wrong. Four days had passed since Clay had threatened her and things had gone from bad to worse.

Carefully she dabbed the concealer over the faint purplish bruises littering her neck. She felt sick every time she looked at them. Those bruises were the reason she was standing in the bathroom of her old apartment in Oakland all alone. She knew full when as soon as Clay let her go that he would have left his mark on her. How was she suppose to explain that to Happy, she just couldn't. So she left. Spent one last night with him, then told him she just couldn't do it anymore. She took her things and left. Thankfully she still had a lease out on the place, because she had no where else to go.

Happy of course had put his foot down, and under normal circumstances she would have done as he said, but this time she just couldn't do it. She made it clear that she wasn't leaving him that she loved him but she just couldn't stay any longer especially now she knew that their little trip to Charming had been extended. She knew it was killing him to let her go, it was killing her. But if she stayed, there was a good chance that Clay literally could kill her.

He had just stood there as she packed up her things. She knew that the only reason he was letting her do this was because of the situation with the club. The club needed him, and Liv took full advantage of that.

Pulling her hair over her shoulders in an attempt to try and hide the bruises even more she walked out of the bathroom and into the living room where she grabbed her sports bag and headed out the door.

Jax sat at the bar in the clubhouse a shot of Whisky in front of him. Kyle had woken up three days ago and when he had discharged himself from the hospital Church had been called so they could all hear what the pathetic asshole had to say, and to Jax's annoyance Kyle came out of it still a brother. He had managed to talk himself out of it- the fact that he had tried to run- and Clay brought every single word of it. The only good thing about the whole situation was that Kyle had been keeping his distance from the clubhouse the past few days, Jax hoped it stayed that way.

Draining his glass he pushed himself off his stool and headed outside. Placing a cigarette between his lips he looked over the lot. Most of his brothers were mulling around outside enjoying the sun and the easy day they had before the long night that lay ahead of them.

Tonight they were hitting the Mayans. Juice had found out where they were hiding. Since they had declared war funnily enough they had gone into hiding, but now they knew of their location and they had enough Sons they were going after them, bringing the war they had declared to their doorstep. It was going to be a long night, but Jax was more than ready for it in fact he needed it right now and so did another one of his brothers.

Jax along with the rest of his brothers weren't exactly sure what had happened, but four days ago Liv had walked out of the clubhouse and had yet to return. And Jax was curious as to why. The morning after her birthday he had heard them- this time it wasn't sex noises though- he had heard Happy shouting at her, it wasn't clear enough that he could make out exactly what he was yelling at her about but their was defiant raised voices and when he finally stopped eaves dropping on their argument he left his dorm only to bump into Liv who was carrying her bag. Happy stepped out behind her, his face hard. Jax never spoke he had just stayed put as the two disappeared down the hall. Happy had followed her out of T/M but returned less than two hours later without her. And he hadn't left since.

As he started walking over to where Happy was working on his bike he came to a stop when he heard the sound of a Harley pulling into the lot. Continuing to watch as the bike pulled into the already overflowing formation. Jax smiled to himself when the rider revealed himself.

Lighting his cigarette Jax went over to greet the new arrival, embracing him in a hug.

"Good to see you brother." Jax said as he broke the hug.

"Yeah well I couldn't miss this party tonight." Jax nodded his head. Having an extra brother, especially one like Kozik was always a welcome surprise.

"Yeah. It's gonna be one hell of a night."

"Everything sorted?" Jax nodded taking a drag from his cigarette. "Then just tell me what you need me to do VP." Jax clapped his hand down on his shoulder.

"Will do, but first need you to do somethin' else for me."

Liv chugged back her bottle, her chest heaving. She had just spent the last two and half hours dancing her ass off. She was knackered, and she didn't realise how out of shape she was. But she loved it and it had taken her mind off her current fucked up situation.

Sliding her bag onto her shoulder Liv made her way down the stairs of the dance studio. Just as she was locking up she heard a name she hadn't heard in a while.

"Miss Olivia...Miss Olivia..." Looking over her shoulder to where the little voice was coming from a smile grew on Liv's face when she saw the little girl barreling towards her. Letting her bag slide off her shoulder Liv bent down to her knees so that she could catch the little bundle. "Miss Olivia." The little girl squealed as she wrapped her arms around Liv's neck. "Your back..."

"Hi Kayla." Liv hugged the little girl tightly before the little girl pulled away from her.

"When can I dance...I want to dance again...I've been practicing ..Look Look..." The little girl stood back from Liv and started spinning around in circles before kicking her leg up. Liv beamed with pride.

As much as she loved being on the road with Happy a small part of her had missed this. She had started teaching dance classes on her days off. She had classes that ranged from little ones to teenagers and she loved it. And watching as the little girl preformed one of the routines she had taught her made her realise just how much she missed it.

"That was amazing..." Liv clapped her hands as Kayla gave a little curtsy. "You certainly have been practicing."

"Can we go and dance now...please...please Miss Olivia..."

"Now now pumpkin..How bout you give Miss Olivia here a chance to speak." Liv watched as Kayla's uncle scooped her off the ground tickling her stomach and making the little girl erupt into a fit of giggles. Liv dusted off her knees as she got to her feet.

"But she's back...I wanna dance Uncle Cal..." He looked down at his excited niece before looking back at Liv.

He had to admit he was a little happy to see his nieces favorite teacher as well. At First when his sister had asked him to take Kayla to the dance lessons he didn't like it one bit, but she was his little sister and it was very rare that he ever refused her and his sister knew that. So of course he took his niece along to the dance studio-reluctantly-but when he stepped in side and saw the beautiful blonde dance teacher he decided that he would defiantly be bringing his niece again and he did...well until she left.

He was about to open his mouth when something caught his eye. Placing his niece back onto her feet he bent down in front of her so that they were eye level. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a 20.

"Here take this and go and tell your Mom that I said your aloud the biggest bowl of ice cream you can get." Kayla's eyes widened as she snatched the money from her Uncle. She started running back down the street towards her Mom who was standing just outside the diner. "HEY..." The little girl stopped at looked back at her Uncle. "Say goodbye to Miss Olivia."

"Bye Miss Olivia..." She shouted as she went back to running to her Mom. Liv laughed.

"Left on the sidelines for ice cream. Can't say I blame the girl." Liv was still looking at the little when she felt his eyes on her. Looking away from Kayla Liv was surprised to find that Calvin had closed the gap that had rested between them. Liv automatically took a subtle step back, recreating some space between them.

She had always gotten on with him which she found surprising considering who he was, but then again she also didn't tell him who she was, she thought it was for the best. He was a nice guy and he was brilliant with Kayla but that didn't mean that she trusted him, especially when he was getting so close to her.

"What happened?"

"Family stuff.. I'm sorry I left so quickly but you kn..."

"I ain't talkin' bout why you left I'm talkin' bout these." Liv took another less subtle step back when his hand reached out to her.

"I don't...I..."

"The bruises Olivia where did you get the bruises?" Calvin demanded as he took another step towards her. This time though he grabbed her arm so that she couldn't pull away from him.

Liv didn't even think when she had walked out of the studio to check on the bruises of course the make-up would have worn off considering the work out she had just done. And her hair was piled in a messy bun on top of her head. She mentally kicked herself as she pulled her arm from his hold.

"It's nothing. I just..."

"Don't say that. There finger marks." Liv didn't know what to say. He was right they were finger marks and she knew that Calvin was never going to believe her if she tried to tell him any different. So she didn't bother, there was no point.

"It's not what you think." Liv finally relented, she had to tell him something. "I was at this club some guy got handsy when I told him I wasn't interested..." She motioned to her neck.

"Who?" He spat angrily at her.

"I don't know...he was just a guy. The security sorted it. It was fine..." Liv could tell that he was becoming more and more pissed off and that wasn't a good thing. She did not need this man getting up into business. She rested her hand on his arm, hoping that the gesture would ease him slightly. "I'm fine."

"You've got bruises on your neck that ain't fine."

"It could have been worse." Calvin shook his head. He hated the thought of any man laying hands on a woman, but when the woman in question just happened to be his nieces favorite dance teacher it made him angry to the core.

"I don't like it. The guy needs to pay for what he's done to you." Yeah he does. Liv thought to herself.

"Thank you for that. But I just want to forget about it." Calvin nodded. He didn't believe her bullshit story about it being some stranger in a club laying hands on her but he got the feeling he wasn't going to get anything more out of her and he didn't need to.

"A'right. So you back for good, cos as you can tell Kayla really misses your classes."

"Sorry but this is just a short stay."

"Shame." Liv shrugged. "Well I better get back to my girl make sure she ain't OD'd on sugar. My sister will kill me." Liv smiled at him, she could just imagine Kayla running around screaming driving her mum nuts. Most people would hate the thought but Liv would love to have the experience of it. "You Okay?"Liv eyes shot back to Calvin, realising that she must have been staring into space.

"Yeah. Well it was nice to see you again Calvin, and Kayla. Will you give her my love?"

"Course." Liv bent down to pick up her bag but as she went to walk away she was surprised when he grabbed her again. "You know you ever got a problem you can always ask. I'll help ya out." Liv pulled away from him, again making sure she put some distance between them. This conversation needed to end.

"That's not necessary."

"Well hopefully I'll see you again." Liv gave him a light lip smile before walking back down the street towards her apartment. Again kicking herself. She just seemed to keep getting herself into a bigger mess by the day.

Calvin turned his back on her as he pulled out his cell and dialed a very familiar number.

"Hello."

"Lee. It's Laroy. I need you to run a check on an Olivia Harding." Calvin watched her retreating form. He was going to get to the bottom of this one way or another.

Liv walked into her living room towel drying her hair. She was tired and right now all she wanted to do was down a couple of glasses of vodka and go to bed, and she was just pulling the bottle of vodka out of the freezer when someone started banging on her door making her almost drop the bottle to the floor.

She stood there her heart raising until she heard his voice. Placing the bottle on the side she rushed to the front door basically ripping it off it's hinges in her haste to open the door.

"Koz..." She threw herself into his arms and hugged him tightly. God she had missed him. He and Tig had spent the best part of two months inside for that stupid bullshit felon with a weapon charge Felps had charged them with then he went on a series of runs so Liv hadn't seen him in a while and she had really missed him. Plus she needed her best friend right now.

"Missed me?" He laughed wrapping his arm around her waist as she gave him a crushing hug. He had defiantly missed something, she was never normally like this.

"You have no idea." Finally letting go of him Liv headed down the hall Kozik following closely behind her. As Liv rounded the counter to the kitchen she made sure to pull her damp hair over her shoulders. She hadn't bothered trying to cover the bruises because as far as she was concerned she wasn't planning on doing anything but crawling into bed alone...again. "Drink?"

"Sure."

"All I've got is Vodka."

"That's fine Darlin'."

Kozik watched her carefully as she poured them both a glass. He was more than a little surprised when Jax had explained to him what had happened between her and Happy four days ago. Last he knew the pair were as tight as ever, just like the old days but something had obviously changed.

He tried to get Hap to talk about but to be honest he didn't even know what had gotten into her. All he said was that she couldn't deal with staying at the clubhouse any longer. Kozik could understand that and he knew Happy did he could see it, but he was shocked that Happy had just let her go and apparently he wasn't willing to share why he had, but Kozik didn't need Happy to tell him why. He knew his brother meaning he knew all to well why he let her go and why he hadn't been to see her since. Kozik just couldn't believe this was happening again.

That was why he had come to see Liv. Kozik knew that it was an absolute waste of time and breath to try and get Happy to budge on this.

Accepting the glass that was being slid across the counter to him he took a drink as his eyes continued to give her the once over. He downed the rest of his drink.

"Thirsty?" Liv commented as she topped up his glass again. "So how come yo..."

"What's going on here Liv?" Kozik asked abruptly cutting her off. Liv took a sip of her own drink.

"You've seen Happy I take it."

"You leavin' him again?"

"No..."

"Then why are you here and your old man is in Charming? You know this shit ain't right." Liv shook her head. Yes she knew this shit wasn't right, she hated herself for what she was doing to Happy but all she needed was a couple more days for the bruising to go down and she would go and see him and make all this shit right.

"Koz, please just stay out of this..." She sighed taking another long sip of her drink.

"Liv, your messin' with his head here."

"Koz...please...I'm not leaving him but I'm not going back there either. Just leave it." Liv shouted turning her back on him to place her now empty glass in the sink.

Kozik sighed running his hand over his face. This shit was worse than he first thought. He had come with the intention of either talking her round and making her see sense and therefore getting her ass back to Charming where it belonged with Happy or he was going to drag her ass back there kicking and screaming either way he had planned on her being back in Charming. But it didn't seem like that was going to happen. She seemed adamant that she hadn't left him but at the same time she was adamant that she wasn't coming back to Charming.

He looked at the clock on the wall he had to go. He needed to get back to Charming and sort out things for tonight. He wished he didn't. Getting to his feet he walked up behind, his arms stretching past her so that he could put his own glass in the sink.

"Look Liv if your really not leavin' him then go back to him. He needs you there Liv." He kissed the side of her head and made his way out of her small apartment.

When Liv heard the door close she let her tears fall. What was she doing? She was going to lose him. Happy had kept his distance from her, sure when she had called him every night he had answered but she hadn't seen him and it was killing her and now to hear Kozik tell her that, ask if she was leaving him again broke her heart. She didn't want Happy to think she was bailing on him again, she was actually doing this for him but she couldn't tell him that, she couldn't tell anyone. She was alone.

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