IV Interrogation and Remorse
Secret P.O.W
I'm blameworthy, the tingling feeling of regret is running through my veins. I feel cold ;naked; violated;like a woman's fear of getting pregnant after
being exposed to unprotected sex. I done the crime, I done wrong, I failed my sister. If only I hadn't been so selfish.
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The hospital nurse now just let us in to see Rosy, or should I say me in. Mum and dad are unaware of the whole situation they left 2 hours ago to go and get a coffee from the hospital cafeteria like 30 seconds away. yeah right I bet there at it again there always at it, probably in one of the restrooms well it wouldn't be the first time they were caught having sex in public. They used to do it all the time drop us at the park no matter if it was pouring rain or icy snow, they would go behind the tree or do it on a park bench. one time when me and Rosy were 5 we were left in charge of our baby brother in his pram so they could go into the public toilet and do it, it was only next to Tesco; long story short the pram rolled off into the road a lot of chaos was caused the emergency police were delayed everything was Chios; when we got home we received the beating of our lives black and blue I'm talking stage 3 hard core beatings on a scale of one to ten the pain was twenty. The agonizing pain was excruciating, our inflamed skins were raw the pain were all at once acute, chronic and severe; Our torcherous mother would have finished us if it wasn't for the sound of dads car coming home from work. My head was tender and sore she had us down to our very last breath, and for what because she owed compensation to all those people involved in the accident because that's worth killing your children over, money, James wouldn't stop crying so she also gave him what for. The social were going to let her keep custody of little James she just had to confess and say she was sorry, but it was to much for her she had to cause a Sean in the end they took James, hope they found him a good home you know with him having down syndrome being premature and all in the end they wanted to take me and Rosy to, but mum convinced them we had died in the accident they had a funeral for us and everything, mum paid of these doggy dealers who made the funeral seem so realistic wow. Till this day there are still some so called family members we don't get to see because the think we are dead like big mouth great aunt Georgia, you can probably guess why we haven't seen her, she all up in your business. Last week, while we were making breakfast when she surprisedly turned up to our doorstep but because our kitchen had no curtains mum stuffed us into a cupboard we were In there for a good 7 or 8 hours, not because Aunt great Georgia was there for that long, infact she left after half an hour but simply because mum couldn't be bothered to tell us the coast was clear
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It's just eating me up inside, tearing me apart to know where unloved by our own mother, when dad finds out our whore mum cheated on him he will hate me, trust me this is not the first time he has drawn close to a kid only to dash it away when he found out it wasn't his. Mums also well known for getting rid of kids like another sex story time, this time in the shopping center lift we were 8 Rosy walked out the center lift and a man run off with her. The security guard ran the place down to get Rosy back while I just stood there crying my eyes out the whole time mum was making out with dad and when the security guard returned with Rosy mum made a slacy comment I will never forget that comment "I can always have kids", and I bet she could whore.
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You're probably wondering why I put all this blame on mum, well she knows exactly what she is doing whereas dad was born with a savior case of a condition called bipolar. Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy, activity levels, and the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks. He also suffers from dementia that this simply means he forgets things very easily but it is not savior. Sometimes I think he can do more than he does to stop mum he does nothing when she Is goes mad he must be able to think straight because he always manages to gives her pleasure, then again I don't suffer from anything just eczema but that's about it me and rosy both actually, Rosy suffers from anxiety but I am fine.
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Another thing your probably wondering why in this day and age have I brought all this it's because I was thinking about how we lost James or should I say Jeremiah mum called him James because she forgot his real 's the same thing with Rosy say if she does you know pass away then what happens next will she be forgotten or what, because if she was I'll be able to forgive myself for that. We said we would grow up become the best team in the league be legends, bigger than Michael Jackson or Whitney Houston, cute cars, handsome husbands, magnificent mansions, how fantastic would that be.
X
Mum and dad were back, Visiting time was over an hour ago, I was waiting outside the whole time in the freezing cold. The car was taking away because the insurance bill was over 6 months overdue and we had been expecting balifs so we were informed not to answer the house door unless we had been notified by visitors they were coming, no one really ever visited us so we just didn't answer the door. With that being said and all were going to take a type of public transport called the bus which is wired I have never been on the Bus we talking the P13 because we live in Peckham.
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The bus Journey was horrible worst experience ever I have never been so embarrassed in my life, I am home now and I am going to tell you all about it. Mum sat there gawking at me the finally grabs me by the skirt and begins to integrate me.
"It was you wasn't it"
I was petrified and completely clueless of what she talking about just shake my head terrorized with horror, you may think that after all those brutal attacks I should have got used to It, well the truth is each time she torments us it just builds more stress, I just live in my own fantasy world so she is like an intruder trying to renew my happiness which doesn't go down well with my fantasy world government, with that being said there only fantasy so they don't have a lot of say, I think my fantasy world is what keeps me normal if that makes any sense, let's continue the story.
"You did it didn't you, just like you did it to Jeremiah".
What? Still puzzled at this moment. Everyone one staring people were chuckling and pointing some minded their own business but you can tell they were bothered, so at this point I have my head down In dismay.
"You're a bad breed I've phoned the police, you know that you were a mistake!"
I knew I was a mistake that's why it hit me so hard.
"I hate you, how could you think that I would do anything to hurt my sister and as for Jeremiah " I paused and took a deep breath.
"If you hadn't been shoving his dick up yours you would still have custody of your son,it's better that he's in a home because at least there couldn't be as bad as here, with you". I yelled all this before scurrying through the doors as it started to open.
I am back home I knew in any moment now they could walk through that door and I was expecting a beating of a lifetime.
X
I didn't mean any of that stuff I said about Jeremiah even though things here are rough he would have been better off with his sisters. What if he becomes one of those messed up care kids you know who's gonna protect him from getting raped or abused, I hope his home Is good I think about him every day poor Jeremy. If I get beat for this, well I will there's no doubt about it, I know It was worth it I had to stand my ground say my piece. The thought that I would ever harm anyone for whatever reason is beyond me, especially people as close to me as my brother and sister I'm a lover not a fighter, what I ever do to deserve this, a accept I may have not physically touched Rosy but I messed with her mentally and that's worse. If that evil woman kills me this time at least I deserved it, but I didn't deserve to die If I am dead I am free, free from It all, I didn't deserve to be free I should suffer the consequences , well we will see what is meant to happen what the decision is, do I live or do I die If Rosy's dead then I'm going to kill myself so I can be with her, together forever, I miss my best friend.
X
There back I can hear the keys jangling fidgety there opening the door, I feel dark and empty like my life has hit a dead end and there's no turning back, I wish I could press rewind to before the injury I wish we could have our happy ending.
.twin
e exposed to unprotected sex. I done the crime, I done wrong, I failed my sister. If only I hadn't been so selfish.
X
The hospital nurse now just let us in to see Rosy, or should I say me in. Mum and dad are unaware of the whole situation they left 2 hours ago to go and get a coffee from the hospital cafeteria like 30 seconds away. yeah right I bet there at it again there always at it, probably in one of the restrooms well it wouldn't be the first time they were caught having sex in public. They used to do it all the time drop us at the park no matter if it was pouring rain or icy snow, they would go behind the tree or do it on a park bench. one time when me and Rosy were 5 we were left in charge of our baby brother in his pram so they could go into the public toilet and do it, it was only next to Tesco; long story short the pram rolled off into the road a lot of chaos was caused the emergency police were delayed everything was Chios; when we got home we received the beating of our lives black and blue I'm talking stage 3 hard core beatings on a scale of one to ten the pain was twenty. The agonizing pain was excruciating, our inflamed skins were raw the pain were all at once acute, chronic and severe; Our torcherous mother would have finished us if it wasn't for the sound of dads car coming home from work. My head was tender and sore she had us down to our very last breath, and for what because she owed compensation to all those people involved in the accident because that's worth killing your children over, money, James wouldn't stop crying so she also gave him what for. The social were going to let her keep custody of little James she just had to confess and say she was sorry, but it was to much for her she had to cause a Sean in the end they took James, hope they found him a good home you know with him having down syndrome being premature and all in the end they wanted to take me and Rosy to, but mum convinced them we had died in the accident they had a funeral for us and everything, mum paid of these doggy dealers who made the funeral seem so realistic wow. Till this day there are still some so called family members we don't get to see because the think we are dead like big mouth great aunt Georgia, you can probably guess why we haven't seen her, she all up in your business. Last week, while we were making breakfast when she surprisedly turned up to our doorstep but because our kitchen had no curtains mum stuffed us into a cupboard we were In there for a good 7 or 8 hours, not because Aunt great Georgia was there for that long, infact she left after half an hour but simply because mum couldn't be bothered to tell us the coast was clear
X
It's just eating me up inside, tearing me apart to know where unloved by our own mother, when dad finds out our whore mum cheated on him he will hate me, trust me this is not the first time he has drawn close to a kid only to dash it away when he found out it wasn't his. Mums also well known for getting rid of kids like another sex story time, this time in the shopping center lift we were 8 Rosy walked out the center lift and a man run off with her. The security guard ran the place down to get Rosy back while I just stood there crying my eyes out the whole time mum was making out with dad and when the security guard returned with Rosy mum made a slacy comment I will never forget that comment "I can always have kids", and I bet she could whore.
X
You're probably wondering why I put all this blame on mum, well she knows exactly what she is doing whereas dad was born with a savior case of a condition called bipolar. Bipolar disorder, also known as manic-depressive illness, is a brain disorder that causes unusual shifts in mood, energy, activity levels, and the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks. He also suffers from dementia that this simply means he forgets things very easily but it is not savior. Sometimes I think he can do more than he does to stop mum he does nothing when she Is goes mad he must be able to think straight because he always manages to gives her pleasure, then again I don't suffer from anything just eczema but that's about it me and rosy both actually, Rosy suffers from anxiety but I am fine.
X
Another thing your probably wondering why in this day and age have I brought all this it's because I was thinking about how we lost James or should I say Jeremiah mum called him James because she forgot his real 's the same thing with Rosy say if she does you know pass away then what happens next will she be forgotten or what, because if she was I'll be able to forgive myself for that. We said we would grow up become the best team in the league be legends, bigger than Michael Jackson or Whitney Houston, cute cars, handsome husbands, magnificent mansions, how fantastic would that be.
X
Mum and dad were back, Visiting time was over an hour ago, I was waiting outside the whole time in the freezing cold. The car was taking away because the insurance bill was over 6 months overdue and we had been expecting balifs so we were informed not to answer the house door unless we had been notified by visitors they were coming, no one really ever visited us so we just didn't answer the door. With that being said and all were going to take a type of public transport called the bus which is wired I have never been on the Bus we talking the P13 because we live in Peckham.
X.
The bus Journey was horrible worst experience ever I have never been so embarrassed in my life, I am home now and I am going to tell you all about it. Mum sat there gawking at me the finally grabs me by the skirt and begins to integrate me.
"It was you wasn't it"
I was petrified and completely clueless of what she talking about just shake my head terrorized with horror, you may think that after all those brutal attacks I should have got used to It, well the truth is each time she torments us it just builds more stress, I just live in my own fantasy world so she is like an intruder trying to renew my happiness which doesn't go down well with my fantasy world government, with that being said there only fantasy so they don't have a lot of say, I think my fantasy world is what keeps me normal if that makes any sense, let's continue the story.
"You did it didn't you, just like you did it to Jeremiah".
What? Still puzzled at this moment. Everyone one staring people were chuckling and pointing some minded their own business but you can tell they were bothered, so at this point I have my head down In dismay.
"You're a bad breed I've phoned the police, you know that you were a mistake!"
I knew I was a mistake that's why it hit me so hard.
"I hate you, how could you think that I would do anything to hurt my sister and as for Jeremiah " I paused and took a deep breath.
"If you hadn't been shoving his dick up yours you would still have custody of your son,it's better that he's in a home because at least there couldn't be as bad as here, with you". I yelled all this before scurrying through the doors as it started to open.
I am back home I knew in any moment now they could walk through that door and I was expecting a beating of a lifetime.
X
I didn't mean any of that stuff I said about Jeremiah even though things here are rough he would have been better off with his sisters. What if he becomes one of those messed up care kids you know who's gonna protect him from getting raped or abused, I hope his home Is good I think about him every day poor Jeremy. If I get beat for this, well I will there's no doubt about it, I know It was worth it I had to stand my ground say my piece. The thought that I would ever harm anyone for whatever reason is beyond me, especially people as close to me as my brother and sister I'm a lover not a fighter, what I ever do to deserve this, a accept I may have not physically touched Rosy but I messed with her mentally and that's worse. If that evil woman kills me this time at least I deserved it, but I didn't deserve to die If I am dead I am free, free from It all, I didn't deserve to be free I should suffer the consequences , well we will see what is meant to happen what the decision is, do I live or do I die If Rosy's dead then I'm going to kill myself so I can be with her, together forever, I miss my best friend.
X
There back I can hear the keys jangling fidgety there opening the door, I feel dark and empty like my life has hit a dead end and there's no turning back, I wish I could press rewind to before the injury I wish we could have our happy ending.
.twin