THE VOICE INSIDE
AN: I'd have an incy wincy bit on writers block this week, I did do "Hit me Harder Cupid" and "Send It On", so it's not like I haven't wrote anything! Guess what! My Bunny is becoming healthy again and now I can't catch him! He's like a rocket, I spent half an hour chasing him round our Living Room (even though it was quite funny). Sorry for any mistakes, I should probably get a Beta, but I can't be bothered lol :D
Dedicated to "Waiting For Him" for being INSANELY awesome and give me my 100th review for "The Path To Enlightenment". You Rock! ANNNNNNDDD also to Alex (AnimeLovinKiDD) for getting me the Starstruck soundtrack, how insanely awesome can you be? It's not our in England so I would have had to wait for FOREVER, So I loveee you :D lol
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Chapter 4- A Question For You
Previously
"I have a question for you." He told me, trying to act casual. Looks like there was a new option, and that option was D) talk Marshall out of dating my Mom!
I had a feeling I was not going to like this question...
"Uhm, what's the question Marshall?" I asked hesitantly, maybe he'd get the picture that I didn't want him to ask me about my Mum!
Marshall looked at me with suspicious eyes. "What's up with Zora? She's not her usual self at all."
Oh thank God! "Uh, oh yeah! She told Tween Weekly that Chad had a thing for me and I got a bit upset." I admitted, putting a strand of hair behind my ear.
Marshall considered me for a minute. "Did she say that you had a thing for him?" What's the problem? Chad does have a thing for you!
I gritted my teeth. "She didn't exactly say I had a thing for him, but still ... Chad likes pretty, popular girls who hang on his every word ... not me." I ended, defeated. Couldn't he see that Zora broadcasting Chad's "love" for me was just gonna end in distaster?
Marshall pulled me into a one-arm hug. "Don't be daft kiddo, you are pretty." Like your Mum. "You're definitely popular, just look at how much the ratings have gone up since you came here." He ruffled my hair playfully. "And you listen to me, I may not be young and hip ... but I'm not blind. The way that boy acts around you, it's different from how he acts towards the hundreds of girls he's actually dated. As I said before the two of you are magic."
I shook my head, biting my lip. "That's the point, hundreds! Hundreds of girls! Sure, he's interested now, I'm different to those Barbie-wannabes ... but what about when he gets bored of me too?" I cannot be one of those girls that Chad dumps by text. The whole Tween Weekly thing was encouraging our relationship, but I know Chad. I know that after two days together he'd be on to chasing the next girl, that's what upset me.
"Well, sometimes you have to take the risk..." Marshall said ruefully, looking away. Like I need to take the risk with Connie, okay, just ask Sonny if her Mum's single ... that can't be TOO hard.
Oh God? What do I say when he asks?!
I turned to make a break for it when he pulled me back by the shoulder. "Uh, Sonny before you go ... I was wondering if there's been," he coughed nervously "any ... possible step-dads in the picture?" He rubbed the back of his neck, not looking me in the eye.
Think of a way to let him down gently Sonny! "Uh ... why?" Oh great, that's all I can think of 'Uh... why?' I bet I'd do just great if I was ever taken hostage.
Marshall flushed. "Uh, you know, I'm just thinking about you..." Why can't I just ask Connie out?!
I sighed. He wasn't a bad guy and if he'd make my Mum happy, then who was I to stand in their way?
"Look Marshall, do you want me talk to my Mum?" Marshall could be good for her I suppose, I mean she hasn't had anyone since Dad died and dating could do her some good.
Marshall coughed awkwardly. "Talk to her about what kid?" Do I tell Sonny I like her Mum or will she hate me?
I gave a small grin. "Talk to her about how much you like her." I nudged him playfully.
I'd never seen anyone go as red. "Uhm, what? Your Mum, I-" How does she know?! I wonder if Connie knows...
"I know you like her. And I'm pretty sure she does too." I assured him.
Marshall looked at me carefully. "Are you okay with it?"
No! Not really. You're one of the nicest guys I've ever met but no one is ever gonna replace my Dad. "Sure. If anyone was gonna treat her right it'd be you." I smiled. At least that bit was true.
He smiled too. "Thanks kid, that means a lot."
"Uh, Marshall, could you go and see if Tawni's okay? She's a bit upset, I'll handle Nico." If Marshall looked after Tawni I could sort Nico out first, go yell at Chad and see if Zora was okay without worrying about Tawni.
"Sure kid, what's up with Nico?"
"It's a lo-ong story." I hinted. "I really have to go and clear the air though. Catch you later?"
He agreed.
*
"Grady, come on let me through!" I pushed against Grady (who was wearing a security costume from a previous sketch) again but he held firm.
Grady pulled some paper from his leather jacket and began to read through his sunglasses. "To Sonny, I have never and will never be interested in pursuing a relationship with you. Therefore in future I would appreciate it if you would not tell Drama-snobs that I have said things I haven't. Yours Sincerely, Nico." Wow, really does help!
Right, if he's not gonna let me through there's only one thing to do. "So I can't see him?"
Grady folded his arms, his black sunglasses perched on his nose. "Nope." Wow, this security guard costume is so cool.
"So you can't move from this spot?" I asked curiously.
"Nope." I wonder if I could go back in time to see the invention of dairy-cheese...
Cheese! That's the way to get rid of him. "That's a shame ... I hear they're doing a new Fro-Yo flavour with cheese in the Canteen." I told him wistfully.
What? Grady had ran away faster then I could blink. Ew, who would eat Fro-Yo with cheese in it anyway? Blegh!
Before Grady could have realised the cheese had gone, which would be pretty soon by how fast he was running, I pushed the door open.
"Hey Du-" Nico spun his Dressing Room chair to see me, and immediately stopped his greeting of 'Dude' to Grady. "Sonny, how did you get in here?" Ugh, I knew I should of hired Zora.
I approached him cautiously. "Look Nico, this has been a HUGE misunderstanding-"
"You're darn right! Why the hell did Chad come here and start threatening me to stay away from you?! I've never told Grady or anyone else that I like you!" I only thought it briefly!
"I know, I know! Chad just got the wrong idea, when I said someone liked me I meant," Think of someone quick! Er, who have you seen today besides Chad? Uhhhh.... "Josh! Josh the mail-guy, it's him who likes me and Chad thought I meant you!" Why can't I stop digging myself a bigger hole?!
Nico frowned. "Josh the mail-guy likes you?" That would be one freaky couple...
"Uh, yeah." Why can't I stop the lying? "I told Chad it was someone who works close by and he automatically assumed it was you..."
Nico stood from his chair, put his bib on the side-table and walked slowly over to me. "Have you explained to Chad that I don't like you?" He asked slowly.
I shook my head. "No, not yet. I came straight here when I heard what had happened."
"So we're cool? And you know that we're just friends, right?" Hopefully this means she knows we're just friends!
I nodded my head happily. "Friends?"
"Friends." He agreed, and pulled me into a friendly hug.
"I thought I told you to stay away from her!" Came a scream-y voice from the doorway, it sounded a bit like the screaming over the kiss-cam.
We both let go to see an angry Chad fuming at the doorway.
Grady ran in behind him, panting. "Sonny! There is no cheese flavour! YOU LIED!" He accused, pointing his finger at me.
Oh great, this is just fan-tast-ic. "Look I-"
"SONNY! How could you? Jessie doesn't have a girlfriend!" Tawni Hart screeched, pushing her way past Grady and Chad.
In behind her came a soaked Jessie, I bet Tawni had gone and dumped the water on his head. Was it wrong that I was quite happy about that?
Marshall came in next, Zora stumbling after him. "Sonny! How could you shout at poor Zora?"
Zora came in behind him, fake-sobbing. Next time I will tell Tween Weekly that Sonny likes Chad too! If that's all the thanks I get.
Chad fumed, approaching Nico. "I thought I told you to stay away from her! Now you're hugging her!! She doesn't even like you! She told me so!"
"Dude I never said I did like her!" Nico yelled back. "It's Josh the mail-guy that likes her not me!"
What? How many people can like Sonny in one fricking day?! "NO! She told me that she heard you tell Grady!" Chad fought back.
Oh great. One more person mad at me.
Nico frowned. "Sonny I didn't tell Grady I liked you!"
"Sonny I have the right to know that Jessie doesn't have a girlfriend-"
"Did Nico say that he liked you or not?! What the hell with Josh the-"
"Tawni dumped water on my head because of you-"
"How could you make poor Zora cry-"
"Cheese is serious! You shouldn't lie about those things!"
"If I wanna date a bad boy then it's my choice!"
"Were you just trying to make me jealous with Nico? Really Sonny, really?!"
"I didn't even put anything bad about you in the article, just Chad!"
"STOP IT!" I couldn't even hear anyone's thoughts anymore with all of this noise.
"Grady I'm sorry but I had to apologise to Nico! Tawni, Jessie is a complete jerk! He would break your heart. Chad, it's none of your business who I date! Just get over yourself. Zora, I'm sorry, I over-reacted, I apologise. Jessie, I'm sorry Tawni chucked water on your head. Anyone else?"
Everyone looked at me with expressions akin to shock.
*Insert awkward silence here*
Grady coughed first. "Well I suppose I could mix some cheese with some plain Fro-Yo so it's not big deal for me ... wait a minute. That's an awesome idea!!" With that idea Grady raced out of the room.
One down.
"Dude that it gen-ius!" Nico cheered. I need to get to the Canteen quick! Nico approached Chad in a more friendly way."Look Chad, I have no feelings towards Sonny whatsoever, she's a really great gal, but we're just buds, a'ight?"
Chad looked at him strangely. "That why were you-"
Ugh, this idiot needs to get a grip. "Yo-ow Chip! G has just invented Cheese Fro-Yo, so just except my apology!" Nico told him frantically.
"Fine." Chad said grumpily.
Nico gave a grin, now approaching me. "We're cool, right?"
I breathed a sigh of relief. "Yes very cool."
"I would hug ya, but ya know what Drama Queen over there is like." Nico gave a wink and I chuckled. "Mind if I-"
"Go!" I told him with a chuckle, pushing him out of the door.
"Drama king!" Chad shouted after him.
Two down.
Jessie came forward, shaking water from his hair. "I really have better things to do then listen to this rubbish."
Tawni frowned. "But Jessie-"
Jessie turned to her. "Look Tawni you're really pretty and all but I-I just think that we want different things." Yeah, like I want seven girlfriends at once ... and you want one boyfriend.
Zora approached him. "Beat it!" She screamed.
Jessie raised an eyebrow.
I sent a look of pleading towards Chad and he caught it. "Dude, if I were you I'd listen to freaky kid, she will seriously die your hair green in the night." Darn Sonny making me do nice things for her.
Jessie listened to Chad, leaving the room without a glance back.
Three down.
Tawni sighed. "Why do I always pick the idiots?"
Marshall put an arm around her, which she surprisingly didn't shrug off. "Sweetie, sometimes there are always gonna be guys like that, but you're gonna find someone who is gonna treat you right."
Bam! That's why he should date my Mom.
Tawni sniffled a little. "I suppose, thanks Marshall."
Marshall rubbed his hands together. "Right so is everyone okay now? Can I get back to work?"
Everyone nodded, including Zora.
"Right well come see me if you kids need to anything." Marshall told us, leaving as well.
Four Down.
Zora shuffled forward. "Uh, Sonny? I'm ... sorry about-"
I shushed her. "Don't be silly, I mean, it's not true, but I suppose it was more about Chad than me."
Chad gasped. Did weird kid tell Tween Weekly those things?!
Chad turned to Zora in shock. "It was YOU?" Chad asked Zora. "It was YOU who told Tween Weekly those lies?!" All of my cast have been making fun of me because of this little kid!
Okay, that hurt.
"Pfft, lies? Have you seen the way you look at her? I may be eleven, but I'm not blind." Zora squared up to him.
The two looked as if they were about to come to blows. Tawni rolled her eyes and placed herself in the middle of them, combing her hair with her fingers.
"Okay, okay, calm down. Zora, stop spying on us for Tween Weekly. Chad, you obviously do like Sonny so stop complaining, now is everyone happy?"
"NO!" Shouted a frustrated Chad. "I don't like Sonny! I hate her, so stop insisting that I do like her! I hate all of you idiots!"
Tawni and Zora looked to him, shocked by his outburst.
Okay, so I had an inkling that he disliked me, but hate? But if he hated, then why did he care when I was hurt? Why was he jealous of Nico and Jessie and even Bart?! Why did he think I was cute? Why did he run after me? Why was the room spinning? I hated him.
Tawni and Zora ganged up on him.
"You Fool!" Zora pokes him in the chest. This moron is worse than Holloway!
"How could you say that after everything-" Tawni started to add.
I cut her off with a wave of my hand. Don't cry Sonny, don't cry, especially over three-named jerks that hate you. "N-no it's fine. I just n-need to g-go ... somewhere." I had to get out of that room, quickly.
Ugh what an idiot! I've heard of denial but this is something else. "Chad you are an even bigger jerk than I thought." I heard Tawni screech at him as I walked as slowly (and casually) out of the room as I could.
"Sonny, wait!" Chad yelled after me.
I didn't wait.
For some reason Chad's outburst had hurt me more now than it ever would have before, hearing his thoughts had somehow set me up for a fall. For some reason, I had secretly believed that stupid article saying that he had a new look in his eye just for me, for some reason I had actually believed that Chad Dylan Cooper had actually liked me, a country girl from Wisconsin.
How stupid can you get?
As soon as I was over the threshold I broke into a sprint. I just needed to be alone for just a little while. Away from being hated, away from hearing people think one thing, then say another thing.
"Sonny!" Chad's voice was getting further away now.
I was glad.
I shut my dressing room door behind me and locked it. Glad that I was finally alone. When I was feeling like this there was only one person I could call.
I picked up my phone and started to ring the only person who could calm me down.
*RING* *RING* *RING*
"Sonny is that you?"
I sighed. "Luce. I really need to talk to you."
"Sure, just let me take this upstairs. Be right back."
"Kay."
The door of the dressing room knocked loudly. I stayed silent, marching over to the other door and locking that one too.
"Sonny?" Came Chad's voice. "Come on, I know you're in there, just open up." Come on, open the door, open up, open up.
"Chad, get away from the door! Sonny's my friend, now let me talk to her!" Tawni started to arguing with him. I bet she's heartbroken.
I put the phone back to my ear.
"Sonny? Sonny? Hello-ooo? Sonny?"
"Sorry Luce, I'm just having a hard time is all." I sighed again, combing my hair through my fingers.
"Sonny! Open up! It's Tawni." Tawni knocked on the door, louder than before. Surely she'll open up for me.
"What's up Sonny?" A concerned Lucy asked. Here is where I can tell someone, someone who understands me.
"Try the other door!" I heard Chad instruct Tawni. "Sonny, come on, open up ... please!" I cannot believe I just said please.
"Lucy I've had the worst day. I just really need someone to talk to."
"Aww, Sonny what happened?" Came a concerned Lucy's voice.
"Sonny I'm gonna break this door down if you don't answer right now! I've done it to your Apartment door before so don't think I wouldn't do it to your Dressing Room d-"
"Hang on a sec Luce, I just need to get rid of someone."
I swung the door open to see a flustered Chad still ranting at me.
"Hey Chad, what's up?" The more casual I acted, the quicker I'd get rid of the jerk.
Chad frowned. "Uh, hey." Why isn't she yelling at me?
"SONNY! Open up now! Tawni Hart commands you!" Came a screeching Tawni from the other door.
I skipped over, pulled it open and gave a fake-smile. "Hey Tawni! What's up?"
Tawni's brows furrowed. "Why aren't you mad? Or crying? Or something dramatic?"
I picked up my phone and put it to my ear. "Hey Lucy, this is gonna take longer than I thought. Call you in a few?"
"Sure Sonny, make sure you do though! Call me soon!" Lucy hung up and I did too.
"So, what's the dilly?" I said jokingly, looking to Chad with a wink.
Tawni cocked her head to the side. Sonny if you can here my thoughts the talk to me! "Sonny, what are the two things I like the most?"
I frowned. "You being right and me being wrong?"
Tawni glared at me. If you can hear me say 'the eye of a goldfish'.
"The eye of a goldfish?" I asked, confused.
Chad looked at the two of us suspiciously. "What is going on here?"
Sonny listen to me, he doesn't hate you, okay? Tawni stared at me silently.
"He does." I said quietly. "I was stupid for ever thinking he didn't."
"Stupid for thinking what?" Chad asked, confused. Do these girls have some sort of secret girl talk or something?
Time to drop the pretence. "No one's ever said they hated me before." I said quietly, biting my lip.
Tawni stayed silent. Want me to leave?
"You don't have to." I told her, looking to her.
"No I should." Then Tawni Hart left the room and I was left alone with him.
AN: AHHHH! How AWESOME was Sterling Knight in Starstruck?! I was practically SWOOOOOONING :D And "Something about the sunshine", I cannot STOP singing it :D It's sooo about Sonny lol ;D Still I'm glad Jess/Christopher didn't kiss because we NEED a Channy kiss first.
I have SO much work to do for school, cheer me up with a review? :)
-Everafterjunkie