The situation you were in felt significantly awkward. Things had changed so fast it felt like something that would happen in a 14 year olds fan fiction.
"heyyy… uhm...fuck" you reached up and lightly pushed his head up to look at you "do uh… do you need to talk about it?"
Reaper gazed with no answer. You wished this edgelord of a man would answer already instead of hesitating for eons. Clearing your throat, you dropped your hand from his head and moved downwards to the floor, scooting under his arms and slowly backing away to sit in your bed. Awkwardly you patted the spot next to you.
It was weird to be attacked by this ghostly man and then have him have somewhat of a break down. The Talon member looked at you, moving over to sit down next to you. Maybe a little too close in your taste so you hopped over a few to put space between.
"so uh.. what's got you so bummed…" you held your gaze with the wall in front of you across the room.
"You." he responded immediately for once.
"and what about me…"
"You made me think."
What a weird response. Wouldn't someone normally be thinking? However your thoughts cut off when he spoke again.
"Why didn't you chose a side?" Reaper sat still with his mask facing the wall across the room.
"Are you talking about with the commanders… like… 9 or 10 years ago?"
"Yeah" a quick rough reply was grunted out from the man.
"How do you know about that?" you asked.
"I asked first." his tone was commanding.
"jeeze fine." you hung your head to look at your lap "I'm neutral. I worked with both commanders and i believed they were very good at their jobs. Commander Morrison was more..friendly and could bring the best out in people but Commander Reyes smart, skilled, and experienced in his work. He was highly and easily respected. I mean shit, I know for a fact Commander Morrison highly valued the man's opinion and advice in situations. Both were so brilliant as a team!" you hesitated, noticing Reaper got tense at the mention of Morrison.
"I wanted them to realize each other's skills and work as a team. Not as two commanders fighting for the same position. I didn't want to have any part of their fight because it wasn't my fight. They started it and i wanted it to end but…" the memory of the explosion caused to to choke on the last word. You had to clear your throat and pause.
"I wish I had stayed back rather than go home. Sometimes i wish i could go back in time and stop the explosion from killing both." you lied about both being dead. As far as you knew only Morrison had survived.
Reaper remained quiet, lulling over your words. You had given more than needed but what did it matter. Now you wanted to make things right and fight for the original reasons of Overwatch. You wanted to protect people.
"Join Talon." you felt the man's hand on your shoulder. It was surprisingly gentle which was odd to you. You looked at him with a sarcastic expression.
"Yeah sure! I totally want to join the organization that's out to kill my friends. You know… find them all at the end of my barrel." you stood up and rubbed your face.
" you are so insensitive. Oh my god." you turned and pointed stiff hands at him "what drugs are you on?"
Reaper was a little shocked at your response.
"You're just like Commander Reyes. Trying his best and doing it but being a bit insensitive to certain situations." you rubbed your face. Reaper stood up and carefully picked his way closer to you.
"ug that man…" you turned away from Reaper as he stood up "You know I had the biggest crush on him despite his minor flaws. I mean everyone has them. Everyone makes mistakes." you had gone on a tangent, not noticing Reaper now being right by you. You threw your hands in the air, ignoring the grunt from the mercenary.
"That man was cute but he was a co worker! And a bit of a dick at times but he was pretty kind and really cool." remembering someone you were fond of now being dead caused a few tears to slip down your face but you ignored them.
"You had a crush on me?" Reaper's voice was soft and in a whisper for once. Immediately he regretted what he said as you whipped around and stared at him.
"What…" you squinted at him, lost " are you saying…no i don't believe you." a heavy frown set on your face.
Reaper reached to your face and wiped the stray tears with a cooled metal claw. His other reached up to his mask, gently pulling it away.
"C-Commander…What happened to you…"