I was so proud that my dad was finally happy with me again. I quickly finished my snack, grabbed my laptop and went up to my room to repack to go to Nicole's. I logged on to P.C.A.s message board once again, and left my laptop open on my desk. I also opened my music player, "Music Mania" and started to play the song "Unfaithful" by Rhianna….it was exactly how I was feeling at that moment.
(A/N: Again, I don't own the screennames)
Boop you've got a message from PCAChase
Quickly, I ran to my laptop and read the message.
PCAChase says: Zoey, I know I'm not talking to you right now, but I wanted to let you know (and I've given this a lot of thought), that if I can't be your boyfriend, then I don't want to be anything. Bye. –Chase.
PCAChase has signed off
I was shocked. I must have read that message 10 times before those words actually made a connection. I couldn't believe Chase was putting me through this. I needed him. I loved him. But, why was I so scared to make a commitment to him. I needed Chase. I printed that message and I decided to show it to Nicole when she came to pick me up on Saturday. I only had two days until she came. I wondered how I was going to survive because this summer just kept of getting worse. And, there was another month and a half of it to go!
I went to be early for the next two days. I only came out of my room to eat and to go to the bathroom. I lied to my parents about why I was spending so much time in my room. I didn't want them to know that I was upset about Chase. I messed up, and now he'll never forgive me. He doesn't want to be friends with me anymore….I messed up. I messed up really badly….