I felt at home in his arms , i felt safe I snuggled up into his chest his steady heartbeat calmed me.
I felt his lips press onto my forehead.
"may I ask you say something?" he murmured into my hair
"anything" I said his aftershave was intoxicating in a good way
"why didn't you say goodbye to me" I could hear the pain
"what?" I leaned back in his arms so I could see his face
"everyone else got a goodbye except me" I instantly knew what he was talking about I had said goodbye to everyone in theyre own way before I left but no one realized I was saying goodbye till I had gone I hadn't said goodbye to dimitri.
"it was too hard" I tried to explain
"of course because saying goodbye to 5 peoples too much goodbye , goodbye ,goodbye ,goodbye ,goo… my god its physically impossible" he yelled at me
I broke out of him embrace and marched off I needed to go somewhere , anywhere away from him.
After walking for five minutes I had realized two things one this place hadn't changed a bit and two I was at dimitris door. Without knocking I threw open the door slamming it shut behind me so loudly that it probably could have been heard all over the campus.
"you wanna know why I didnt say goodbye" I yelled at him ,he was sitting in a armchair reading a western novel which he slowly put down as he looked up at me "because it was too hard , it was too hard if I had said goodbye to you I wouldn't of left ," tears formed in my eyes "why do you care anyway you didn't want me dimitri" the tears spilled down my cheeks I stood there sobbing in the middle of dimitris room. He walked over to me slowly like I was some deer he could spook . He dragged me towards the chair he had just been sitting on and pulled me onto his lap. H wrapped his arms around me and rested his chin on my head.
"shhhhh" he soothed me over and over gently stroking my arm and hair. "its okay"
We sat like that for ages saying nothing just enjoying each others presence