RPOV
"You're what?" Surely I had heard her wrong because I could swear it sounded like she said she was…
"I'm married, Rob." she repeated it, the same thing I'd heard the first time. What the hell?
"What? Why didn't you mention that before? Or hell, why did you give me your number at all? You're not even wearing a ring, you know? How was I supposed to know?" My head was swimming…no, more like drowning, I couldn't make sense of anything. I had been thinking things were one way and now they were all another. What was going on?
"I never wear a ring, I just don't. I was just messing around when I gave you my number. I never thought you'd actually call. I mean I really glad you did, I just wasn't expecting it. I'm sure you get girls numbers all the time, why would you call me? And I didn't mention this sooner because…well it didn't come up."
"Uh I think you should have made it come up! It's kind of important, you know. How can you be married?" Way to go, Rob. You really know how to pick them! Her hand attempted to place a comforting touch on my arm, but I flinched away. I didn't really mean to, but damn, she'd just dropped a bomb on me.
"Look Rob," she stood now and took my face in her hands, forcing me to look at her. God, she was beautiful. "I'm really sorry. I should have said something sooner. And I certainly never should have let things go as far as they did, but…but…"
"You couldn't stop, could you? You felt that too, didn't you?" My heart was about to beat out my chest waiting for her answer. I thought I was crazy for the connection I felt, but if she felt it too then maybe I was still sane. Of course, if she didn't then I'd feel like a fool…a crazy fool.
"How could I not?" She finally admitted, laughing nervously.
"Fuck." That was all I could come up with. I was at a loss for words. I didn't even know what to think let alone say at that point.
Kris sat back down next to me, her arm wrapped around my waist. I didn't shake it off this time. I placed my arm around her shoulder and we sat together, saying nothing, just being there…together. We'd only known each other for an insanely short amount of time, but our bond was undeniable. I'd never felt anything remotely like it. Is this was love, real love, is like? No, that couldn't be it. I couldn't love her, not now, not ever. She was already taken, already in love and loved by someone else. The thought caused an ache within me. If only I'd met her sooner, before she had been claimed by another. If only….
She squeezed me tightly as if she could read my thoughts and felt the same. I softly placed a kiss on her temple wishing I could keep her here for myself, but I couldn't. I had to send her away now. If she stayed any longer I'd have to have her, I wouldn't be able to resist, the pull was too strong. Every second she sat next to me my resolve was slowly breaking down. As much as I wanted her, wanted us to happen, I couldn't stand the thought of damaging her marriage or hurting her in any way.
"You have to go now." I said without looking her in the eyes, I wouldn't have been able to say it if I looked into her eyes.
"I know." She replied mournfully.
We stood together, never releasing each other as I walked her to the door. Neither of us knew what to say, if there was anything to be said, so we said nothing. We hugged each other tightly for a moment. When she pulled away I instantly felt cold and alone, like a part of me was missing, a part I didn't even know I had until just now. She lightly brushed her lips against mine and the she was gone.
That was is. That was goodbye. I didn't want it to be, but what was I supposed to do? Run after her? Tell her to leave her husband? I'd only known her for hours, I had no business saying anything like that. So I said nothing, did nothing, just let her leave.