Lying awake
My thoughts race
Millions of miles at a time
As if I'm in over-drive
When I want to stop.
How sad you must be
I realize
Shmee cackles
Lightning flashes
All alone
Without someone to
Hold or cry on
With only your voices.
Shmee disagrees
Saying I'll die
If I go out now
My instinct is to believe
The words he tells me
My heart screams
He's right
So does my head.
He is
I knew that the moment
I stepped out
The creaking door
Shivering.
I trudged on regardless
Headlights weren't on
The rain couldn't of been
Penetrated anyway
So I guess
I can live with this.
They rush out of their car
And it's my parents
Standing over me
With something indescribable
Shimmering in their eyes
But I know it's not love
But it's not relief either.
I think it's regret.
You're still alone
But now so am I.