Chapter 4

Lena was surprised at what Kara had just confessed and she was about to reply when the lab door opened. Lillian Luthor walked in with Charlotte wringing her hands behind her.

"Lena darling," Lillian greeted her daughter then smiled as she looked to Kara, "I'm surprised to see you here."

"I...I'm so sorry Ms. Luthor but she wouldn't take no for an answer and I couldn't stop her." Charlotte explained as she gave an ireful look to Lillian Luthor.

"It's all right, Charlotte you can go for the day. Just lock up and let security know." Lena replied waving her hand at the young woman.

Seeing the bandage on Lena's hand, she quickly grabbed her daughter's arm. "What happened?"

"Leave it Mother it's not like you're really concerned."

"Lena!" Lillian said aghast that her daughter spoke to her like that. "After everything that's happened you still feel that way? I was telling you the truth that day."

Lena looked down to take a moment. The two women she wanted to be close to had both told her that they love her and it was too much for her to take. It was too much to handle all at once and she feels as if she cannot breathe. "I have to go. I can't do this I can't be here with either of you." She stated before getting up quickly leaving the lab.

"What did you say to her?" Lillian asked Kara.

"How are you here? Shouldn't you be in prison?" Kara asked.

"I was pardoned if you recall and no one has taken it back, yet." Lillian replied with a smirk.

Kara only rolled her eyes then went after Lena.

Lena stopped at the elevator waiting for it to arrive at her floor. She can hear Kara calling for her to wait but she doesn't want to hear anything more. She can't. "Please Kara, don't do this. I heard what you had to say so please leave me alone now."

"Lena?"

The elevator doors open and Lena stepped in and turned around before pressing the button for the doors to close. Kara watched as the woman she just told that she loves disappear behind the closing doors. Standing there broken, Kara closed her eyes concentrating only on the sounds from inside the elevator knowing the woman she loves is crying.

Kara jumped when a hand rested on her shoulder. Looking at the hand then up, it was Lillian with a knowing look.

"She's angry and hurt. That means she knows who you are now doesn't she?"

"Yes, I came here to tell her but she found out before I could so yes she is angry and hurting." There was no way Kara was going to tell Lillian about their talk or how she feels about the woman's daughter.

Lillian sighed and made a gesture to Kara to return to the lab. "I think we should talk don't you?"

Reluctantly Kara followed the older woman back to the lab and closed the door. She knew she shouldn't be alone in a lead lined room with Lillian Luthor of all people but there was something different about her, something that made Kara curious and wanted to find out.

Lillian walked over to a stool, sat down, and gestured for Kara to do the same.

"So tell me Supergirl what are your intentions with my daughter?"

Usually the lab was Lena's go to place to get away from it all but now she finds herself in her car driving absentmindedly no real destination, no place to go.

Replaying Kara's words, 'we all have secrets; I know that I don't know everything about you. I am going to assume that there are things that you don't want me to know about and I'm okay with that...' in her mind over and over until she ends up at the cemetery.

She got out of her car and walked along the edge until she got to a gravel road to a newer section. She continued to walk until she got to lot 331 and there, the first tombstone was Adam, her test subject.

She sat on the bench across from him. Fresh flowers adorn the dark marble stone; she made sure that it was looked after for his family. She hasn't been here since a week after she killed him during her experiment.

"It's been awhile since I last visited you and I apologize for that. I would like to thank you for the information I gained from you because my experiment finally worked. Well I haven't found the actual cure for cancer so to speak but I've given humans super strength and it will cure whatever infliction one might have so I guess I have found the cure of sorts. Unfortunately, the wrong people got a hold of it and instead of helping, I, again only made things worse." Lena sighed as she looked down at her hands in her lap.

"My brother got a hold of it, took over the White House, and then almost killed everyone I care about. But as usual, no one could stop him so I had to."

She looked back at his headstone, "I'm not sure why I'm here but I needed to talk to someone and right now you're the only one I have. The person I care most about kept a major part of herself from me and I've been so angry with her because of it. So much so, I began to hate her and everyone around her. I couldn't believe the people who called me their friend would lie and keep this from me. Yet here I am a murderer, I conducted experiments on people and told no one. I created kryptonite and kept it a secret. I've kept so much from her and I have no right to be angry with her keeping who she is from me. I'm a hypocrite Adam."

"Yes, you are my dear," Lillian agreed as she stood beside the bench Lena was sitting on.

"Mother, what are you doing here? How did you find...? How did you know about...?"

"Eve reported everything to Lex, even about your test subject."

"Why are you here Mother? I said that I wanted to be alone."

"I thought you might want someone who you could actually converse with and give you some advice."

Lena huffed, crossed her arms, and then looked away from Lillian, "Well you're wrong I don't need anything or anyone especially you."

"Lena stop being so obstinate and let me be here for you for once." Lillian said softly. "I know I've been terrible to you since the day your Father brought you to our home but let me make it up to you now."

"To be honest I was a bit jealous of you, both Lex and I were. Lionel favoured you and took you under his wing so to speak and you thrived. Lex knew that one day you would do great things and he hated you for it. He knew you would be better than he was and you are."

"You are the good in our family, you balance us out. Lex and I didn't realize it then but we needed you; the world needs you after being subjected to the Luthor's reign of terror." Lillian told her.

"I don't feel like I'm a good person any longer. I have so much rage within me right now and it's not warranted. I am a hypocrite I've been so angry with Kara for lying all this time and I'm not sure what to do with it and now, now she tells me how she feels about me and I don't know how to feel any more. I don't think I want to feel anything I just want to shove it all into a box and file it away."

"Lena, be honest with me here and now. You've always known who Kara Danvers is. You've known all along but chose to ignore it. Don't tell me otherwise I know you."

"I didn't! How could I?" Lena protested.

"Lena, you are one of the most intelligent women in the world. How could you not know? The signs were there all along. She's not very good at lying and not subtle at all."

Lena let out a small laugh because it was true. She thought back to some of the things Kara had said and done making Lena realize maybe she had known all along. "She supposedly flew to my office on a bus." Lena chuckled remembering the odd things Kara would say and she wouldn't think much of it. "I thought it was part of her character, eccentric, delightful really."

"You saw it, you saw who she was, and you put it aside because you love her and you wanted her to tell you. You ignored it; why not confront her when you first knew?"

Lena stood up and faced away from her Mother looking out over the field. Closing her eyes, she takes a deep breath. Was she right? Did she know all this time and just wanted to be oblivious to it all?

"You don't just love her; you're in love with her aren't you? And you have been for a long time." Lillian said with a tilt of her head, "Why didn't you tell her?"

"Because she is Supergirl and I'm a Luthor, Mother. How could I tell her? How could I believe that my best friend who, yes I fell in love with was also Supergirl? It was scandalous that we were working together to save National City! No one would believe that we could be together, that I wasn't forcing her somehow. I'm a Luthor I don't deserve to be loved!"

"Yes you do, Lena. You deserve to be loved, to be happy, you deserve the world." Kara said reassuringly as she landed just in front of Lena. "Please, let me be the one to give you those things."

"How...how did you know I would be here?"

"Lillian. She and I had a chat after you left."

When Kara arrived Lillian made her way back to her car knowing it was time to leave the two alone to talk, being nice for too long made her skin break out anyway. "Time to get back to work there's so much mayhem to partake in." She said to herself as she drove off.

"I know you told me to leave you alone but I love you and I just can't do that Lena." Kara told her, "I need us to get passed this, passed my secret. I'm still the same goofy, pot sticker loving best friend. I haven't changed, not really."

Kara looked at Lena who was just standing quietly in front of her.

"Please tell me what I can do to fix this. Please tell me that what we had and what we can have hasn't been ruined." She practically begged, "If you don't feel the same way about me, if you truly can't forgive me..."

"I do love you Kara." Lena cut her off, "I have for a very long time but I didn't think that I deserved your love."

Kara stepped closer to her, taking her uninjured hand in hers and just smiled at her without saying a word.

"What are you smiling about?" Lena asked.

The smile still on her face, "You love me. What's not to smile about?"

Lena shook her head in disbelief as she looked at the woman in front of her. "Where do we go from here? How do we get past all of this and move on?"

"Maybe we could try and just be honest with each other." Kara said to her.

"I would like that I'm just afraid that you won't feel the same once you know the things I've done. I'm the one who needs to be forgiven. I've done horrible things Kara." Lena confessed looking down at Adam's gravestone.

"Why don't we leave the past in the past and start fresh here and now. Would that be okay with you?"

"Yes that would be okay but are you sure?"

Kara gave her a little smile and nodded, "I am very sure."

Lena let go of the breath she had been holding in, "That would be wonderful actually."

"You're wonderful." Kara said then kissed Lena on her forehead before taking her in her arms.

Lena had never felt safer than she did when Kara held her. She never thought that Kara would ever feel the same way and now that they've shared their feelings, she was still not sure if it was the right thing.

Lena withdrew herself from Kara's arms and looked at her, "Can we really do this Kara a Super and a Luthor together? Can we really let the past go and start fresh? I don't want you to regret us later on. We may put the past behind us but others may not."

"I don't care about what anyone else thinks I only care about you Lena. Whatever comes our way, whether good or bad we will get through it together. No more hiding, no more secrets, let's just be Lena and Kara. Not a Super and not a Luthor can we just be us?"

Lena smiled at Kara and wrapped her arms around her, embracing her, "I would love nothing more."