Ch.4
Sam P.O.V
His lips gave me exactly the same felling like the first two times we kiss, but I know that he doesn't love…. he shouldn't be kissing me at all.
After a few seconds I decide that this had no sense and I broke the kiss.
Still catching my air, I try to sound mad but failed trying.
-Why did you kiss me? - I asked trying to control my emotions.
-I….I.. I don't know - he finally answered not even looking at me.
It was not sadness or disappointment that grew on me, but anger… yes I was angry that he once again use me probably thinking that was Carly the one he was kissing. Automatically I got making him get up too and he was getting near me again and I use this time to do my favorite thing. I slapped him.
-If you don't know, then don't kiss me you idiot- I said and automatically I ran home.
-Sam! Sam! please wait for me. -I heard him screaming my name but I didn't turn back. I ran home like I was running a marathon, as soon as I got into my room I threw myself in my bed and start crying until I fell asleep.
Freddie P.O.V
Oh Jesus I was kissing her again! and I was the one that kiss her. I saw how her beautiful eyes close making me close mines automatically. After a few seconds she broke the kiss.
I was trying to catch my air and to control myself of pulling her towards me to keep kissing her….
-Why did you kiss me?- she asked me. That little question got me confused. "Why did I kiss her? Should I tell her that is because I love her? NO she will kill me, or make fun of me in front of the whole School. Should I just leave without saying anything not that's worse….and without realizing I answered her."
-I…I….-and I decided to lie to her- I don't know- and immediately regret saying that. Her beautiful eyes stared to look sad and dark taking away the beautiful blue in them.
As soon as she got up I got up too it was the moment to tell her my true feelings. That I love her so I decide to get close to her and reveal my secret, but a hard slap in my face make me stop.
-If you don't know, then don't kiss me you idiot- she said and start to run away.
I was going to lose her not only her love but also I was going to loose our friend/enemy friendship.
-Sam! Sam! please wait for me - I tried to catch her, but she was faster and I knew that for today things were not going to fix.
I decide to go home, as soon as I got to my apartment I heard the phone ringing I completely ignore it, I got into my room, threw myself in the bed but couldn't sleep. So I decide to make a letter were I will tell her all my feelings.
-You need to know what I feel and I can't hold it anymore, but by tomorrow around this time you will know my feelings, my blonde headed demon.- Freddie said to himself.
End of flashback (of both =] )
Friday Night
Sam P.O.V.
I woke up at five in the afternoon! I know… I didn't went to school, but anyways is not like I really care going to school, and thanks to the nub that make me feel like garbage I didn't regret not going to school and neither the kiss.
-Argggg I can't believe he doesn't notice me. Carly will never love him- I said so loud that my poor cat Forthy jumped and left my room angry.
-Well, What should I do?- I asked myself but got interrupted by a knock on my front door. Hopefully is not Freddie or Carly. I don't want to talk to them right now I need to make up a good story so they do not bother me.
-Who is it?
-Sam it's me, Pete. I call you a lot of times but you never answered, so I thought that I should come to see you.
I saw my phone in the couch and saw that I had 50 missed calls 25 from Carly, 7 from Pete, 3 from Spencer, 3 from Gibby, and 12 from the dork.
-I am really sorry Pete- I said while opening the door, to let him in. His face show that he was really worry, but in his hands he had a bucket of fried chicken and a peppy cola.
-Dude you scared me. I know you don't like school and neither do I. But even when we are usually late you are always there..
-Yess Pete, But I fall asleep and didn't hear my alarm..- I cut him. He look at me suspiciously. -Dude I'm serious Momma doesn't lie to her friends.- I said.
That seemed to convince him.
-Ok then, but are you ok? Your friends looked like zombies in school. They asked everyone if they saw you, and in the middle of the of the day Freddie disappear too.
-What? - I asked.
- I don't really know what happened. I only know that he cut class, Briggs class to be exact. Shannon told me that he left without his books, but that she is going to give them back in the party so..
- Oh thats good - I said angry remembering that yesterday he kiss me and didn't even had a good reason and now he was going to her party.- Soo what is that? -I said pointing where the bucket was.
-This miss Puckett is my promise - he said smiling
"Why I can't love him instead of Fredduccini" - I thought.
-Are you Hungry?- he asked
My stomach make a growl answering him. -My stomach just answered you- And we stared laughing.
-So lets eat - he said sitting in the couch.
-You could not have said anything better- I said smiling while seating and grabbing the delicious fried chicken leg in my mouth.
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Around seven o'clock, after eating, playing and watching some boring TV shows…..
-Dude it is seven already wow, we better get ready for the party- he said while watching his watching and getting up.
-I don't want to go- I whine
-Ahhh come on Sam let's go you need to have fun, please and I will buy you all the fried chicken that you wan- he said making me think twice.
-ummmmm…. - I was about to answer but he cut me.
-Well if you decided to go I will see you in Shannon's house around eight okay.
- I will think about it, but thanks Pete for coming today.
- Thank you for opening the door- he said and left.
I decided to text Carly, Spencer and Gibby to tell them that I was Ok. so I send them the same message. "Sorry guys, I called asleep and recently got up, =] don't worry I'm ok"
-Done -I said after pressing the send button.
There was an episode of Girly Cow and decide to watch it before deciding to go or not to the party.
(A/N:THIS IS THE BEGINNING OK =} )
It is 8:30 and after Girly Cow and started to complaint that I was alone on a friday night and suddenly I remember what happen yesterday. How I realized that I love the dork, how I love the color in his eyes, his half smiled, his dimples, his hair and his lips.
He kissed me and I try to let him know that i love him, but at the same moment I remember the ghost in my life. My best friend Carly Shay. It is not her fault that he loves her. She didn't do anything but to be herself. And even though she didn't return his feelings and I felt happy for it. Deep inside of me I want him to be happy even if that makes me the most unhappy person who will be puking blood every time I will look at them.
Then Shannon's image came into my vicious brain. She will make sure that he is in the party, I know that; and the whole school is there actually, so I better let her know that he is not for her ( as well as for me) .
-That could be fun - I said while getting up and getting into my shower. Have an hour later I was ready and dress with a skinny black jeans, a washed blue shirt, a leather jacket, and my blue converse, nothing to exaggerate I actually pick my "outfit" in less than one minute I hate taking the whole day tinkling what should I wear that's only for Carly.
I took my house keys, and my phone, made a quick messy pony tail and left my house.
As soon as I got on Shannon's house all the people looked at me weirdly. For a moment I thought of running back home, but a hand in my arm stopped me.
-Hey You came- Pete said smiling. He looked so handsome dress in black and his hair covering his forehead.
-Yeah I decided to have fun, especially since today I didn't bother any dork- I said smiling too.
-Ahh Sam- he said pushing me into a hug. -I had fun today in your house-he said.
-What?! - I heard from my back I turn and saw Carly, Gibby and the nub. Apparently Freddie was the one that screamed.
- Sam where were you today? - Carly asked.
-Hey Carls, I fall asleep. My mom is not home so nobody woke me up to go to school.- I said avoiding freddie's eyes that were looking of how close Pete and me were.
-You should have call me or crashed the night in my house, you know that you can go there, and .. oh I'm sorry hi Pete how are you?-Carly said
-Hi Carly I'm fine thanks and you?
-Ohh you know... worry about this girl.
-Same here thats why I went to her house.
-So you didn't answered our calls but he went to your house and let him in?-Freddie asked angrily
-Yes he took the time and went to look for me- I saw Carly and immediately complete the sentence- I was going to your house Carls I know you were worry you call me the most - I said smiling.
-Don't do that again ok- she said threading me like her child.
-Ok mom.
-Soo did you ate any asparagus?
-Gibby! - all of us screamed making him run away.
-Ohhh there is Shannon I will said Happy Birthday to her- Carly said happily.
- I will bring you something to drink Sam- Pete said leaving Sam and Freddie alone.
-Sam I need to talk to you
-No Freddork you don't.
-Please Sam we are still friends.
-Well I don't think so- I said coldly.
-Please Sam give me five minutes please, please please….
-Ok,Ok- I said-only fiv….
Suddenly my anger flow out of me. Shannon was walking behind Freddie and hugged him from his back.
-You made it thanks-Shannon said to Freddie.
-Hey Shannon Happy Birthday- he said getting away from her grip. - Can you let go of me Shannon Im talking to Sam right now- he said surprising me, he is usually a gentleman.
-Ohh - she said sadly.-I…
-Don't worry Shannon I am going to your backyard you can talk to him.. I give him to you for FREE! - I said while I was walking out passing them.
-I will come back ok- I heard him said, before I got out to the backyard I felt his hand in my shoulder. I turned and saw his beautiful eyes.
-Please Sam you gave me five minutes. Let me talk.- he said. I pull away from his grip and suddenly someone was grabbing me from my waist really tight. The smell of licor which was weird came out of his mouth.
-Oooh sweetheart, you are so beautiful.
-Take your hand out of me dude!- I said screaming at this guy probably 3 years older than me.
-Ohh feisty. I like that- he said in my ear.
-Get away from her you idiot- Freddie screamed.
-You go away little boy before I punch you away.-he screamed.
- You don't tell me what to do…
-I will give you until three for you to let go of me before I kick you seattle style!
- I don't think you can do it…
He was cut by Freddie punching him in the face. Both of them were in the floor Freddie in top of him punching him furiously.
- Freddie stop! Lets go- I said still a bit confused by seeing Freddie's reaction.
I approach him to take him away from the drunk dude. When I saw Pete approaching him too. He helped me take him away .
-Dude calm down!- Pete said.
-Freddie what are you doing?- Shannon said a little bit scare.
-Freddie?- I ask.
-Sam are you ok? - he said
-Yes I'm fine but what happen to you? - I asked him.
-Freddie do you need something to drink? -Shannon said
-Yeah sure- he said without even looking at her, she left immediately to the table.
-Sam do you want to dance?- Pete said. Suddenly Freddie look at me, with his brown eyes.
-I can't right now, I need to talk to Freddork first I will come back ok. -I said.
-Ok I will wait for you - he said smiling.
- Thanks Pete ….lets go Freddie the backyard is not a good place.- I said while heading to the street.
He followed silently. In the street and the guy was still there outside with his friends. He saw me, said something to his friends they all turned around.
-If they try to do something, run I will deal with them- he said, his voice sounding deep not as usual.
-Dude! you are with momma and she doesn't let some idiots scare her.- I said.
But they didn't do anything to us. Until we reach the alley. They were behind us. Two of them grabbed Freddie holding him tight while the other told them what to do.
-Let him go!- I screamed
-Oh no sweetheart your boyfriend is going to pay for what he did to me- he said.
The way he was being hit make me lose control. I bent down. Thank God I saw some rocks and pick them up. I put all my anger and throw them to the idiots thet were hitting Freddie, hitting them in the head. I proceed by punching the three of them until they were completely unconscious.
-Freddie? Freddie? are you ok- I ask after wasting my adrenaline in the attack, fear came into me making me drop a few tears.
-Auch. Sammmmmm.
- Freddie you are ok?-
-Yes I am. Lets get out of here- he said.
I help him get up and we both look into our eyes. He was really hurt, but overall he looked worry.
-Sam…..
-Shhhhh Lets get to somewhere safe.- I said helping him by gabbing him. He put one of his arm in my shoulder but the other went to my eyes to catch my tears and clean them.
We walk towards the park into the same place where we kiss yesterday. When I helped him sit down the let out a moan full of pain, which made my eyes have some new tears.
-Im really sorry Freddie- I said while seating in front of him.
- You don't have to -he said while cleaning my eyes again. He look at my eyes and started to lean down and pull me towards him and his lips.
We stood there for a long time. Being like this with him felt so normal that I didn't want it to end. After a few minutes we broke the kiss, I lean into his chest feeling his heartbeat.
-Why did you kiss me this time? - I said after gaining some breath- you just like spreading your DNA? - I said
-No Sam. Even before yesterday I already had an answer for your question, but I got scare of telling you and decided to take the "easy" excuse. Now I know I was wrong And I need to tell you this while I can control it and the truth is that I love you Sam. I am in love with you for such a long time.
If it wasn't that my jaw was connected to my skull, it will probably be in the floor after he said that.
- So this is your explanation? YOU are in love with me?
-It's not an explanation is my reason to live- he said while pulling me into another kiss.