A/N WARNING: EXPLICIT CONTENT... aka lemons XP This is the chapter that has now forced me to change the ratings to M for mature. This could be considered the last chapter. So let me know if you think I should make a Sequel, a Part 5, or just let it end. Read and Review. XD
Part 4
"Raven? Where have you been? Are you okay?" Sebastian rushed through the phone.
"I'm fine, really. I'm sorry about avoiding you and for the other night, um, can we just forget that it happened? Alexander and I just made up and I don't want things to be awkward." I saw someone's car going into the parking lot downstairs and figured it was Alexander.
"So… you guys made up huh? That's great. I'm sorry about what happened too, especially since I started it, I shouldn't have taken advantage of you like that. Can you forgive me?" he apologized reluctantly. Why did he have to sound so reluctant? Was he expecting something more to come out of it?
"I forgive you, and thanks for stopping before it got any further. Look, can we just put it behind us and not mention it again? Alexander's coming by and I want things to work out between us." Why do I feel so sneaky right now? There was a knock at my door. Alexander.
"Yeah, that sounds great. I'll see you around Rae." He said.
"Okay, see you." Then I hung up and opened the door. Alexander stood like a dark dream come true in all his black and metal glory. When he looked into my eyes, I felt like I was pulled out of reality as everything else but him faded into nonexistence. "Alexander," I breathed.
He towered over me and stepped forward so I had to crane my neck to look up at him. As I did, I also reached up with both hands to lock behind his neck, and he leaned down to pull me closer to him. We kissed longingly, and I pulled him in before kicking my door closed. Alexander lifted me and turned so my back was against the door and my legs were wrapped around his waist. I raked my fingers through his hair and clawed at his back so he knew I wasn't gonna play nice. He groaned and thrust his bulge suggestively against my center. The intense jolt of pleasure from the friction made me moan, loud. I was shocked at myself but more so at Alexander. Maybe my talk finally got through to him. I pulled at his shirt, which made me so much more frustrated because I wanted contact, skin-to-skin contact.
"Wait," I told him. He stopped and set me down.
"Do you want to stop?" he panted the question. I felt better knowing he was just as affected as I was.
"Yes, NO… no I don't want to stop but… I was planning to shower since it's been a long busy day and I have pasta on my shirt. So um, just let me get cleaned up. Make yourself comfortable," then taking a look at my empty space, I added, "If you can. I have a blow up bed in the room." Turning he looked around.
"When are you getting your furniture?" he asked.
"The truck should be here in two more days, so I want to paint before then." Then I went to the kitchen and he followed. I grabbed the paint options and my pictures of the furniture I bought. "Here, while I'm in the shower you can look at these and help me come up with something, I wrote the themes on the pictures so you know what I was going for. But you know what I like so I trust your opinion. I'll be back." With that I left him there to keep occupied while I went to freshen up. I grabbed a fluffy blood red towel and went into the bathroom and started the shower. I washed my hair and cleaned myself with my roses and cinnamon scented body wash. When I was done, I wrapped myself up in the towel and brushed my teeth and then my hair. I thought about putting on pajamas but decided to do something more daring. I had a very thin, silky, dark red robe and nothing else. I tied it loosely around me so it was open and showed enough of my breast without showing the nipples, as well as expose my thigh as I walked.
"Raven, these ideas are really great, do you think I could paint…" Alexander was gaping as he finally noticed me leaning against the wall. As he stared, I walked over to him and hooked a finger under his chin to close his mouth so he wouldn't start drooling. Then I untied the sash and stepped back so he could see me. And he did.
"My ideas are great, aren't they, maybe you could come in the room and tell me what you think." I spoke casually like there was nothing-noticeable going on in his pants. "My bed is going to be a queen-size canopy and I need your advice on paint color, come on I'll show you." He still hasn't said anything, so I grabbed his hand to pull him towards the room. Let's see him resist me now. Thankfully he got up and started to rub his hands up my arms but I pulled a way. I turned around to go into the room and shrugged off my robe on the way. It fluttered to the floor and I heard Alexander groan. I couldn't stop the rush of butterflies fluttering in my stomach, I was so nervous. But I was also ready, more than ready even. I wanted to make love to the vampire of my dreams, the love of my life. I walked to the center of the room and turned to face him. For the first time since I came out the shower, he looked into my eyes. I knew that he saw in me the same thing I was seeing in him; unadulterated lust, and pure hunger… "Take me, Alexander," I breathed. "Now."
In a rush of vampire speed, Alexander stood a breath away from me. I gasped in surprise and excitement. Alexander seemed to be hesitating and I was starting to lose my confidence. "Raven, I want to make love to you, but I think I'll end being too rough with you. You're so, so much more beautiful that I've imagined. I can't be gentle right now with you. I need a minute, ok?" I honestly don't know what the hell is going on in that thick immortal head of his. All I could do was blink and grit my teeth. Ever so slowly Alexander backed out of the room like I was gonna stab him in the back or something… which did not seem like a bad idea at the moment. I stood there for some time, confused, until I heard voices coming from the living room.
"WHAT THE HELL!" I rushed to the front of the apartment to see Sebastian and Alexander talking in the middle of the living room. When they looked up I got a feeling of déjà vu as Sebastian blushed pink and looked away, while Alexander's eyes glowed red as he stared… also blushing. Yeah, I was still naked, and my boyfriend was now pissing me off. "Why is Sebastian here, Alexander, now, and after I told you I didn't want anyone else to know where I was?" I yelled.
"Raven I need him here in case… in case I lose control. For your first time… you're going to bleed." He tried to explain. "Can you wait in the room or cover up?"
"No!" I said defiantly. Sebastian turned so his back was to me, and Alexander looked shocked. "As a matter of fact, let's play a game since you're having a blast playing with my heart." He looked confused and I knew what I was about to do was going to hurt him. i couldn't stop myself even though my mind was telling me to stop. I walked over to face Sebastian, who then looked shocked as well. He looked from me, to Alexander, and honestly didn't know what to do. I could sense that he was thinking of moving a way, but I grabbed his hand, put it between my legs, and kissed his lips. The atmosphere seemed to be a dark mass of rage coming from Alexander.
"Sebastian… step away from her," Alexander warned in a low and shaky voice. I hated myself for going this far, but I hated feeling rejected while I stood completely open and vulnerable. I started moving against his hand so his finger caressed my flesh, then I darted my tongue pass his lips and moaned when he responded. Somehow it seemed like Sebastian was in a trance and I felt his fingers move to caress me. Then suddenly, everything stopped and I heard a loud crash. Sebastian was no longer in front of me but clear across the room with Alexander's hands squeezing his throat. My eyes widened and I ran over to them.
"Stop! Alexander stop it, let him go!" I yelled but Alexander wouldn't listen, only bare his fangs that seem to have elongated. I tried to get between them and push him off, but Sebastian's arm gently blocked me from doing that. He was letting Alexander hurt him. I looked at Alexander and did the first thing that came to mind. I slapped him hard. He let go of Sebastian and grabbed me by the arm, hard, and nearly dragged me to my room before slamming the bedroom door. When he let go of my arm I cradled it to my breast. Alexander didn't say anything. He just stalked towards me. I had so much adrenaline pumping through me that I honestly couldn't tell you what I was feeling. I glared at him with his eyes burning back at me. Unexpectedly, I felt myself being thrown down onto my blow up mattress. Alexander came up behind me so I tried to lift myself up, but was forced back down as he grabbed hold of my ankles and dragged me to the edge. And without warning, he took me without pause.
I felt the burning pain of the intrusion, but didn't have time to react. A scream was stuck, lodged in my throat. Alexander didn't pause or stop, he kept moving in and out of me with angry thrusts. I could feel and hear my arse cheeks slapping against his abdomen. His hands were gripping each cheek and I could feel his nails digging into my flesh. Everything was painful. But then… it changed. The pain became… I don't know what, but I wanted more. I wanted to feel him deeper, harder even. I felt him inside of me in ways I couldn't before imagine. I moaned and pressed against him more, arching my back more, rocking against him. my moans became shouts as he understood what I wanted and took me more violently. I felt something powerful building in me. I actually thought I was going to pee myself, and tried to hold it in by clenching.
Alexander groaned and fisted my hair to pull me up against him. I yelped but couldn't stop moving back against him. I panted and moaned as I tried to fight the feeling that was about to spill over me. Goose bumps broke out all over my body and I started to shiver as Alexander swiveled me around while I was still attached to him so that we were facing each other. He still wore his shirt and his pants were pushed down to his ankles. he held my both of my hands under me, crossing them, directly under my bottom. I watched him bang me in frenzy. The tension was building tighter, making my whole body flex until it became painful. My toes were curled and growing numb. I arched my back and screamed my release and felt the most amazing wave of pleasure that I could only describe as high-as-cloud-nine. I felt drugged or drunk or whatever it was I was feeling, it was… mind blowing. I was pulled back down to earth when I heard a roar. Alexander's body became so tense I was afraid he'd snap. And then a burst of hot gushing filled me at my core and Alexander collapsed on top of me. We were both out of breath and unable to move much less speak. So we lay here in together in silence, with nothing but our gasping breaths to fill the void. I could feel his heart pounding against my chest, almost hearing it. I felt it racing against my own beating heart.
I don't remember how much time has passed, but what I do remember was wrapping my arms and legs around Alexander and pulling him closer. I raked my fingers through his hair and massaged his head, before caressing his back beneath his shirt. Without words, Alexander, pushed himself up. I looked into his eyes and what I saw scared me. His eyes, his face, and the air around him were completely void of emotion. He was like a blank slate. I raised my hand to caress his face, but he casually moved it away with the back of his hand. He stood to adjust himself and pull up his pants. I suddenly felt cold and empty where he once was connected to me. After he fastened his belt, he quietly left the room not once looking at me.
I heard the front door close with a cold, quiet click. I sat up and looked down at myself, then got up to look in the mirror. I somehow felt different… a whole lot different, and it kinda scared me, so I wanted to see if I looked different. What I saw made me break down and cry. It was still I, but for some reason, I couldn't recognize myself. I got what I wanted, but now I feel like I lost everything. I felt like nothing. I felt like I was worth nothing. What the hell is wrong with me?