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"What the hell, don't you get that I don't want to see you" Callie practically yelling.
"I know you don't but... I ... I need to ... uh talk to you." Arizona said rambling. She was secretly scared half to death by the dramatic change between the Callie she remembered and the one standing in front of her.
"No. No this is absolutely not happening, not now, not ever" Callie tried to leave but the door wouldn't open. "Fuck! Why did I think that responding to that page could be important" Callie's voice was lowered but Arizona could still hear the anger behind it.
"Calliope -" Arizona started
"No, you don't get to Calliope me. After all these years don't you remember the pain you caused me? Or was I just one of the crowd?"
"No, I do remember. I remember the way you looked at me when you got your lunch thrown in you face. I remember the tears welling behind your eyes." Arizona building momentum and finding courage "I remember the look you had on your face, like a puppy who got the crap kicked out of it and who is just waiting for it to happen again. Thats what I remember." Arizona's voice was growing stronger "I remember the way you would flinch when a locker slammed shut and how you were relieved to turn a corner and find nobody there. I remember the way your voice shook when you had to be in the same room as the us, and how you would never remove your eyes from the floor. I remember how scared you were. I remember." Arizona had built up to a scream but was now beginning to talk slower a calmer "I remember all of the pain and suffering you felt, because I felt the same way."
"Oh, so now your the victim? You were the one who was humiliated in front of the whole school? You were the one to hide and wait until nobody was on campus to leave?" Callie yelled back "You were the scared of everyone knowing your secret?" Immediately regretting her last sentence.
"What secret?" Arizona questioned.
"Never mind" Callie said. "Just drop it!"
"Look, I'm not comparing you high school experience to mine, but I do know that I was not who I appeared to be. I was trapped inside the funnel of the herd. I tried to tell them to back off. I tried to distance myself from them. And I'm sorry that I never stood up for you and I know that you think I'm a trader, and devil spawn, and Satan's mistress but I never had a choice-" Arizona explained in a consistently calm voice.
"Never had a choice" Callie interrupted "That the biggest bull shit line I have ever heard. I didn't have a choice," Callie said repeating Arizona words sarcastically "of-course you did everyone has a choice." Callie shrieked back yelling again. "And you aren't sorry not for any of it"
"Hey, how the hell would you know. You never gave me the chance to explain. I hated them I wanted to kick their asses, but they had threats over me and I couldn't break away. I wanted to tell them to back off and I wanted to help you but I couldn't"
"Actions speak louder than words, Arizona. And what you did I can't imagine that it wasn't what you wanted."
"It wasn't. I hated that life. I wanted to be a nerd, always in the library reading, getting straight A's on tests. But because of the group I couldn't. My grades fell, I wasn't sleeping, and I lost interest to continue living. My life had no purpose I was a nothing, my high school career was reflective of me. I don't know who it was but I hated myself for watching you suffer and not standing up for you or myself like I should have. I didn't feel anything in high school except for when I looked at you." Arizona stated as a tear yet again fell form her eye. "When I looked at you my world stopped, I felt compassion, and sympathy, and I knew that you were going to have a bigger impact on my life than anything in those horrible four years."
"I have nothing more to say to you, at least not now. I need time to adjust to even seeing your face and not wanting to kick the crap out of you. I knew that there was something different about you, but I don't want to be your friend and I don't want to know about your past. Let me adjust to this, and IF I can begin to see it through your eyes I will let you know." Callie said this time being able to pry open the door and escape down the hall letting a tear run down her mocha skin.