I am sooooooooooooo sorry it took so long, first I couldn't find the chapter, then when I thought I found it, it turned out to be the first chapter.

So, I cleaned my room only to find out that it got thrown out, so I rewrote the chapter. Then I had to go to a funeral 'cause my grandmother passed away sniffle

Then I got sick, then the computer broke, then I had three projects due. Plus homework, school, the usual, and my computer just got fixed like… yesterday.

Now I'm finally on vacation and still have no idea how the chapters after this is gonna be like. I NEED IDEAS!!! AHH!!! Oh… and this is in Fang's POV.

Disclaimer: I do not own!

Claimer: I own this plot!! DON'T STEAL!!!

Holy crap.

I'm dead. Well, now what? Is this what death is like? Everything is pitch black, not that I don't like black, it's my favorite color. You feel nothing. Is there a place where you're suppose to go that I didn't get excepted in?

I felt a cold spot, right next to my eye. Well… at least I can feel something, so I was wrong about that. I felt it again on my leg, then again on my arm. I felt my whole front side of my body go cold. I opened my eyes. Opened my eyes? Oh… so I wasn't dead. Idiot.

I blinked a couple of times, then sat up. I turned my head to the right. Okay… there were trees, bushes, shrubs, and some vines hanging off of the trees.

Let me ask you a question. If you jump off a seven mile cliff to kill yourself, is the place you die suppose to be the place you go when your dead or are you not really dead even after jumping from a really high elevation?

I glanced up, it was raining. Um… is there rain when you're dead? Probably not right? The cliff was still there. I looked down, there was no blood. Nothing was there.

I mean my body was there, just no scars or anything like that. I reached towards my pant leg remembering that I had landed hit it against the side of the cliff. Again nothing, there was no scratches, no blood, nothing.

I checked the rest of my body for broken bones. There weren't any bruises, and I didn't see any blood coming from any place on my body. Huh… well, that's weird. I stood up, it was like I couldn't feel pain, at all.

Just to test my theory I walked up to the nearest tree, winded my fist up, then hurdled it against the thick wood. To my surprise I actually knocked it over, and couldn't feel how much it hurt. Is this a new power? That I can't kill myself? Does this mean anybody else won't be able to either?

Darn! That sucks! I have to get as far as I can. Before I… don't think about it. I unfurled my wings and took a running start then jumped into the air. Never shall I hurt them, not now not ever. I surged up, feeling the glory of flight as I approached the top of the cliff.

I heard loud sobs when I got around seven feet close to the top. I slowed down to a pace where I was so silent that Iggy wouldn't have noticed until I was at least ten feet in front of him. I looked at the top of the cliff to find Max, kneeling, holding her face in her hands.

"Oh, God Max, I'm sorry I had to cause you this pain."

I whispered. Barely audible even for myself. I flew up even with the force of the rain pushing against me. I didn't care, as long as she's safe. As long as the flock is safe. As long as I can't hurt anyone.

I flew for… I don't know how long, my watch broke when I uh… fell. But I flew until I was out of the storm I can tell you that much. I finally found a place- far enough from the flock I think- that wasn't occupied with animals hopefully.

I banked down in large circles. It wasn't until then I realized my stomach was aching from the lack of food. I had been so worried on ways to explain my secret I had kept from them for so long. An idea popped in my head. If I can't physically kill myself, I can starve to death, right?

That should work. I landed in a foresty area, much like the one close to the cliff. I started to feel a little dizzy, but… hey, it's for the good of the flock. I wandered aimlessly around the little campground I had set up.

This was so boring. I all do is just sit here waiting for stinking death to come. There should be a number or something like… 1-800-KILL ME which probably wouldn't work anyway since apparently I can't hurt myself.

Have you ever noticed that time goes by really slow when your waiting for something to happen, but then goes really fast when you're doing something like… going on my blog.

So, to help pass the time, or at least I got tired enough to knock myself out. I began to sing, yeah… I know what you're thinking, Fang sings? Well, yeah. I don't know how I began it just, happened. I had heard this while we were at Anne's house in the car. I think we got groceries or something, and I was just sitting in the car waiting.

I downloaded it to my laptop and memorized the words. The group by the way knows how to write lyrics. Before I started, I had gotten up and thrown some dried-up shrubs in the fire in front of me.

I'm tired of being what you want me to be

Feeling so faithless lost under the surface


Don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Have you ever wondered how artists think of these things? I mean the lyrics, some just are the exact one that fit your life or what you're feeling now.

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me

Holding too tightly afraid to lose control

I could feel myself slowly fading in and out of consciousness. I held my head up with my hand and continued.

Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart right in front of you

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there

Become so tired so much more aware

I'm becoming this all I want to do

Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know

I may end up failing too

I was cut off by a swift movement caught in my peripheral (A/N: I don't know it I spelled that word right or yet if it is the right word so feel free to correct my grammar.) vision. I stood up so fast I gave myself a head rush.

I narrowed my eyes staring deeply into the shadows of the forest, another movement made me crouch down. A noise behind me sent chills down my spine, and I turned to face… whatever was there. To the left of me, I heard another noise the same as before actually. Was I going crazy? A rock hit me at the side of my head.

"What the f-"

I started then a small figure headed towards my way, a lot smaller then Angel so I knew that it wasn't any of the flock so what was it? An animal? The… thing disappeared as if it were never there in the first place. Odd.

Suddenly a flash of white covered my eyesight with a feeling of an explosion of some type came streaking through my head. I fell to my knees holding my head as if it was gonna fall off. Oh holy shit.

Yeah agian sorry for the reeaaaaallllly long wait. I don't know how long it will be until I will be able to update again so please don't get your hopes up. Please review I need momentum.