Believe

Set: early book 6 Twilight/Heaven Sent

Location: The Church and Suze's room

Characters: Jesse and Suze.

Point of View:Jesse de Silva (Third Person)

Status: Complete, one-shot.

Her belief in them, together, amuses him. It also leaves him almost speechless at times, her blind belief that she could actually be happy with him, him, and that it could/would actually work.

Somehow, she had told him that afternoon after school, extremely chirpy as she kissed his cheek happily before (almost bouncing, he noted with amusement) she walked away to talk to CeeCee, who was giving her the hard "Your-too-happy-to-be-Suze-Simon! Something-made you-super-happy-and-I'm- going-to-find-out-what" look that he had learned to pick up from Susannah. He had shaken his head… he was still shaking his head!

He knew that this whole situation was insane, impossible really, but did he do anything to stop this from happening? Well, he liked to believe that he tried to and then the thought of how much he had end up hurting them both (hurting her!) usually made him discard the thought.

On the bright side, if there was one to this (his inner self always got mad at him when he started to try and think that this whole situation was a bad thing) he had finally caved in to this absurd situation, that she so believed in.

It just didn't makes sense to him that a healthy, happy (generally), breathing living girl would rather be with a man nearly always wearing contemplative frown upon his face rather than a smile, who could be overly protective, suspicious, a big tease (even he could see that now) and had some of the weirdest morals known to man kind (goes with being a big teases really) rather than a healthy, young man who could give her exactly what she needed (and wanted), buy her a cup of coffee and be introduced to her parents.

For not only was he all that a long list of negatives (he was fairly sure that it had to be longer), he also happen to be, you know, a ghost!

Not only does she pick someone to be with who has some major flaws in character, but someone who also happens to be DEAD! And she still believed that they could work!? He bangs his head upon a wall at the back of the church.

They can't possible work, just like the bastard son of Satan said they couldn't, yet she still blindly believes that they can.

He smiles a little, thinking of her stubborn, determine little face and loving every little beautiful bit of it, as she once more argues the point that she loves him and really doesn't care that he's a ghost, just as long as he promises to never ever leave her (again), which he would like to tell her that that is impossible! That he would/could never leave her, dead (or alive), but just can't quite find the guts to do so. And she believes that he was so brave!

He lets out a short snort.

She believes so much, in so much, when it comes to him.

And because of her strong and blind belief in them, he feels, deep within him that he too, can believe in them, despite the impossibility and insanity of it all.

She believed so deeply in them, that she almost brought about her own death to bring him back to her when the (coughcough) had had him exorcised. That was how deeply she believed and that was the first time that he really saw that, how deep it was! The thing, the feeling that he had been fight against for so long inside himself, glow from deep within her, he saw it. Even when a strong part of him had been so sure that she had been the one who had performed his exorcism, seeing her coming towards him down that long dark and foggy corridor, his doubts about her feelings for him vanished.

He still hadn't believed that things could work between them though, hence his leaving for her to learn to be with others, living others, but he hadn't been able to shake her unwavering faith in him. Her belief. Her love.

And he was starting to tire of this, tire of her always being hurt by his stubborn nature. He wanted to believe too. He wanted to believe with her.

It might not make sense to him; it might not even seem right or just of him in his mind for him to be taking her away from a healthy love in her future, but his heart ached to believe that this was possible. That they, Jesse de Silva and Susannah Simon, were possible.

"Jesse! What are you doing here?" he smiles at her face, which transforms from startled confusion to delight as he materialises into her room. She jumps from her bed and her books and bounces over to him, her brilliant green eyes bright with joy and deep, unwavering and strong, blind belief.

He realises (almost too late) that this is all that he needs. All he needs is this belief, her belief and he can ignore all that he knows is wrong about this. He pulls her trusting warmth into his arms and hugs her tightly to him. He knows that something is troubling her, scaring her even and he knows it has something to do with the bastard son of Satan, but what it is, he does not know. And as much as that upsets him, her keeping secrets from him, with the bastard son of Satan, he trusts her. He has too. But he believes in her too, because he loves her and she deserves his belief when she has always given him his.

She believes in them, that they will somehow work… and he believes in them too, now and forever.