We're Both Broken

C4: Party Preparations

Standard Disclaimer: I don't own any of the recognizable characters

Rosalie's POV

In the two days following our date, Bella and I have become absolutely inseparable, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I have always been a bit of a selfish person, I believed what was mine was actually mine and no one better try and fuck with what was mine, because there would be consequences.

Now couple that with six mated couples in one house and my own mate who wants to get to know her new extended family and me having to split my time with her. I was back to my bitchy self towards the rest of the family, just Bella now deserved my more vulnerable side.

Right now Alice, Bella, Kate, Irina and I were shopping in Seattle, looking for something to wear for Bella's birthday party tomorrow, and since Hurricane Alice had taken my mate with her, I was left with Kate and Irina, which I didn't really mind since their personalities meshed with mine pretty well.

We mostly ignored the lustful looks most men sent our way as we walked through the mall, and I could only feel for Bella, who was most likely kicking herself for agreeing to go with Alice alone. "You have the look of a woman who regrets letting her mate go with her best friend." Kate said with a slight smirk. I knew she always loved to take a stab at anyone who had a certain look on their face.

"When that best friend is called Alice, I can only feel for her. Alice will want to squeeze her into an either obscenely short or way too revealing dress, and I don't know if I can hold myself back when I see her in either of those dresses, and I refuse to embarrass myself or my mate in front of the rest of the family by outright staring at her." I said as we walked into our fourth store.

They smiled at that. "No one will fault you for wanting your mate Rose, and even though your mate is human, it is easy to see that she feels the pull as well. But I think Alice would not choose to provoke you if she doesn't have to. The pixie has pretty good survival instincts." Irina said with a smirk.

"That she does, so I hope she remembers that when throwing clothes at Bella as if they are on fire." I said with a smile.

Kate grinned at that. "You know Rose, I could give her a hand as well." She said way too innocently.

I growled softly at her. "No Kate, you are not helping Alice with that. You won't be able to keep your comments to yourself and Bella feels awkward enough as it is. I don't need you to add to that."

She smiled at that. "I was only kidding Rose, jeez, you don't need to get all possessive on me."

"I can't help but feel possessive of her, I don't want to push her into anything, but my beast rattles in his cage every night when she cuddles up to me and clings to me like a koala to a tree."

Irina gave me a very rare sincere smile. "Perhaps you two should have a talk about that soon. I'm sure if you do that she will be open to more. Even I can see she wants it, given how much time she spends staring at either your ass or boobs."

"She does that an awful lot, doesn't she. I can't help but indulge her with that. Perhaps she is ready for something more. I'll talk to her tonight, and I want to ask you two to make sure everyone in cleared out once I get that chance."

They both nodded and smiled at that. "I'm sure no one in our family would want to make Bella feel more embarrassed than she already is, since I'm sure she knows that everyone in the house knows when she goes to the bathroom in the mornings, so yes, we'll make sure you two love birds have an empty house." Kate said with a grin.

I shook my head at her as we turned our attention to the more important things, like shopping for the perfect outfit so that my Bella had a reason to stare at me tomorrow.

Bella's POV

I didn't know what I was thinking when I agreed to go with Alice. For the past two hours she has pushed me into the changing rooms of three different stores while she sometimes literally throws clothes to me that I would never wear in public even if Rosalie asked me sweetly.

I'm thankful for the small reprieve I got when Alice got into a heated argument with a manager. It gave me some time to think about where Rose and I stood after that wonderful date. It was getting harder to resist the urge to go further with her. That one touch of her breast that I had on our date had sent my hormones into overdrive and I needed more.

Unfortunately my reprieve was short as Alice seemed to have returned with even more clothes, her argument with the shop manager apparently over. "I have seen you will love this one Bella. Rosalie won't be able to resist you in this."

"Mary Alice, we are not discussing my intimate relationship with your sister while I am in my underwear in a changing room. If we are going to discuss this, we will discuss it at lunch." I hissed back at her, and I could just see the pout on her face.

"That's okay. Now try this on and show me how it looks. We still have to buy shoes and accessories at some point." She said with her bell like voice.

I grumbled under my breath as I took the dress from her, not even surprised that it fit me like a glove. Alice probably knew my measurements better than I did.

I really liked how the red dress looked on me, and I was glad that Alice had finally found a dress that didn't show too much. I don't think I could have handled that with the entire family in attendance, especially since Kate was a lot like Emmett and loved to make me blush even more than Rosalie did.

I took a deep breath and walked out to show Alice the dress, blushing a little when I saw how she smiled at me. "You look absolutely amazing Bella. Rose will only have eyes for you tomorrow."

"Thanks Ali. But I think that will happen none the less, I've noticed that her eyes are always on me since our date, and I'll be honest and say that I don't know what to think about that."

"It means that Rosalie is doing everything in her power not to let her instincts take over and claim you. Her scent, for a lack of better term, is not on you yet, and while that poses no threat in our family, but it might be a problem if we happen cross an unmated vampire who tries to stake a claim on you." She said with a smile.

I smiled at her. "I would like to say that the odds of that happening are slim to none, but given my track record it would certainly be possible, and it is not that I'm not ready to take that step with her, because I am, but I just don't know how to bring it up."

Alice smiled and gave me a quick hug. "My advice to you is to talk to her and see what happens. She won't hurt you, and will always think of you before anything else, but we'll talk some more about this during lunch, so go and get changed so we can go and eat."

I nodded at her before I went back into the changing room, quickly changing back into my own clothes, walking towards Alice with the red dress in hand so we could finally go and eat.

As we sat down for lunch a little while later I could see how Alice slipped into a vision, and I couldn't help but wonder what she saw, although her smile was telling enough.

When her eyes regained focus she smiled at me, answering my unspoken question. "I just had a vision of Edward before the three Volturi Kings and Queens, and it seems they are not buying his story and that they will be giving Carlisle a call later today, asking him to come and visit them in Volterra in a week. I have also seen that this will not end well for him."

I could only smile at that. "Well that serves him right for trying to control me and trying to keep me away from my true mate."

She smiled and hugged me before we ate. "I've got more news, but that has to wait until we are home again, since it has to do with Rosalie burying her teeth in your neck in a non romantic way."

I smiled and nodded at her, digging into my hamburger a moment later, much to the amusement of Alice, who ate her cheeseburger a bit more dignified.

Rosalie's POV

When we saw Alice and Bella again a few hours later, I couldn't hold back the smile that spread over my face, because she was smiling as well, and I really hoped that was because of me.

She seems to have enjoyed herself mostly because she is not looking as exhausted as the other times she spent with Alice.

I wrapped my arms around her once she was within arms reach and kissed her softly. "Hello love, did you have fun?" I asked softly.

She only nodded, and I could see in her eyes she had a ton of things she wanted to tell me, but wanted to wait until we were alone, and since Kate and Irina would ride back with Alice, I led her to my car so we could drive back in peace.

Once we pulled out of the parking lot, she wasted no time in lacing our fingers together, while she smiled at me. "I have to admit that threatening Alice to not play Bella Barbie tomorrow worked like a charm love. She really kept it tame for once."

"That might have had something to do with me as well love. I asked her to go easy on you for once, since I know how much you hate shopping." I said softly.

She smiled and kissed my cheek. "I don't hate it as much as I used to, since you are always there with me. I can handle Hurricane Alice when you are there with me, and I really hope you will like what we have picked out for tomorrow."

"I'm sure I will my love. You always look amazing in whatever you wear." I said with a smile.

Bella smiled and squeezed my hand. "Alice also had a vision of Edward. He has arrived in Volterra and the Kings and Queens are not buying his story. They will call, or will probably have called Carlisle by now to invite us to Volterra in a week, so with a bit of luck they will allow me to graduate and go to prom before you have to turn me. Alice said there was more, but she wanted to wait with that until we were home."

I smiled and quickly kissed her. "Then I think we better hurry home. I have something to tell you as well."

She nodded and moved her hand to my thigh, squeezing it softly as she smiled and stared out of the window, and I couldn't help the smile that spread over my face, or was I reading too much into this intimate gesture. I didn't know if she was ready for more, but selfishly I hoped it did.

The ride home was mostly quiet, and I think we were both glad for that. The next couple of hours were going to be very telling in how Bella would act once she was turned, and I really hoped that she would be okay with everything that would come up. "Are you okay Rose? I can almost see the wheels in your head turning a mile a minute."

I smiled at her. "I'm okay love, I was a bit lost in my own thoughts. Today will mean big changes in your like once again, and I can't help but hope you will be okay. I feel like everything is being forced on you."

She only smiled at that. "It has all been thrown for a loop as of late, but in my mind it has worked out for the best. We found each other, I still get to graduate with a bit of luck, and I will have my forever together with you after that. I love you and there is nothing I wouldn't do for you."

"And I love you Bella, and I would do anything to keep you by my side, but I can't help but notice how easy you seem to roll with the punches." I said softly.

"That is part to be accredited to you my love. Thanks to you showing me the love you have shown me over the last weeks and helping me break free of Edward, I have been able to take things in stride and think about everything, and I have made my decision. I want to be turned and be by your side for as long as you will have me. I want to see what the world has to offer me and experience everything I can with you because I know you will never try and control me like he did and will treat me as an equal." She said as she squeezed my hand again.

I smiled and kissed her quickly. "I never agreed with how that bastard treated you, and I vowed if you were to ever acknowledge the mating bond between us, that I would show you how a relationship should be, equal with love and understanding from both sides. I know I am not perfect, far from it, but I have always felt extremely protective of you, even though I showed the opposite when we first met. I just didn't think you were interested. Call it a grave error in judgment on my part."

Bella smiled at me, and the look of love and adoration on her face. "If only you had been honest from the start. We could have saved both of us so much hurt and pain, and I am sure it would never have happened if we had been together. I wanted so much to be with you when I first saw you and I promised myself on that first day I would do anything to get in your good graces."

I smiled at her as we pulled up to the house. "You have succeeded in that beyond your wildest dreams love. There is only one way for us to become even closer than we already are, and I think we both know how that is, since it involves a bed."

She blushed at that. "You don't have to spell it out for me, my love, and I want you to know that I'm ready for that step. I might not be ready to be close to men that aren't family for now, but I am more than ready to show my girlfriend how much I love her."

I smiled at that. "Then it is a good thing that after our talk the others are going to go on a hunting trip, so we'll have the whole house to ourselves.

Bella smiled and kissed me deeply, and I couldn't help the moan that escaped me as I crawled over the center console to straddle her. "Touch me Rose, I need to feel your hands on me." She said huskily.

I smirked at her and pulled back a bit. "I could, but I would rather wait until the others are away, so we can take our time in loving each other, and since Alice and Kate are less than a minute behind us, I'd rather not go too far and let you face the brunt of their teasing."

She groaned in frustration, and I could smell her arousal clearly, and I can honestly say that only her blood smells sweeter. "You're right of course, I don't think I could handle that today, although I have some blackmail material against Alice these days. Not allowing her to play Bella Barbie is a good deterrent."

I smiled and gave her a last kiss before opening her door so we could get out, flashing her a wink as I did. It felt good to tease her a little before we went all the way tonight, it would make her eventual release all the more sweet.

She groaned softly and followed me out of the car so we could get our bags before we made our way to the house, and I could hear Carlisle talking to someone on the phone, which I could only guess was Aro, but I couldn't be bothered with paying attention to it, because my mate was pressed into my side with a smile which I couldn't help but return.

"It smells like Esme has prepared a very good meal, shall we see what she made?" She asked softly.

It smelled like Esme did indeed make us pasta for dinner, and it smelled delicious. "It seems she did, and it smells delicious."

"That it does love, are you going to join me for dinner, or would that be bad for your figure?" She asked teasingly.

I quirked an eyebrow at that. "Aren't you the witty human today. I actually called Esme before we went back and asked her to prepare enough for the both of us, so yes I will be joining you for dinner."

She smiled and squeezed my hand as we walked into the house, smiling at the sight once we entered the living room. Tanya and Victoria were cuddled up in one of the couches and I could hear both Carmen and Esme rummaging around in the kitchen, which left Carlisle and Eleazar, who were still on the phone with Aro in Carlisle's office. The only ones missing were Jasper, Emmett and Laurent, who were probably wrestling somewhere.

"Hello lovebirds, did you have fun today?" Tanya asked with a smile.

I smiled at her. "We did, and Bella survived Hurricane Pixie admirably, although I expected her to. She knows how to handle Alice almost as well as Jasper does."

"That might be because they are closer than most sisters, which is only to be expected after everything." Esme said as she came out of the kitchen wearing an apron.

Both Bella and I smiled at her as Bella went to give her a hug. "Hey Mom." She said softly as she relaxed in Esme's arms.

That seemed to shock Esme a bit, and I had to admit that it filled my heart with love for her even more than it already was.

Esme tightened her hug and smiled with venom filled eyes at her. "It's good to have you back sweetie, but may I ask what is wrong. You have never called me Mom before."

She smiled at her. "Well since in a short time I won't be able to see Renee anymore, I will need a new mother and father, and I can't think of anyone better than you and Carlisle and Carmen and Eleazar."

Within a second Carmen was next to her, wearing a similar apron, and she joined the hug without a second thought. "We would love to be your mother's sweetie, and we promise to be there for you whenever you need us." Esme said softly.

Bella smiled and received a very motherly kiss from the pair of them, before she walked back to me, a slight blush on her face, and exactly at that moment the others walked in, and I could see Kate was ready to comment.

"Whatever you're thinking Katerina, don't. We just had a beautiful moment and you will not embarrass our daughter with your comments." Carmen said sternly.

Kate's mouth snapped shut audibly. "Fine, I'll keep quiet, it's almost as if I can't have any fun around her." She muttered softly before stomping up the stairs.

Alice just gave Bella a sisterly hug while Irina went to go and search for the boys. "Shall we put our things away before dinner, my sweet, or did you want to relax a bit first?" I asked softly.

"We'll go put our things away first, saves us time tonight." She said with a wink.

I only smiled as I wrapped an arm around her waist and led her upstairs, smiling to myself the entire time.

Bella's POV

After dinner and a similar response from Carlisle and Eleazar to my telling them that I would always see them as my fathers, we were sat down by Carlisle, who explained to everyone what I already knew from Alice, since she had seen it. We were to show ourselves in Volterra in a week to explain some things, and that I needed to come with them.

Alice then explained the rest of her vision to everyone. "I have seen that our visit will be very beneficial to us, and that our favor will only increase with this. Edward will not survive this encounter but they are willing to give Bella a bit of leeway before having to be turned. They will allow her to graduate, go to prom and have some more time as a human, but Caius will insist on having her turned within a year. Now Bella, you knew this, but I saw something else that might be a bit of a surprise. I saw your mother standing next to Heidi, who is one of the Guard members, and she was clearly a vampire."

That shocked me a little, but it felt good that I got to have her around forever. "That is good news. I can live without Charlie, but I don't think I could live without Renee in my life, so I guess that wherever I am, I will always have a mother close."

Everyone smiled at that. "That you will sweetie, and I hope you know we will have a good talk with Renee when we see her, just to get some things straight and get some answers, because you know I do not agree with her style of parenting." Esme said with a serious tone in her voice, which I hadn't heard her use a lot.

I smiled at her. "I can explain that Esme, and perhaps it will clarify things. Do you remember when I was in the hospital from James' attack and how she was at my side the entire time?" Esme nodded before I continued. "She might not have been a mother all the time, but she also knew that is not what I needed. I needed a female friend more than a Mom most of the time, since most of my friends were boys back in Phoenix. I have always been independent and observant, so she let me do my thing as much as possible, correcting me where needed. Now you all also know I am extremely clumsy and when I was younger that was even worse. Every time I found myself in the Emergency Room, my Mom was always there for me to help me. I still remember the first time I broke my nose from walking into a wall, that instead of panicking, she stayed calm as she literally raced to the hospital. She knows me better than anyone, even better than Alice."

Carmen and Esme shared a look at that. "You never told us that, and it changes a lot. We always thought that your mother was always absent and let you be the adult at too young an age. It gives us a piece of mind that she was the mother that you needed, although I hope you know our style of mothering will be a bit different." Carmen said with a smile.

I only nodded and cuddled back into Rosalie, while the others made their way outside to go hunt, since we had talked about everything we needed to, and for the first time since I got together with Rose, some nerves were setting in.

She seemed to notice and pulled me into her lap. "We won't have to do anything you are not ready for my love. If you just want to stay here for the rest of the evening, I'm okay with that as well."

I smiled and kissed her. "I'm ready, but I'm just a bit nervous about us seeing each other naked. You're a goddess and I'm just a plain girl. I'm just afraid I'm not worthy of you."

"There is no woman in this world who is more worthy than you, and for the record, you are not plain. You are beautiful in every single way, and while we both have flaws, I think we compliment each other perfectly." She said softly.

I blushed and curled into her. "I'm ready love, let's go upstairs and show each other how much we love each other, because I don't think Esme will forgive us if we soil the couch."

She nodded and kissed me softly before picking me up in bridal style, carrying me to our room as if I was her bride already, which was a thing I needed to ask her, because even though my parents' marriage failed. I would love to marry Rosalie someday.

I was so lost in thought that I only snapped back to reality when she placed me on the bed, a coy look I had never seen before in her eyes. "Are you okay Rose? You seem a bit nervous."

"That's because I am a bit nervous baby, I haven't been with anyone since my own rape. I'm just afraid that I won't be able to pleasure you." She said softly.

I smiled softly at her, and motioned her closer, which she thankfully did as she crawled onto the bed. "If anyone should not have to worry about that it is you my love. You've asked me several times if I am ready, but I think the question is, are you?"

She smiled and pulled me into her lap. "I am ready love, I'm just afraid I won't be able to pleasure you the way you deserve to be pleasured."

"Then let's not think about this and just do what our bodies tell us, its our first time with someone that actually want to be with, and I know you are craving this even more than I am." I said before kissing her.

Rosalie moaned into my mouth and wrapped her arms around my neck, tangling one hand in my hair.

Feeling bold I let one of my hands glide to her breasts while I tangled the other one into her golden hair.

When she pulled back and I looked into her now amber colored eyes I felt things I never felt before, and before I had time to blink I was beneath her.

"Will you let me undress you love? Because I am trying very hard not to rip your clothes off."

I only nodded and smiled at her as I sat up so she could take off my shirt, which she did in the next second, growling ever so softly as she saw my bra, since Alice had insisted on a black lace bra today.

"Remind me to slap Alice tomorrow, she knows better than to tempt my resolve like this." She said before she started placing kisses on the top of my breasts, right around the top of the lace.

I moaned as she peppered kisses all over my body, tugging my pants down as she got lower, and again she growled as she saw my underwear, which matched my bra.

"Rose, please, I need you." I begged huskily.

She smirked and kissed me while she took off my bra and panties, making me blush. "You are so beautiful Bella, please don't be embarrassed."

I smiled at her. "I'm not embarrassed, it's just been a very long time since anyone saw me naked, and speaking of that, I don't think it's fair if I am the only one who is naked, can I undress you as well?"

She nodded and pulled me up and into a kiss, after I had taken of her top, smiling when I saw her red lace bra that contained their amazing treasures. I never thought her breasts were as big as they were, and like she did for me I kissed her chest all over, while I worked to get her pants off, and when I saw that she was wearing a matching red lace thong, I couldn't help the soft moan that escaped me.

She then ripped off her underwear and kissed me again while she let one of her hands roam over my body, taking one of my nipples between her fingers, teasing it erect.

I moaned loudly and wrapped my arms around her neck and my legs around her waist, wanting to keep her as close as possible.

She then kissed her way down my body, paying very special attention to my hard nipples and my throbbing pussy, teasing my folds with her nimble fingers.

"Rose, please stop teasing me, I can't take much more."

"Patience my love, I want to memorize every beautiful inch of your gorgeous body." She said softly.

I moaned as she kissed to the apex of my thighs, moaning herself before she started eating me out.

I sucked in a breath and grasped at the sheets to have something to hang on to from the pleasure she was giving me. I had never felt something like this, and I would do anything to keep feeling things like this.

When she pulled back for a second I groaned a bit, but that turned into a loud moan quickly when she inserted two fingers into me. "Are you enjoying yourself my love?" She asked huskily.

I only managed a faint nod, which earned me a smile from her before she got back to pleasuring me.

I knew I couldn't take much more, and not even a minute later I screamed her name over and over as a sort of mantra as I came.

She pulled back with a smile and kissed her way back to my lips, and I couldn't help the moan that escaped my lips when I tasted myself on her lips.

"You taste delicious Bella. I could get used to your taste." She said with a very content smile.

"You can do that any time you wish my love. You are amazing. I never felt pleasure like that." I said softly.

She smiled and kissed me as she pulled me against her, but I had other ideas. She deserved pleasure as well and I quickly crawled on top of her, kissing my way to her erect nipples without a second thought, making her moan loudly.

Taking that as a good sign, I kissed my way down her body, moaning softly as I felt how wet she was. I was a little bit nervous about eating her out, but when I smelt the sweet scent of her juices, I couldn't resist dragging my tongue through her folds, making her moan even louder. "Please love, don't tease me. I can't take it anymore." She said huskily.

I smiled and flashed her a wink as I started eating her out in earnest, and I quickly lost myself in pleasuring her. To my surprise her insides were warm, and I couldn't help but wrap my arms around her cold thighs, wanting to pleasure her to the best of my abilities.

To my surprise I didn't take a full five minutes before Rose pushed me back and screamed my name as she came loudly, snapping a piece of the headboard off in the process, and I immediately knew why she had pushed me back. It would have snapped my neck if she had put that much pressure on my head.

I kissed my way back to her lips and smiled as she pulled me into her side. "You were simply amazing Bella, it gives me very good hope on when you are turned and we can go on for a very long time."

I smiled and kissed her softly. "I can't wait love, I really can't, but would you mind if I got some sleep. I'm sure Alice will be here at the crack of dawn wanting to try on different outfits."

She smiled at me. "Not if she knows what is good for her, but I can see you're tired, so get some sleep. I'll be here the entire night."

I nodded and cuddled into her, resting my head on her breasts as I slowly fell asleep, and I could hear Rosalie purring softly as she stroked my naked shoulder.