DISCLAIMER i do not own Twilight, or the Twilight characters. Sorry but I'm just not smart enough to come up with stuff like that. Hooray for Stephenie Meyer. :D

Sorry this took so long to update. Like I've said before, I'm about to finish High School and everything's a bit hectic at the moment.

I hope you enjoy this!

xxxxx

I had to go.

I couldn't keep doing what I was doing.

Or, at least I thought I couldn't.

But after only one night away from Jacob…he called me and asked if he could come over.

"Just to hang out" – he had said. "Watch a movie or something?"

Edward was out for the night. Hunting, of course.

I couldn't help but feel anxious as I sat on the sofa watching the clock. He would be there soon. I tried to convince myself that it would be okay. Jake and I were friends. More than friends, best friends. Surely we could manage to hang out without anything happening…

In any case, I needed to try. For Edward.

My face flushed red when I heard a knock at the door. And I swear I stopped breathing when I opened it and saw him standing there. He was wearing clothes today. A t-shirt and jeans. The t-shirt was an improvement.

"Hey Bells." he said with a smile that I couldn't help returning.

We made small talk for a few minutes, then went and sat on the couch. I suddenly realized I hadn't exactly planned the night very well. I had no idea what we were going to watch. So, I just turned on the tv, sat down next to Jacob and handed him the remote.

At first it was a little awkward…and completely silent as Jake flipped through the channels, sitting much too far away from me.

When I thought he wasn't paying attention, I slid closer to him.

Jacob wrapped his arms around me and moved me so that my head was resting against his warm chest. He did it without thinking. It was natural, the way his arm snaked around my waist, resting on my stomach. It felt so right…

With his hands on me like that, I couldn't pay attention to anything else…

…

Suddenly my eyes opened with a jolt. Had I been sleeping?!

I felt Jake laughing underneath me.

"How long have I been out?" I asked, rubbing my eyes.

"Not too long. You missed about half of this movie – whatever this movie is…" he told me.

That made me feel a little better.

I was so aware of every move he made. Every breath he took, I could feel it. Every time he moved his arm – the one that was wrapped around me – I shivered.

For the first time that night I actually tried to focus on whatever it was we were watching.

And then I froze.

A sex scene?!

The first time I chose to pay attention, and it was in the middle of a sex scene?!

I could feel how irregular Jake's breathing had become. The scene was very graphic…and I knew both of us were picturing two different people than the actors on the screen..

Both of us barely moved for the next couple of minutes…until I felt Jakes hands move under my shirt. It was such a small movement, if I hadn't been paying attention I would have certainly missed it. His hands were so warm, I couldn't help but tremble when he touched my stomach…my sides…

His hands inched further and further upward. I knew what I had to do. I had to stop him. I had to get off the couch…tell Jacob I just couldn't do it…

But I didn't stop him. It felt too good, too incredibly right.

Before I could take in what was happening, Jake was slowly lifting my shirt up over my head and placing it on the ground next to us.

"Jake…" I whispered in protest, even though we both knew I didn't want him to stop.

"Shhh Bells, it's okay…"

I was still lying on top of him, unable to look him in the eye, because I wasn't facing him.

Now it was his shirt that he was throwing to the ground.

There was still a small part of me that thought I could make it stop…but that went away very quickly when I felt Jacob's lips on my neck. While he kissed me, he reached underneath me and undid the strap of my bra…carefully pulling it off.

I couldn't turn and face Jacob just yet. I couldn't look him in the eye…because I knew that if I did I would see something I didn't want to see. I would see how much I loved him…and needed him.

His hands gently touched my already hard nipples, making me moan. I could feel Jake's hardness pressing into my back, but I tried to ignore it. I held my breath as he gently lifted up my skirt…

"take them off Bella..." he whispered, and I knew what he meant. I pulled off my underwear and skirt…so that I was entirely naked on top of him. I felt one of his hands travel down my stomach…then further…until one of his fingers slipped inside of me.

"What do you want me to do Bella?" he asked me, as one of his hands rubbed my nipples while the other touched my wet pussy.

I didn't reply. What could I say? He knew what I wanted…

But I tried not to scream as his fingers brushed against my clit. I was so wet. I could feel his fingers moving around inside of me…touching me up and down my pussy.

"I want you inside me Jake." I told him, barely keeping the moan out of my voice. He knew what I needed, and I knew he would not be gentle anymore…once I had admitted it. I didn't want him to be gentle. Not tonight.

I couldn't deny it anymore. I couldn't keep pretending that Jake and I were just friends…not even for Edward's sake.

"Fuck me Jake. Please!"

That was all he needed to hear. Before I knew it I was lying down on the cough and Jacob was straddling me, undoing his pants at the same time. Finally, we were both naked. His body felt so amazing pressed against mine.

For the first time that night, he was kissing me on the lips. This was unlike any other kiss I'd ever had from Jacob before. It was rough, and so full of passion. His hands were all over me…and so was his tongue.

"I love you Bella, and I know you still love me too." he said as I spread my legs and wrapped them around him. I didn't say anything back. I didn't have to.

I almost screamed as I felt his cock move inside of me.

"Fuck me Jake!" I moaned as he thrust inside me harder and harder. I was so wet that I could feel myself dripping all over him. He'd never fucked me that hard before.

He was holding my arms above my head in an extremely hard grip. I'd have bruises there later, for sure…but I didn't care. I begged him to fuck me harder.

He sucked on my hard nipples as he fucked me, and I could feel that I was about to come. My whole body shook and I screamed out Jacob's name as his huge dick thrust deeper and deeper inside of me. After I had finished, and Jake was still pushing in and out of me…I heard a noise.

Then, looking over Jacob's shoulder…I saw him.

My heart froze. My breath caught in my chest. I couldn't move.

Edward was standing in the lounge room…his face twisted in an expression of anger.

"Oh my god, EDWARD!" I screamed. Jake quickly moved away from me…pulling on his pants as I quickly threw on all my clothes as well.

"Edward, this wasn't supposed to happen! What are you doing here?" I asked hysterically, tears coming to my eyes. I reached out to touch him but he moved away from me. He wouldn't look me in the eye. He was staring at Jacob.

"I came to check on her…but she wasn't in her bed."Edward explained. His voice still sounded incredibly angry.

"This isn't Bella's fault .She needs me, and you know that. You KNOW there are things that you can't give her!" Jake screamed in reply, moving closer to Edward as if he was about to fight him.

"I know perfectly well it isn't her fault. It's mine. I told her I would understand, if she…needed something more. More than I can possibly give her. For now, anyway. Even so, I think I should leave now. I have to hunt."

I'd never heard Edward talk like that before. He was so…removed. As if he was talking to himself.

"Edward, wait!" I tried to walk over to him, to comfort him somehow…but Jacob stopped me. He grabbed my arm and pulled me back to him. He wasn't being violent. Just protective. But that was not how Edward saw it, evidently.

Suddenly Jacob was thrown across the room. I hadn't even seen Edward move. I screamed as Jake's large form smashed into one of the walls, then rolled onto the coffee table, knocking over several glass objects along the way.

Not surprisingly, Jacob wasn't too happy about this. In less than a second he was on his feet again, and I could see that he was getting far too angry to stay in his human form much longer…

So that was when I ran. I couldn't stay there and watch them fight. I ran right out the front door and down the street, until I got to the forest. I didn't care that it was pitch black. All I cared about was getting away from there.

I was disgusted with myself, for what I had done. To both of them. Were they following me? Were they ripping each other to threads in my house? I had no idea. I just kept running.

Until, that is, I tripped over some sort of rock…and fell right on my face.

I didn't get up. What would be the point? I just lay there for god knows how long…in the darkness of the forest. Tears were streaming down my face and the only thing that could be heard was the sound of my quiet sobbing.

Suddenly I heard a twig snap from somewhere behind me. Oh no, I thought. They followed me.

But when I turned my head around, there was only one person standing there with me in the dark. And I could clearly see who it was.

"You…" I whispered, staring into the eyes of the man I truly loved...